Note: sorry its taken so long to update i have run through this a couple of time but i may have missed some things. So any and all mistakes are my own. Any advise or input is always welcome.
Walking over to the bed he follows. I barely even know that he's there. Sitting near the top of the bed he follows suit. Still in thought I put my head in my hands. Again I can't seem to form a coherent thought. So many ideas swirling round my head. Aliens are real. I met my dad and he's not and arse. I made an alien object glow……… and many more things….
After what feels like a lifetime I feel a hand rubbing small circles on my back. I finally realise John is still with me. I raise my head to say something but nothing emerges because there is no clear thought… I look in to those eyes and I feel a tear trickle down my cheek. I know that I shouldn't be crying. I have nothing to cry about. Everything is ok. Nothing in my world is wrong. He pulls me in to a hug. We stay there with me silently crying on his shoulder I slip in to a dreamless sleep.
I open my eyes. 'Man I feel like shit'. The lights are off and I'm lying curled up on the bed with a blanket covering me. 'What happened?' There's a knock at the door. I move go to get the door but someone else answers. After a couple of seconds I realise that John is still here. There is a whispered conversation and then the door closes. He turns and finds that I'm awake.
"Hey"
"Hi" I reply kind of croaky. He lifts his right hand to show me what he's got.
"I got us some food, thought that you might be hungry when you woke" He smiles at me and I can't help but smile back. A slight pang of shame goes through me. I shouldn't have cried on him. 'ooooh he brought you food, how sweet. Well its either sweet or he thinks your pathetic'.
"Hey can I turn the main light on. Having a little trouble navigating"
"You're a pilot, aren't you supposed to be able to navigate any thing" Humour enters my voice. His smile gets bigger.
"Well if I was in a fighter plane then I would have to agree with you but I'm on foot in the dark so I can't be as graceful as you." I start to laugh. I mean really laugh.
"What's so funny" Now he's confused.
"I'm the most ungraceful person you will ever find. If you can walk in to it I will. Trip over it I will. Fall up or down it I will. I'm very clumsy". I continue laughing.
"So what we eating?"
"Chinese again, didn't know if you ate pizza". He sits at the small table and arranges the food. I get up stretch and walk to the table. Sitting crossed legged.
"Well I'm very fussy. I like pizza but I'll only get the vegetarian ones."
"Really but your not a vegetarian, right?"
"No but I don't like most of the meat that shops use. They use stringy pieces of meat with fat and gristle in it. Not a fan." I grab some rice and a coke.
"I pretty much eat anything. Not fussy at all, welllll I don't like asparagus."
"Fair enough"
"So do you have anything to wear for this cabin trip?" 'ooooh he's thinking about the clothes you wear'
"Well I have trainers, jeans, vest tops and jumpers, underwear so I think so"
"You brought all that." he seemed surprised. "Your suitcase is quite small".
"I pack well." He raises his eyebrows.
"Never seen a woman who was not in the military pack so well."
"Well that's me" I flash him a grin.
"Listen, I'm sorry about what happened." 'Really hope that he doesn't want me to elaborate'
"I don't know what was wrong with me"
"Hey don't worry about it. There is nothing wrong with you." I look down. I feel his finger on my chin. He directs me to look at him.
"You have been under a large amount of stress. In the last week you found out that you have a father who was ill, you have had stress from this Jake person, you have interacted with an alien devise and you found out that Aliens existed". I close my eyes.
"No one can go through what you have gone through and not react the way that you did"
"I thought that I was fine, I thought that I had handled it."
"Yep and I'm guessing every other person in that room thought that same thing. They thought that you had handled that incredible well, they were very impressed with you."
"You knew that I was ok before I knew didn't you?" I asked in a small voice. He takes my hands in his. 'only I could make sense of that'.
"I have spent more time with you then they have. I've seen the way you behave when things are difficult. You use your head. Then later on you emotions emerge"
'How can this man know me so well?'
"So I thought that you handled that last situation so well that I would just hang around should you need someone" I lean in and hug him. He hugs me back. The food forgotten.
"Thank you. I think that I'm ok now" I pull back and smile. 'I really did feel better'
"Hey it was my pleasure." He flashes me with a smile that dazzles.
"Are you coming with us tomorrow" Now he looks a little uncomfortable. 'What's going on'?
"No, there are things that I have to do here" He doesn't elaborate.
"Oh ok does that mean that you are going to be here when I get back. You know before I go back to England" I ask hopefully. 'Please say yes, please say yes'. He stands up and starts to walk around.
"I don't think that I will be" He now is standing by the desk flicking through one of the books that I brought with me. Acting as if he didn't want to tell me this.
"I'm not actually stationed here. I'm being recalled to my original post"
"Oh ok when are you leaving?" Now I sound disappointed. Still with his back to me.
"Tomorrow after you leave". Still with his back to me.
"Oh" Is all I can say. 'Why am I feeling like this? Why do I feel like I don't want him to leave? Errrrrrrm stupid it might be because you have feelings for this man. No you can't have feelings for someone that you have only just met.' I look at him. Silence has filled the room. It's like he doesn't know what to say to me.
"Well I guess that we should make the most of this night then right?" 'Ooooh that sounds like I just asked him to sleep with me. Not a bad idea to be honest, shut up no that's not what I want.' he turns and looks at me with this mischievous grin on his face.
"Eeeeeerrrrrm I didn't mean for it to sound like that". Now he's the one that's laughing. I must now be beaming. Man I hate my skin.
"Well I didn't think that that was an offer, just thought we could talk watch a movies or something"
"Aaaahhhhhh I see." Still really embarrassed but laughing with him. There was another knock at the door. Once again john went to the door. A trolley was wheeled in with a large black TV and DVD player. The airman soon left.
John pulled the TV in front of the table and small chairs.
"I am not watching a movie on those chairs." I grabbed the trolley and positioned it at the foot of the bed. Then I settled myself at the head of the bed. I make myself comfortable while waiting for john to make the decision to join me or not. 'Oh come on this is probably the last time that you are going to see me. Just come and sit next to me will you'. I wait patiently for him to fight with whatever inner struggle he has going on.
"Oh come on". He looks at me as I pat the bed beside me while smiling sweetly at him. He then jumps on the bed next to me.
"So what do you want to watch?"
"What you got?"
"Well there's the Sweetest thing, Note book, never been kissed, Armageddon, the fifth element, Blade and troy" He finishes and waits for an answer.
"Blade"
"What!" He does a double take.
"Blade"
"Why?"
"Really you want me to explain?" He nods. "The sweetest thing is a great film but I have seen it about a thousand times. So not that film. The Note book well that film just brings back bad memories. Never been kissed is brilliant but I don't really want to see it right now. I could probably tell you most of the lines. Armageddon not a fan, the fifth element well Aliens and troy in my opinion is a film that should only be watched once." Pleased with myself I lean back.
"So it was a process of elimination?"
"No I love that film, Blood guts and gore, plus I have a thing for Wesley Snipes" he gets up to put the movie in.
"So this is so that you can drool over Snipes"
"Why would I drool over Wesley Snipes when I have you here" He freezes. 'Wow how you going to get yourself out of this one.' He laughs grabs the food and heads for the bed, Sidles up beside me puts the food between us and starts the movie.
The movie finishes and I get up to turn the TV off.
"Hey I thought we were going to watch movies all night"
"Nah I thought we could talk."
"Well I have to say that that was the first time that I watched that movie and it really wasn't that good"
"What! How can you say that?" I settle on the bed again.
"Well the fight scene was cool but that was about it. I don't have an interest in Wesley Snipes so it wasn't that entertaining for me" An evil thought crossed me mind.
"Really I thought that he was your type" I grin.
"What"
"Well I saw the way that you liked that fight scene. You know where he was all sweaty. You seemed to really like that." I said innocently. "It kept your interest so I thought that maybe your where… you know … in to men".
That was it, I realised that I was in for it now. The looked that crossed his face was evil. He didn't say a word but pounced on me. The next thing that I knew he was tickling me so much that I was practically crying from laughter. Then he stopped seemed very pleased with himself so I returned the favour. It turns out that he was just as ticklish as I was. 'Ooooh just where you wanted him flat beneath you. Shut up. But It was nice I have to say.' we both stop laughing.
I pinned his arms above his head. I have no doubt that he is allowing me to do this. My face was level with his. I love his eyes so green. They showed such depth, such longing. My gaze then drops to his lips. They look so soft, so inviting, at that moment I just want to feel them against mine. I start slowly start to lower my lips to his. At this point he lifts his head to meet my lips. I can feel his breath on my bottom lip. My heart is pounding so loudly there can be no way that he doesn't feel that.
A loud knock at the door stops our movements. The door opens and an airman walks in. I quickly roll off of john and he sits up. The airman walks over to him and whispers in his ear then leaves shutting the door behind him. John runs his fingers through his hair. Then stands.
"I'm sorry but I have to leave. A situation has arisen at my usual posting and I have to go"
"I understand" ' I don't'.
"I will try and get back before you leave" Then he heads for the door.
"Bye. If I don't see you again it was nice meeting you." He smiles sadly then leaves.
'What the hell just happened, one minute I'm just joking with him, the next moment I want to kiss him' I stand then straighten the place up. 'What are you thinking? You can't have this man. Plus you have Jake'. I look around then realise that he left his jacked. 'Jake acted like an arse I don't know if I still want him. Yeah but he was kind of right wasn't he' Picking up Johns jacket I walk to the bed and sit. 'If Jake hadn't been an arse would I have even looked at john, eeeeeerrrrrmm yes you would have, you did'. Taking a deep breath. 'Would I have tried to kiss him though, probably not? I stand up and take the jacket to the door. Open it and peak outside there is an airmen standing guard.
"Excuse me"
" Miss?"
"Erm well Colonel Shepherd left his jacket here would you please give this back to him".
"Of course"
"Is it ok if I stretch my legs?" He nods. I step out of the room and start to walk around. I walk towards what I remember is Sam's lab. Stopping just outside the door.
"Carter what do you mean it didnt have power, of course it had power it glowed for her" Jack's voice sounded strained. I should have walked in but they were talking about me, so I stayed put.
"Sir, Thor told us that it this is a child's toy. That the main point of the toy is to expel light of different colours". Sam sounds slightly exasperated. Like she has already explained this.
"It must be activated by the ancient gene"
"Carter if It was activated by the ancient gene then it would have changed colours when I picked it up, when shepherd picked it up?" He's sounding angry.
"Sir, pick it up"
"What?"
"Sir, pick the ball up"
"What will that prove?"
"Holy crap Carter why didn't that happen before?" 'Yeah like she is going to know all the answers. its alien technology for pete's sake.' I shake my head.
"Sir I think that it ran out of battery. Obviously the ancient gene activates it, but why didn't it do that you and shepherd picked it up. The only answer I can come up with is it ran out of battery"
"So what she's a battery charger?"
"Jack. Sam doesn't have all the answers but it is logical that somehow Izzy has managed to power the device up" Daniel interjects.
"Sir, it's the only answer we have for why it didn't work before she touched it but it does now" . 'huh, wait what are they saying. This is not right. I must be really tired. Yeah that's it tired.' I turn and walk back to my room. Get changed and try to sleep. Thought keep running through my mind. What do I do about Jake? What happened to John? Am I a battery charger? What's wrong with me? Will they ever tell me? What's going on back at home? The last thought I had before fell asleep. Should I stay the week or go home and forget everything that's happened. I like my life do I want it to change?
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