I Love Him, I Must Love Him Not
A/N: Hey! I'm back and just so ya'll know I still need to know who dates Karin. I think I'm making an OC for this fic while in my IchiRuki fic she is dating Hisagi. This chapter is up for ransom. I want 3 more reviews. Thanks reviewers and readers. I love you.
Chapter 3 Confrontation 1: Karin
Momo had one thing she just had to do. This was the only way to actually clear her mind.
"Karin… I'm on my… Yeah. Ichigo doesn't know… I have every right to call him by his first name! Bye Kurosaki-san." Momo was aggravated by the end of the conversation with the younger Kurosaki.
"I'm leaving!" Momo yelled grabbing some soul candy. Being attacked by a hollow while getting to Karakura Town would be pretty bad.
"Where you going?" Ichigo shouted back.
"Out! I'll be back late." Momo shouted dashing out the room. She was going to use a Senkai Gate to go to the Soul Society and then go through Urahara's gate. She said the incantation quickly and hid her reiatsu, if someone found out she was in the Soul Society… Better not go into detail, she thought seeing Yoruichi (in human form).
"Hinamori." she said seriously. "How good it is to see you! Finally showing some backbone and confronting-" she was cut off by Momo clamping a firm hand on her mouth.
"Gate. Open. Now!" Momo hissed looking around. Does the whole Soul Society need to know my business, she pondered.
Yoruichi nodded and opened the gate. Momo sighed it was hard enough without Yoruichi shouting her business to everyone. As she dashed through the gate she focused on what she would do. She would apologize and take every hit that is thrown and kick that is aimed.
She fell out the portal into the strange room she knew to be Urahara's basement. She stopped to catch her breath before walking away.
Your fault, Momo. Everything's your fault. Yet, you still are to blame. You make Ichigo suffer. It's my fault. Momo thought walking through the doors into the open alley. A black car pulled up and when the windows were rolled down it revealed Kira.
"Momo, you don't have to do this." he said staring at her with such intensity that Momo almost ran back inside. Almost.
"I have to Kira-kun. If I don't it'll just get me later. It's been two years-" she said biting back tears.
"No. Momo please! Don't think about that!" Kira was practically pleading. Momo stared in his blue eyes and dashed off. Karin had won, she was broken and blaming herself. Momo ran and ran not looking where she was going. Cars honked their horns and people yelled but Momo ignored it.
She stopped when she heard her voice. Her angry and hatred filled voice.
"Momo, how lovely it is to see you." Karin said staring across the street. Momo froze and more tears fell down her face. "So sad. You ok, Momo-chan?" Karin asked. Momo stared shocked. "Oh yes! I found out about the name no one calls you anymore. Ichi-nii stopped calling you that too. He probably just feels sorry for you." Karin finished walking up to the brunette.
"Please, stop." Momo begged. Didn't she want this? She wanted to stop feeling loved as punishment for what she did. But now she just hated herself more.
Suddenly Karin's smirk disappeared instead there was pure hatred. Her hands were clenched into tight fist. "No one to protect you this time." she hissed raising a fist.
Momo saw it before she felt it. The impact of being punched in the nose sent her flying backwards. She was being kicked now and she screamed when she felt something snap.
"I want to talk! Stop please! It Hurts! No More!" Momo shouted crying. She felt a sharp pain in her head but she willed herself not to fall into unconsciousness. She could kill hollows, Arrancars, and bad Shinigamis but when it came to certain people she was helpless. Too bad Karin happened to be one of them.
"For Rukia!" Karin yelled stomping on her ankle. "For Ichi-nii!" she hissed slapping her hard. "And for Histugaya-kun! I liked him but he always talked about you! I was glad he was happy! I told him so too! Then you went and got him killed! I-I hope you die, Hinamori Momo!" Karin shouted crying.
Momo didn't know what to do but she was losing consciousness quick. "Maybe you'll get your wish…" Momo said as everything turned black but not before she heard him.
"Momo-chan? Karin what the hell did you do?" Ichigo shouted getting his sister off her.
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Momo woke up on something very uncomfortable. She groaned as she took in her surroundings. She hated hospitals, she really didn't trust human doctors. They didn't even have healing kidos for Kami's sake!
"I'm not apologizing Ichi-nii! I'm old enough to make decisions for myself and I don't think I made the wrong one!" Karin hissed venomously.
"Apologize Karin! You landed Momo in a hospital!" Ichigo growled out.
"Ichi-nii. I'm just returning a favor." Karin said and Momo heard footsteps.
"Come back here Karin! Damn it! Yuzu go after your sister!" Ichigo yelled walking away.
Momo let tears fall this was her fault. She sat up and jumped out of bed. She hated this and she wanted everything to go back.
"Momo lay back down." Ichigo said hoarsely. Almost as if he had been crying. Momo had only heard him like that once before. Don't cry Ichigo. Please don't cry, Momo though attempting to get out of the room.
Blood. Death. Ichigo, I'm scared, Momo thought running again she was so confused. She was in a hospital room or was she on a bloody battlefield? She was tired of confused and hurt. She was tired of constantly being reminded of that day so many years ago.
Tired.
She had confronted the wrong person. She didn't need to talk to Karin, she needed to talk to herself.
"I need to be alone. Can I have a weekend to my self Ichigo?" Momo asked as she looked around. Ichigo glanced at her worriedly.
"Momo-chan… fine just be careful. This weekend. Ok? You have class tomorrow." he said rustling her hair.
"Okay. Strawberry-taicho." she said letting a false smirk appear on her lips. He growled and his hand slipped to her bun.
"Oops." he said as he undid the tie and hair fell all over her face. He then moved over as a doctor started looking her over.
"You seem to be fine, Ms. Hinamori. Take it easy and your wounds will heal fine. Your ankle is sprained though." the doctor said lightly prodding her body. She flinched when his hand reached her head. "Did that hurt?" the man asked.
"Only a little. I'm fine really!" she said shaking her. But she was thinking, just sign the damn form and get me out of here! Ichigo saw the look on Momo's face and a smirk played on the corners of his lips. Momo glared daggers at him.
"I don't know Ms. Hinamori. Maybe you should spend the night…" the doctor said flipping through papers.
"No! I mean, I'm fine just let us go home." she said she then added a small, "Please?" at the end.
"No, I'm doing another CAT scan and getting a head trauma specialist in here. If everything turns out okay from that then you may go home." he said chuckling. Momo growled under her breath. She glanced at Ichigo only to find his eyes stony and his lips in a straight line.
Laughter. That was what hid behind that mask, two years of laughter and smiles.
"You shouldn't beat yourself up captain. A lot of people love you and just want you to be happy. I know you miss Rukia-chan, I miss Toshiro, but that's… that's not a reason not to smile!" she said smiling through tears.
"When I'm gone sort things out Ichigo! That's what I'm doing I'm fixing myself for a new beginning! That part of my life is closed! Please start a new chapter! This one will have a happy ending!" Momo said as Ichigo turned to leave. She really wanted to say make a new chapter with me but that wouldn't work.
"Momo, some things take time to heal… but we've taken too much time. You're right it's a new beginning." Ichigo said slowly as if choosing the right words to say. Before he left the room he mumbled something Momo barely heard it, "As long as the beginning is with you."
Momo choked as tears fell down her cheeks. "Oh Ichigo… why do your words affect me this way?" she mumbled as the doctor came in with another man. He sent her heart out of control and made her head spin. Did he know? Did he care? And most importantly, Did she have this effect on him?
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Momo breathed a sigh of relief as Ichigo pulled up to their apartment. "Why do you hate hospitals so much?" Ichigo asked in all seriousness.
"I don't hate them! I just think they should use much more effective methods! Cutting people open when you could easily use kido! Ridiculous!" Momo said throwing up her hands for dramatic effect.
Apparently Ichigo noticed Momo's display for her replied, "Momo stop being a drama queen and go into the apartment." They both hopped out the car and dashed upstairs. First one inside got hot shower dibs.
"Not fair! You have longer legs!" Momo yelled panting. Ichigo turned around shocked. Momo covered her mouth and bowed her head. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean too. It just slipped." Momo mumbled as tears welled up in her eyes.
"Momo, look up. I'm not mad. Another short girl told me that once I guess it just so happens both of you are jealous of my superior height." Ichigo said smirking.
Momo stared at him at first in shock and then in anger. "I'm not short!" she huffed angrily.
"I'm average height." Then she stormed off into the kitchen as Ichigo walked off towards the bathroom. Things hadn't changed between us. And I'm glad about it. Momo thought boiling water.
"We are having rice and leftovers! Chocolate strawberries for desert!" she yelled going through the fridge. She really needed to go grocery shopping soon.
"Why strawberries?" Ichigo yelled back as Momo heard the rush of running water.
"Because I love strawberries…" Momo murmured and went back to cooking. Her new chapter would definitely be filled with strawberries. Hopefully his would be filled with peaches.
Yes the way to start my life is fixing up myself. Who knows maybe I'll even progress so much my past won't haunt me. I'll confront myself, Momo thought.
A/N: Sorry for the shortness, lateness, and sloppiness of this chapter I'll go back and fix it later. Three reviews and I start writing the next chapter I promise to post it as fast as possible after these conditions:
1) 3 reviews
2) I have updated my IchiRuki fic
3) At least one review talks about who Karin should date!
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Danii
