He looked blankly back at her. "What?"
"Arnold she isn't coming back. She's leaving tomorrow morning for L.A."
She stopped there. Waiting if he had anything to say. When she gathered that he was waiting for her to say more, she went on.
"She left for the same reason that you've been sitting out her forever. She' sick of not knowing…."
Now she was getting upset. It always sparked a anger in her when she thought about this. The way Helga was hurting, and the thought that Arnold was the one causing her best friend pain. He tone became darker as she continued, looking him in the eyes.
"She was sick of being 2nd best. Sick of having to wait for you. Sick of giving you all of herself and only getting half of you in return!"
She stood up. Now looking down at him she scolded him more.
"She loved you, ya know? With all her heart. She has since she was 3! You've just had your head in the clouds to long to notice. When you guys started sneaking around she was so happy she couldn't stand it! She thought 'Hey some is better than none'! You continued to make her believe you would be with her when the time was right. But she got tired of waiting Arnold! It was wearing her out!!!"
By this time she was practically screaming at him. She was red in the face and she was on the break of tears.
She looked around, let out a breath and closed her eyes. After a few moments she looked back at him. Still not speaking, giving him time to take it all in. Time to realize the truth.
A few moments later he stood, Running both hands through his messy hair. Sighing, he finally spoke.
"Your right." He said truthfully. "This is all my fault. I was so stupid not to see it. I just wish she would have told me. Gave me a sign. Something…" His voice cared on…
Remembering a conversation she had with Helga hours before the show, she reached into her back pocket of her jeans, pulling out a folded piece of paper and handing it to Arnold.
"Here…" she said slowly. Placing the paper in his hand. "She wanted me to give this to you after she left the building. She said it was really important for you to have. So, here." she said as he took the paper from her hands and examined it.
When she was satisfied that she had done what was asked of her, she turned to walk away, when one more thought stopped her.
"Hey Arnold" She said, turning back to face him. He lifted his eyes from the folded paper back to look at her.
"I hope that helps you to understand things better, and maybe one day, you can fix what been badly broken."
With that, she turned on her heals and headed towards Gerald's car.
When they drove out of sight, Arnold found himself walking down the street in the direction of home.
He thought about the past year. Now things where a little cleared to him. A lot of Helga's behavior the past few months was becoming clearer, the nights events were becoming clearer.
As he reached and entered the boarding house. He stayed wrapped in his thoughts as he made his way through his room to his roof. That's where he liked to think, to work problems in his hear out.
Once he was comfortable in his chair, he reached into his pocket to retrieve the paper phoebe had gave him earlier that night. He carefully unfolded it, as if it may rip and all would be lost.
He leaned back and read the words she had wrote for him. And it wasn't long till he found that this would be the hardest note he'd ever have to read.
Arnold,
This is one of the hardest things I have ever or will ever have to do, and im so sorry. I cant do this anymore. I've been holding this in for so long that im starting to lose sight of who I am and what I stand for. I think its time you know the truth.
Since I was 3 I've been head over heals in love with you. When things between us started to happen, I let my heart take control of me and pushed me mind aside. No matter how much I love you, I shouldn't allow what's been happening, but I did. Now I find myself in more pain then I started.
That's why im taking this chance to walk away. This isn't what I want to do, trust me, but I have to do what's best for me. And right now this seems like the best and easiest rout.
Maybe someday we can get past this, if its meant to be, I just cant stand in the shadow and pretend to be happy anymore.
Im so sorry.
Love always,
Helga
His heart sank in his chest. How could he have been so blind? To not see what was right before him. He knew that everything he was doing was wrong, But he enjoyed being with her and he assumed she was ok with it. That she didn't want people to know. Boy was he wrong.
He knew what he had to do. But where was she going??
He went over all the possibilities in his mind, till something hit him like a tone of bricks.
Rushing back to his room. He grabbed his phone and keys and ran down the hall towards the front door.
As he passed through the hall he heard his grandpa call from the kitchen.
"Where ya heading short man?"
Placing his hand on the doorknob, he turned back to answer.
"ill be back tomorrow grandpa, I've got to so make things right."
With that, he walked out the door, got in his car, and Cranked it up, Heading for the airport.
She was going to L.A…..He knew for a fact. That's where he'd find her.
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Sorry it took so long to update guys. I started working on the chapter with intention to post sooner, but work crept up on me and I have been sleeping for like 2 days ( I know right!) so here it is. Sorry if the ends kind of…ya know…Blah. But hope you enjoy.
There's like 1 or maybe 2 chapters left. I would say expect chapter 3 around Sunday at the latest!
As always Reviews are welcome!!
Later Days,
LC
