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Chapter 13 - Promises
JACOBS POV
I stood by the Rabbit watching her with Ed and Bella. There were no words to describe just how lovely she looked; she was purely breathtaking. Images of our outing in the woods flashed briefly through my mind before I noticed Edward glaring at me from the corner of his eye. "Sorry… sorry… can't help it Ed." I looked down at my feet shuffling in the grass. "You know I love her, and I think I've behaved real well Ed… but you know… I'm only a man Ed." I looked up at him and let all the love and frustration and just pure determination show on my face. I couldn't keep things from her, and I wanted so bad to tell her exactly how strong my love for her truly was. "She loves me too… but I can't keep it from her any longer man. I'm going to tell her tonight with or with-out your permission. Though I'd really rather it is with your permission." Ness turned and walked down the porch stairs towards me. "Come on Ed. Whaddya say?" I watched as Ed looked back and forth between Renesmee and myself before frowning and nodding his head.
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RENESMEE POV
We stood in the crowded line waiting to purchase our tickets outside of the gym. I was watching the heated glances Jacob and Seth were receiving from the girls nearby; and even some from further back in the line. Willa and I however, were getting murderous glares. Willa would simply wave and blow kisses every time she caught one, I could tell she was totally eating up the attention. I felt Jacob squeeze the hand he held gently within his and looked up smiling at him. The height the heels gave me was quite a nice change; I was now chest height instead the usual rib height. "You ok?" he asked. He must have seen the looks we were getting.
"Perfect." Nothing was going to ruin this night for me. I was with some of my favorite people in the entire world, Jacob had never looked more handsome, and I was going to spend the entire weekend with aforementioned handsome man. We moved forward a few steps in the line and purchased our tickets then followed Willa and Seth to the cheesy artificial flower arch they were taking pictures at. Our turn was coming up quickly and Jacob had a mischievous look on his face. I wonder what he's up to… I found out soon enough. Jacob smiled down at me before he ducked lightly and scooped me up into his arms; one arm behind my back and the other under my knees. I flung my arms around his neck in surprise. "Say cheese" he grinned and I couldn't help but giggle and smile up at him as the flash went off in our faces. "That one's definitely going in the yearbook!" the girl behind the camera yelled excitedly.
He caught up with the others before finally letting me walk again, keeping one of my hands wrapped in his own. I could hear the loud hip-hop music blaring through the open doors. "You ready?" Jacob asked smiling down at me. "Are you?" I teased, knowing he hated to dance. He brought the hand he held up to his lips and kissed it gently. "With you by my side I'm ready for anything." I nearly melted into a puddle of goo at his feet. "The faster we get this over with, the faster we can go home" I winked at him. Willa grabbed my hand and pulled us behind her quickly. "Quit stalling and get your butts in here, I'm ready to get my groove on."
We stepped through the doors into the blaring music. I let my eyes adjust quickly and took everything in. I was pleasantly surprised; it wasn't nearly as corny as I'd thought it would be. The theme of this dance was Starry Summer Nights and they had outdone themselves. They'd papered over all the walls making them black with painted clouds and somehow had put little twinkling lights throughout the paper; they'd also hung the same twinkling lights from the support beams in the ceiling. These were the only lights in the dark building besides a strobe light and a large disco ball in the middle of the room. There was a large stage for the DJ and his equipment on one side of the room and tables for sitting and refreshments on the opposite side. There were teachers there as 'chaperones' but they were all huddled at one of the tables as far away from the throbbing music as they could get.
The DJ was just starting a new song and Willa squealed pulling us all out onto the dance floor. I recognized it and almost groaned until I saw that Jacob was singing along with a huge grin on his face. Hmm… I never knew he was such a fan of Sir Mix-a-lot's Baby Got Back. He smiled sheepishly and shrugged when he noticed that I had caught him mouthing the words. I just laughed and joined Willa in her gyrating moves. Jacob and Seth just stood there bobbing their heads uncomfortably. Willa pulled me close and laughed into my ear "I hope they slow dance better than that" I shrugged. The song came to the end and the next one came on, it was Ashanti's Only U. This was definitely one of those get close and tease your man songs, so I took full advantage of the darkness of the room and deep bass beats of the song.
"You are going to dance with me Jacob" I ordered giving him my best attempt at a seductive smile. He nodded. Good. I put his hands on my hips and slowly moved my body against his so he could catch the rhythm. He caught on quickly and soon our bodies were brushing and teasing against one another; one of his legs slightly between mine, my hands on his chest, his still on my hips. He was staring at my mouth; I licked my lips lightly and saw his gaze intensify. There's no way in hell he's not going to kiss you tonight Renesmee! I pressed my body tightly against his and wrapped my arms around his neck, threading my fingers into his hair. We danced like that, staring deeply into the others eyes, for so many songs I lost count. It didn't matter what kind of song it was, or if we kept the right rhythm; we didn't care.
"Come outside with me?" Jacob asked out of nowhere. I wonder what's outside…
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JACOBS POV
You can do it. You ARE going to tell her TONIGHT. You can do it. Come on you ass-hat! Ed finally tells you it's time and you're gonna drag it out like some little pansy? I had been mentally kicking my own ass ever since the drive here. Ness looked amazing tonight, even more of a goddess than usual. I couldn't stop thinking about our encounter in the woods two nights ago… I still wanted to kiss her so badly it hurt. I looked down at her rose colored lips and watched as the tip of her pink tongue ran along them. Oh Ness… you're killing me… She pressed her body tightly against mine then and I was amazed I could still stand; that dress of hers did insane things to her cleavage, not to mention my libido. Whoa there mister, I'm pretty sure she's got a face somewhere above that dress. I stared into her eyes intently, knowing that if I didn't I was going to rape her with my eyes. Should I tell her now? No, look at her man… she's having a good time. Let her dance. Her hands where in my hair now; her nails lightly scraping against my scalp.I suppressed shudder after shudder from the delicious feeling until I was sure I would go mad. Forget the dancing you fool! Just tell her already and kiss her brains out!
"Come outside with me?" I blurted out. Please say yes, please say yes… She looked a little confused. "Sure." HOLY SHIT BATMAN, SHE SAID YES! I knew I was grinning from ear to ear as I pulled her back outside but I just couldn't help myself. I dragged her behind me until I found the perfect spot, or well… as close to perfect as I could manage at the moment. I sat down on one of the many picnic tables and patted the spot next to me, motioning for her to join me. She still had that confused look on her face but she sat anyway. Oh crap… I had been rehearsing exactly what I was going to say to her ever since Ed had told me it would only be a few weeks. Unfortunately now that I was about to do it, my mind drew a complete blank. I looked up into the abnormally clear sky hoping at least something would come back to me.
"It's beautiful tonight" she whispered. Her face was upturned to the sky; the curve of her neck accentuated by the moonlight, her lips slightly parted in a smile. She was mesmerizing. Don't say anything cheesy… don't say anything cheesy…"Not nearly as beautiful as you." Aw crap man! That was so cheesy. A light blush filled her cheeks. Hmm… well… I guess she didn't mind a little cheddar. "I love you Renesmee Carlie Cullen." "I love you too" she whispered still looking to the stars. Why isn't she looking at me? "Could you look at me for a minute Ness… there's… uh… something I want to tell you…" Yea… real smooth Jake. She angled her body towards me and brought her eyes to mine, a worried look making a crease between her brows. "What's wrong?" she asked. Wrong?! Nottafuckinthing- unless you count my apparent loss of brain power at the moment. Ugh. "Nothing, it's not like that, everything's great, I swear." The little crease smoothed out somewhat. "Then what did you want to tell me Jacob?" Here it goes Jake…
"I imprinted." The crease deepened and tears filled her eyes. Oh no… why's she crying?! This was definitely not the reaction I was expecting… "Who is she" she finally managed to choke out. YOU IDIOT! SHE THINKS YOU IMPRINTED ON SOMEONE ELSE! I had completely forgotten Ed said she was worried I'd imprint on someone else. Think of something fast Jake! You better fix this! "Do you remember your first Christmas Ness?" she nodded lightly as a tear dropped down her cheek. "You remember the bracelet I gave you? The one I made for you?" She nodded again. "It's at home in my jewelry box, it got too small… I don't understand what that has to do with who you imprinted on…" she choked out, more tears falling. I gently smoothed the tears off her cheeks with my thumbs and brought her face to mine. "That was the Quileute version of a promise ring Ness… you know what a promise ring is right?" She nodded but I could see it still hadn't clicked for her.
I pressed my lips chastely against hers and pulled away whispering, "It was you Renesmee… I imprinted on you the day you were born." She sat there a moment in shocked silence before making a small mewling sound in the back of her throat and throwing her arms around my neck. Nose to nose she searched my eyes. "Really?" she asked, her hot peach scented breath invading my senses. "Really" I answered, my lips brushing against hers igniting little sparks between us.
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RENESMEE POV
He was really mine. Mine for always… forever… for all of eternity! The joy I felt was quickly overshadowed by the tingle the brushing of his lips had left on mine while he spoke. He finally kissed you! No… wait… did he? I pulled back placing my hands in my lap and looked at his lips and then into his eyes. "Did you just kiss me Jacob?" I whispered, afraid if I spoke normally my voice may break whatever spell it was we were under. His brows creased and all of a sudden he bowed his head bringing the palm of his hand to his head, smacking his forehead over and over. I caught the words dumbass and permission as he mumbled under his breath. Dumbass? Permission? What is he talking about?! I just sat still letting him beat himself for whatever it was that he was talking about. He didn't seem to be stopping so I grabbed his hand. "Jacob! Stop that! What in the world is wrong with you?"
His eyes were filled with apologies and sadness when he finally brought his head back up somewhat. "I'm so sorry Ness… I didn't mean… I didn't mean to…" I had never seen Jacob so distraught and it made me physically ache inside to see him look so down. I brought my hand to his face; gently cupping his cheek and guiding his face back up all the way. "Jacob… what didn't you mean to do and why are you apologizing? I feel so lost… I have no clue what you're talking about." His eyes closed and he turned into my palm inhaling my scent and pressing a light kiss there. "I just wanted this to be so perfect Renesmee… I love you so much and I had this all planned out in my head; exactly what I was going to say and do, and then I ruined it." He said with his eyes still closed grimacing. A forced sounding laugh came through his tight-lipped mouth before he said "I'm such a dumbass I didn't even ask before I kissed you and I forgot to show you the best part."
What the hell!? I was getting just a tad aggravated to say the least. "Jacob Black! You look at me this instant!" I ground out through clenched teeth. His eyes snapped open and stared into mine shocked. "I have been waiting for you to kiss me for weeks now, and now that you finally have you apologize for it?!" He opened his mouth to explain but I just moved the hand on his cheek over to cover his mouth. "Hush. I put myself through hell trying to figure out just what kind of girl it is that you think is perfect with that stupid project, just so I could get you to imprint on me; which you did nothing but circle parts and features on I might add, so it was no help at all." He mumbled against my hand and I hissed. "You. Are. Going. To. Let. Me. Finish. Understand?" His eyes got wide and he nodded against my hand. "I went through the hell that is Alice and Victoria's Secret just to wear some sexy PJ's and attempt to get you to admit that you loved me. That was a big bust too. Then I wait and wait for you to kiss me, and you don't; so I have to go to Willa and Jon to get tips to seduce you, just with the hopes that I might finally get that kiss, and while the results were quite nice, you still rejected me!"
I was so angry now I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes once again; an embarrassing trait I'd inherited from my mother but I continued on anyways. "And tonight, to top it all off, you tell me that you imprinted on me years ago, are sorry for kissing me, then complain about how you told me and cryptically mention some best part!" I dropped my hand from his mouth and wrapped my arms around my waist, hugging myself tightly because I was sure if I didn't I would explode into a million little pieces and cry like a baby.
He started laughing. Laughing of all things! I stiffened as he grabbed my hips and maneuvered me into his lap; I was still doing my best to hold back the strange anger tears. "Oh Sunshine" he laughed lightly, recovering from his outburst. "I wish you would have just said something instead of putting yourself through hell honey." I leaned my head forward, hiding my face behind the curtain of my hair. "I never told you I imprinted on you because I didn't want you to feel obligated to love me in return and once I knew for sure you loved me back all on your own, Ed told me I had to wait until he gave the all clear." I was going to kill Daddy. Jacob brushed my hair back and turned my face to his gently. "I've wanted to kiss you so long Renesmee… I apologized because I've been trying my hardest to be a gentleman and I really truly wanted tonight to be perfect."
I leaned laying my head into my spot on the crook of his shoulder, letting his voice and heat calm me. He just held me rubbing small circles against my spine for a short time. "As for the Victoria's Secret PJ's…" he started before burying his face in the top of my head. "I really, really enjoyed those Sunshine and I look forward to seeing them again someday… when we're ready." He mumbled into my hair. I put my hand to his cheek and sent him some flashes of me checking myself out at his apartment in the revealing PJ's. He groaned. "Yep Ness… those are definitely the ones." I giggled and whispered "there are other colors too." Just to tease him. He groaned again, shifting himself on the bench. "Nessss… stop trying to distract me I'm not done here little miss."
"Stand up for me Sunshine." He said helping me off his lap. He spread his legs and pulled be standing in between them, looking up at my face. "Now onto that silly project of yours… If you would have taken the time to really look at everything I circled, you would have understood. " He brought his hand up and tugged one of my curls playfully. "Every time I circled a girl's hair, it was because it reminded me of you. The color, the curl, and the way your hair shines in the sunlight." My breath caught as his fingertips glided along my collarbone and up the side of my neck. "You look so delicate and graceful here Sunshine… if I circled it, I saw you." His fingers continued their trails briefly running across my shoulder and down my arm, along my jaw-line, the indent of my waist and hip, and many other random places until I began to feel faint from the tingling effect his touch was having on me.
"All of these things Ness. Every single thing I circled, they were all you Renesmee. They have been you since the day you were born and they will always be you for the rest of our lives. You are my perfect girl Sunshine" he said with awe in his voice. He slid me back a step from between his knees and stood wrapping me in his warm embrace. He stepped back releasing his hold on me, all but one of my hands, which he held in both of his and rested against his heart. I looked up at him and his eyes were bright with what could only be love shining down at me. I knew the same look had to be mirrored in my eyes because I loved this man; I loved him with all my being.
He smiled a soft crooked smile and leaned down pressing his lips tenderly against mine. He straightened whispering "and this… this is the best part Ness" as I felt him slide something cold and hard onto my finger against his heart. "Now you have a real promise ring Renesmee. I promise to always be here for you, to be everything you could ever possibly need, to try my hardest to make you the happiest woman on this planet, and I promise you a love everlasting."
Happy tears where running down my face as I flung myself into his arms and pressed my lips against his.
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Ok… this definitely had to be the hardest chapter for me to write so far. I was torn between a drama filled lemon-fest and doing it exactly how I did it. I apologize to everyone thirsty for some lemon-aid right about now, but I really felt like I needed to get back to the personalities I originally gave my versions of Jacob and Renesmee.
Also, I want to thank the few people who answered my plea for help with this chapter. So thank you, thank you, thank you! A HUGE thank you goes out to fairy-tale romantic because she reviewed my rough draft for this chapter and helped me get back on track.
Oh… and it's after 4am for me and it's been over 24 hours since I slept, so I am WAYYYY too tired to proof-read and edit for any grammar or spelling or any other random kind of mistakes before I post it. So please, bear with me.
