okay so here it is.. I know I said i was rewritting the ending and I am but I felt this chapter well few paragraphs should really be put up before the ending as so I can decide whether or not to just finish this is one chapter or just continue on wiht this story also i am deleting the previous ending to this story as I find it rather stupid having two endings.. Enjoy..

Staring at the wall. I didn't want everyone to know how weak I was. I wanted to have this operation. It meant returning to my normal life. One where I could walk, skip, run cater to myself without anyone's help. But more importantly I would be there for my Bella be her rock when she needed me.

I knew I could be there for her without the use of my legs but I wouldn't be able to protect her if there was ever a reason I needed to. It would be her protecting me and that was not the way thing work. I was suppose to be the protector I was the man and she was my vulnerable Bella who blushed for no apparent reason.

She probably didn't realise I had notice this but I did. She was mine and nobody else's. I just hoped that wouldn't change if I did end up in a wheelchair for the rest of my life.

"Edward?" Her voice pulled me from my thoughts and back to reality. I didn't need to look at her to know that there was worry in her eyes.

"yes love" I didn't want her to think I didn't love her so I made a point out of letting her no.

"are you sure you want to do this?" She moved so I had no option but to look at her. "Cause you know I'm still going to love you no matter what you decide to do" there was a tear in her eye and I couldn't have her cry over me.

"Isabella Swan I love you more than anything and I have never been more certain in my life. I cant see myself living out the rest of my life in the restraint of a wheelchair. Not many people would have the option to get this operation Bella." I looked into her eyes for what seem like forever when in reality it had only been a matter of moment.

"Its my only option" I grabbed her wrist and pulled her closer to me making my intentions clear.. She leant forward knowing I didn't have the ability to move myself forward as the stab wounds were till causing me a lot of pain.

She pulled away when we heard someone clearing there throat. Rather loudly I might add.. She stopped to whisper in my ear.. "Just don't get your hopes up" she kissed my cheek again before pulling away.

I was surprised to see that it was Alice who had interrupted normally It tends to be Carlisle who interrupts our moments…

"Alice?" I asked now slightly annoyed at her. I mean I was supposed to be taken to Theatre in less that thirty minutes and she parades on in here like she owes the place when I was trying to have a conversation with my angel.

"What Edward, I only came to tell you that Carlisle was coming. Its okay to be seen kissing every now and then by a parental but you and Bella seemed to be getting caught more than once on a daily basis" I looked to Bella to see the blush that was inevitably making its way up her pale skin.I knew I loved her I just hoped she would be able to wait for me and make it true this for us.

okay yes it was weird and I think my style of writing as improved somewhat since begiining this story.. anyway review..

love you all Jen xx