"Just say it Kyle."
"I love you Jessi."
Jessi didn't know what to think, her mind went to a complete blank.
"Your quiet, I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing." Kyle said nervously. "Though I understand why, so please be silent for a bit longer and let me explain…first of, I'm an idiot, and I'm sorry I never saw the truth for what it is. I chose Amanda and thought it would be the best thing not truly looking at how strongly I felt for you then when I started getting jealous-."
"You were jealous? Of what?"
"Of you and Dean, but I didn't realize it was jealousy at first, I tried to play if off as protective friend and then that I just missed your presence in my life. But that all a lie, I was in love with you and I hated seeing you with him and I'm still in love with you."
"But…but you pick Amanda, not me." Jessi said as tears ran down her face.
"I know." Kyle said stepping closer
"You told me that we couldn't hang around each other because of her." Jessi continue choking on her tears.
"I know." Kyle said again as he put his arms around. "And I know it hurt you so much, but if you accept my love then I promise I'll spend the rest of my life making it up to you."
"Kyle." Jessi said softly almost in surrender. "How could I trust you again though?"
Kyle froze, he knew what she meant and made his chose. "Will…? Will you let me show you how I feel? So you could understand that I will never hurt you like that again."
Jessi nodded confused on how he planned to show her. Kyle gently and slowly picks her chin up so that their eyes could meet. Jessi's hazel eyes were full of tears and hidden emotions and Kyle's eye were gentle and soft allowing his feelings to show and grasp Jessi. "Kyle. I don't think-."
He leaned down and kissed her softly, Jessi was frozen she didn't know what to do and suddenly her body started moving on her own, she kissed him back. Jessi began to feel it, everything Kyle felt in the past weeks; his anger, frustration with both himself and Dean, his sadness, his heart feeling like it was going to burst when he saw Dean kissing her, everything. Jessi didn't want these emotions but she realized that Kyle was speaking the truth about loving her. Every scar, every pain was evidence that Kyle had not really picked Amanda but her. The kiss deepened as Kyle slid his tongue along her lips asking for entrance, she allowed it, as they explored each other mouths she found herself sinking more and more into his words and feelings, the two of them melted together until Jessi found the strength to push him away. They were both breathless at the kiss and that's when they both realized that the lights had gone out, kissing each other made them unaware of everything else going on outside their little bubble. The kiss nothing like anything that happened before, both Kyle and Jessi were able to release all their feelings knowing the other could stand the waves of emotions coming off one another as they sucked each other into their worlds.
"Kyle I…"
Kyle smiled at her, it took her breath away. "Jessi its okay, I know that Dean's important to you, so I will leave and let you decide, I just wanted you to know the whole truth before making your choice."
Jessi nodded.
"Oh and Jessi, when making your choice please do not consider our feelings, choose the guy you want and need, the one you want to be there for you always and whichever person you choose know that I'll support you either way Jessi. Because in truth you are beautiful and deserve the best."
With that being said Kyle turned and left Jessi to her thoughts. She smiled at his words knowing that he'll stick to them forever. Jessi turned around and got in bed not worrying too much about the lights since it looked like Kyle was on his way to fix them. Jessi laid there thinking of everything Kyle had did and said and everything Dean had done and said. Dean wanted to speak with her and looked as if it was something important but what? She already knew Dean cared for her, what else could he say? Jessi decided on trying to get more sleep but with all these thoughts in her head it was harder then she could have imagined. This was going to be a rough night.
Jessi woke up around 10:00 finally get some sleep around 4:00 in the morning; she didn't have work because the manager had let Dean, Aaron and her off for the day to recuperate after the dance. Jessi decided it was time to get up and find something to eat, when she got to the kitchen she realized that most of the Trager's were gone except for Niccole and Stephen.
"Where are Kyle, Lori, and Josh?"
"Well Josh is at work today, Lori went out with Hillarie today, and Kyle got a call from Foss and asked for some help along with Declan."
"Oh okay."
After eating breakfast and watching some cartoons (Jessi is particle to cartoons because she enjoys how unrealistic they are.) it was about 11:00. Jessi got ready pretty quickly and was out the door at 11:15, she knew she would get there early but she couldn't handle being inside the house with Niccole questioning her about last night and the power. Jessi got to the beach at around 11:30; it was a pretty warm day so she took off her shoes and began to walk in the sand. Jessi liked beaches for the warmth they offered and she liked watching the waves hit the sand. She sat in the stand first looking at her feet play with the sand then watching the waves' crash over one another.
The time went by slowing but she finally heard the voice she had been anticipating all night. "Jessi."
She looked up to see Dean standing not too far away from her; he plopped next to her on the sand. She noticed that he too had removed his shoes; apparently she wasn't the only one who loved the beach. Dean smiled at her and she knew what he wanted to say was coming.
"Jessi you know I love you right?" He asked with a smile.
"Of course I do." She replied.
"And you love me too." He looked into her eyes; she was speechless, wondering if she really did. "But not in the same way as I love you." Dean continued.
Jessi's eyes widen. "Dean I-."
"No, let me speak, Jessi you and I are a lot the same, we both need others to rely on us and to be able to rely on others, something we both lacked till we had the opportunity to meet each other. Yesterday you made it clear that you are not in love with me and nothing I do will ever be able to change that completely because you know now that Kyle loves you as well. The feelings that you have for him will always remain and there is nothing I could do to make this different."
Jessi looked down. "I'm sorry Dean."
"Don't be, because I'm not, I love you and I know that even though you don't love me in that same way, I helped you smile and that's all I wanted to be able to do, make you smile at me."
"You have always been able to do that Dean." Jessi said with a sad smile, she felt the tears go to the back of her eyes.
"I know but every time you smile at me it's like nothing can compare." Dean replied.
"I feel…I feel like I used your presence." Jessi admitted.
"Jessi we both used each other's presence." Dean replied she looked up at him.
"What do you mean?"
"I need someone to rely on me, my mom was in the hospital and my sister didn't enjoy my company, she didn't want to rely on me, you made me feel more complete by allowing me to be there for you. Jessi we needed each other's presence in order to get through our lives."
Jessi smiled she knew that this was exactly how Dean saw things and that would never change. "I wanted to love you the same way Dean, I really did." Jessi said sadly.
"I know Jessi and I hoped that your willpower would change that but I glad nonetheless that at least you did want to."
"You're too good."
"I know." Dean said slightly cocky.
Jessi smiled but tears ran down her face. Dean looked at her and knew that everything they had said would hurt her but not as badly as someone else had done before. Dean placed his arm around her and pulled her into his arms. She placed her head on his chest and cried. Dean just sat there with his arms around her allowing her to cry until she no longer would need too. Dean knew this would be painful and it was but a lot more then he could have ever imagined. Jessi didn't sense it lost in her own tears; Dean's tears hit the top of her head. He managed to push them away hiding them from this beautiful girl that didn't need to see them.
Sometime later they both rose and Dean kissed her one last time, knowing that he would never be able to again but the pain of it wasn't nearly as horrible as it could be, at least they could both have some level of happiness.
Dean released her lips and her body he stepped away from her. "You saved my mom." He said with a grin.
Jessi smiled and nodded slightly.
"I don't know how you did it but you did and for that I will always be thankful to you Jessi. And I'll never regret what happened between us."
Jessi looked into his eyes, they were blunt and honest. "Me neither."
"Goodbye Jessi."
"Goodbye Dean." Dean saw how her eyes fell at this.
"Jessi, remember what I told you, beautiful girls should never be sad."
Jessi looked at him.
"I will continue to be there for you, not as a boyfriend but a friend."
Jessi smiled. "I know. I love you Dean."
Dean smirked, nodded and then turned around. "I love you more Jessi." Jessi watched him leave, his back to her but knew that they will always have a place for each other in their hearts and that was enough.
Dean continued walking, he wouldn't allow his pain to affect what just happened, and he looked to the sky and knew that there would never be feelings of regret for the way he acted towards her.
"Um…excuse me."
Dean looked down and saw a girl standing there with long red hair and green eyes staring at him. Something about her was unnerving, it reminded him of Jessi. He smiled.
"Hi I'm Dean."
"I'm Samantha." She replied. "My friends thought it'll be nice to pick up guys." Her face turning red at this. "Do you mind eating ice cream with us?"
Dean looked past her to her friends. "Sure." Life would have to move on sometime. Dean thought with a sigh.
Jessi looked back to the ocean; everything that had happened only made her stronger just like the waves' that crashed over one another, there would always be a stronger wave to crush the other before it. Jessi put on her shoes and left the beach rather than go home she decided to go back to the beginning, where her life started. She noticed that it was 4:00; it took longer than she had expected to get herself together. Upon arriving at the forest where it all began she wondered what would have happened if she was never created but knew that it didn't matter because she was and thinking of an alternate universe would not change anything. Instead she wondered about her and Kyle; would he stick to his promise of being there for her always.
"Yes." Jessi turned to see Kyle standing there. "I will always stick to that promise Jessi. Because I love you."
"Kyle." Jessi said softly.
Kyle walked to her, she wasn't sure if she wanted him there or not yet, she turned trying to escape those eyes as she walked forward but was stopped when he grabbed her arm. She felt the electricity run through them and he pulled her back into his arms holding her tightly against his chest. At first she tried to struggle but realized it was pointless, Kyle wouldn't let her run this time.
As if he read her mind Kyle said "Jessi, I'm not going to let you escape this time. I've already made that mistake once."
Jessi looked at his eyes; she saw the fear of her escaping once again in them.
Kyle looked down at her and pulled her against him once again except for he caught her lips on the way with his. Jessi felt the enormous amount of emotions inside him; they both kissed each other not holding anything back and once again sucking each other into their worlds. They once again melted into each other arms and pretty soon Jessi found herself backed into a tree. Kyle pressed against her unable to stop himself this time.
This was what was missing, it wasn't Amanda who had changed but me, these are the feelings that I wanted to express to Jessi, and it's perfect.
Kyle's arms were locked around Jessi's body and he pulled her even closer, the current of emotions was shown in the air as electricity in waves moved around them putting them in a bubble of their own. Kyle fell into the grass bring Jessi along with him, their lips separated for a moment where Kyle and Jessi just stared at each other. Jessi was flushed and her hair was in her face but Kyle just pushed it behind her ear gently and then cupped her face. Jessi put her cheek in his hand and smiled.
"Beautiful." Kyle said as he looked into Jessi's hazel eyes. Jessi felt her whole body warm at the word. Kyle looked mesmerized as he said it as if he never saw anyone so beautiful in his life. Rather than bring Jessi lips back to his, he kissed her forehead and pulled her down so that she was on top of him. He felt as Jessi placed her head on his shoulder and listened to his heartbeat which was going crazy. This moment had beaten any moment he could have ever dreamed to have Amanda.
Jessi rose to look into his eyes. "I love you Kyle." Jessi told him.
Kyle looked into her eyes, his heartbeat quickening at her words and the way she was looking at him. The love in her eyes was overwhelming and he knew that Jessi would see the same in his eyes. He felt her gasp as she saw this and her heart hammer. "I love you too Jessi, more than anyone." He replied.
Jessi bent down and this time she kissed him with full force.
Jessi and Kyle were walking back home holding each other's hand.
"What now Kyle?"
"We tell the Tragers."
"They won't be too happy about this." She said looking into his eyes.
"I know, but I love you Jessi, and I want to do this right, so I'm going to tell them the truth and if they can't accept that it won't change how I feel about you."
"We're going to tell them." Jessi corrected with a smirk.
Kyle smiled back. "We're." He corrected.
Her smile lit up. "I love you."
"I love you too. Forever."
"Forever." She replied.
"Forever." He pulled her towards him kissing her with passion and love embracing everything they had been through and knowing that nothing will ever change this feeling. After all Jessi was his now and forever.
Jessi knew he was finally hers. The satisfaction of that realization was so much sweeter then she could have ever thought.
They acknowledge the truth now; they are and always will be Soul Mates. And Kyle would Never Let His Soul Mate Go Again.
Hi again, I love Dean and wanted his and Jessi's love to end on a somewhat happy note, Kyle has begun his long task of trying to deserve Jessi's love even though he always had it.
Okay I know I said this would be the last chapter and I lied, I wanted you to see what they would say to the Tragers.
Oh and don't get the wrong idea about Dean, he is really hurt about it but Dean is one of those guys that never let anything get him down, and I do want him to be happy and he wouldn't want Jessi to feel pain about still loving Kyle instead of him, all in all Dean is a good guy and I love him for it so if you read below you'll get what I'm trying to do.
How Dean and Amanda would act to knowing that Jessi and Kyle finally get together. I want to create Dean's happy ending, so you know what, this story isn't over till the fat lady sings and only I decide that (though that probably wouldn't work for me since I'm not fat lol). :D. So please wait for the next chapter, yay for free time. You guys need to review more cause I'm not sure how this getting across to others if they don't say anything, for I know this could be horrible. T.T. Lol. -Tina.
