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What am I doing?
What am I doing?
What-…
This thought kept bouncing in Miyuki's head, trying to break free from his chains that prevented her from shouting the words at the young woman before her. Her own eyes locked with sparkling green ones. Feeling her face flush, not from the fever this time, Miyuki cursed herself mentally.
You should've been over these feelings by now, you stupid girl! You'll only end up making a fool of yourself!! She doesn't feel for you like you do, you've known that for a long time now!!
She drifted back to the kiss, the only kiss she and Shizuma had shared. It had been nothing more than a game for the blonde goddess of Miator, knowing she could leave every single girl in their school speechless with her behaviour, her flirting and her kisses. So why would Miyuki be any different? The only thing Miyuki had ever dared to hope had been successfully destroyed when she had felt those lips on hers.
Knowing Shizuma, she had only done that to find out if Miyuki had really been able to love someone. Miyuki hadn't allowed herself to enjoy the simple bliss of those soft lips, but she had been able to remember the feeling afterwards with startling accuracy. She had slapped Shizuma, more to hide her own need not to push Shizuma away, but she had done that anyway.
Shizuma had interpreted her tears as a sign of rejection, or perhaps she had thought Miyuki couldn't love someone after all…she would never know.
Stop it! I can't take it! Stop it!!
Unaware of Miyuki's thoughts, Shizuma could clearly read in those brown eyes something was troubling her friend…deeply. Miyuki's eyes were so easy to read when she let her walls down; it was sometimes easier to trust her eyes instead of her voice.
Shizuma felt a hidden need building from deep inside her, a need to protect…to comfort…to love…
No, she made it perfectly clear she didn't want me back then when I gave her the chance!
A normally silent voice began yelling at her from one of the deep corners in her heart, connected with her brain and plugged in into the stereo surround system stored away in her head.
You didn't give her a chance; you forced yourself on her with the subtlety of a dinosaur in Disneyland!! Challenging her to prove she didn't love anyone wasn't really the best opening sentence either. If she really didn't love you, do you think she would be lying there, allowing you to take care of her, to touch her even? She would've sent you out of Astrea screaming with just one look of those beautiful brown eyes.
Beautiful…
Shizuma's sense kicked back in when she realized she had been staring at Miyuki for a very long time. To her surprise, Miyuki cheeks had a soft, pink glow.
Is her fever coming up again?
Worried, Shizuma placed a hand on Miyuki's head again taking her temperature. She felt her friend flinch slightly under her touch and wondered if Miyuki still was in much pain.
At least her fever is almost gone…why does she look so feverish then?
Not noticing her hand had slid down and was resting now on Miyuki's cheek, Shizuma felt her breathing quicken as marveled at how soft the blue haired girl's skin was. Even pale with a feverish glow, she still was beautiful.
What am I doing?
She looked at her hand caressing Miyuki's cheek and felt her heart hammering in her chest.
What are you doing to me, Miyuki?
Miyuki swallowed, noticing how tense the air had become in a matter of seconds. She opened her mouth to say something, anything to lighten the mood, but her voice failed her.
Coughing, she tried to choke out the words she wanted to say, but it only lead to more coughing.
"Miyuki, are you alright? Miyuki?!"
Finally, Miyuki managed to utter a few words, expressing her desperate need for something to soften the pain.
"My…throat…it hurts…"
Shizuma nodded and helped her friend sit up to stop the coughing. She propped some pillows behind Miyuki's back once more and made sure she was comfortable enough.
"I'll be right back. I'll go and get something to drink and something to stop that cough of yours. Will you be alright for a few minutes?"
Miyuki wanted her to stay, but managed to bury her fears. She smiled and nodded, watching the blonde exit the room and walk to the kitchen downstairs.
What am I afraid of? She'll only be gone for a minute or two…
It's just so hard to breathe when she's not around. Like there's no air.
Miyuki's heart had since long understood she couldn't live without Shizuma. Now it was up to that stubborn mind up there to accept it as well.
As heart and mind battled for dominance, Shizuma entered the picture again carrying a second plate with medicine and another glass of milk. Okay, water would have been better, but she was in a hurry and didn't find the water bottle so, milk would have to do.
"Here you go. Take this pill-" Shizuma gave Miyuki a little blue pill, " –and you'll feel better."
Carefully, Miyuki placed the pill in her mouth and reached for the milk. She needed some fluids and she needed them now!
Without thinking, Shizuma once again placed one hand behind Miyuki's head and the glass at her lips. Too thirsty to think about her uneasiness a few minutes ago, Miyuki gulped down the milk and little blue pill.
Again, Shizuma's hand was stroking her blue hair and, once again, Miyuki had a little milk moustache.
Shizuma was struggling hard not to repeat the same action again, knowing it would startle her friend.
But-…there had been something in Miyuki's eyes when she had wiped away the white residue and had licked it off her finger.
Surprise definitely and shock…but something else had been there as well…expectation and…need?
Even now as Shizuma's eyes drifted to Miyuki's lips, she noticed a dark shade coming over her friend's brown eyes and they looked at her, waiting for something.
But what does she want? What is she waiting for? Why isn't she slapping me now, yelling at me to leave her alone?
Perhaps because she doesn't have the courage or strength? This thought suddenly popped up from the middle of nowhere in Shizuma's head, probably the same voice that was yelling at her not so long ago.
What do you mean? Doesn't have the courage or strength to do what?!
Oh, come on! If there was anyone in this house he or she would definitely pick up the strong magnetic forces that are working between the two of you, probably getting crushed whenever you two are in the same room!!
But-what are you saying? That she actually feels something for me?
That's exactly what I'm saying, my dear. The blonde's inner voice exclaimed mockingly.
But how do I know for sure? I don't want to hurt her by forcing myself on her once more…
The voice sighed; Only one way to find out isn't there?
Shizuma looked at Miyuki once more before taking a deep, shaky breath.
Only one way to find out…
She carefully set away the glass she had been holding in her hand during her inner battle of the voices and breathed out again. Letting her hand that was still stroking Miyuki's hair, slide down until it rested on the back of her neck, Shizuma leaned in closer until she could feel Miyuki breathing.
The bluenette backed away a little but was held in place by the blonde's hand.
Gently cupping Miyuki's cheek with her other hand, Shizuma drew her best friend closer until her face was only inches from her own.
Only one way to find out…
With this thought Shizuma closed her eyes and placed her lips on Miyuki's, pouring all her love and care into this kiss.
Somewhere in the house, heart and mind connected.
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It's the first time I've written a first kiss…I just hope I did a good job and didn't disappoint you…
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