I took a deep breath, calming myself and my jitters.
"Come in." My voice broke and I struggled to say the words out loud. Why was I so nervous and scared? There wasn't anything to fear, right?
He opened the door, I looked over to my piano bench close to me and I was about to gesture for him to take a seat there if he pleased but before I could he sat right beside me on the bed.
I was ok with that too.
"Are you alright?"
"Very happy." I answered smiling at him. And I wasn't just saying that. I was to excited to have him so close but I wasn't sure why. I thought about it and realized I hoped he would touch my cheek like he did the last time and send that feeling through me again. Like I had just been stroke by lighting and thunder going through my body. It was like a deep fog clouded my mind, a deep fog of happiness. I would have enjoyed so much more the last time if my voice hadn't been shouting at me what… Edward(happiness agian)… was trying to tell me that led up to the truth that changed my content view of my family.
Edward turned away seemeing upset by my answer. How odd.
Then I suddenly knew he had over herd my conversation with John Ryan. I sensed he didn't like it, he was upset by my answer because he belived I was very happy by the converstaion I just held with John Ryan.
Of course that's why he believedI was happy! Who in there right mind would be happy after finding out there mother lied to them and your family not telling you they knew? Ugh, I was still so very upset by that but I couldn't seem to find a trace of an unhappy thought when I looked at his face or definitely not when I looked into his eyes.
"I was wondering if you had any questions." He said turning back to look at my face.
He searched for something there.
He also wondered if it was to soon and still didn't feel like discussing about it.
But of course I had many questions! Just not about my mother and all of that drama.
I laughed at my sudden thought. "Not about the whole mama drama issue, but yes I have questions." I answered almost laughing. Haha, mama drama, that was a name for it, hehe.
He laughed looking away. I thought he laughed understanding my inside thought joke. But he was going back to a different time.
"You always did have many questions. Too many questions." His mind was drifting to another time.
"Exactly!" I said. He turned to me. "Tell me about that."
He starred at me thoughtfully. "Tell me about me."
I smiled eagerly. I would finally know some of my unknown questions. I was bit afraid to finfdsomething I didn't want to know though. John Ryan always told me, as I spoke about wanting to know about my past life, that humans have many… problems in life some that are unpleasant and some that last long in life. That maybe I would not want to know to much. I didn't know what he spoke off. But now I understood. There could be a lot of cold memories I might not want to know remember like John Ryan wishes he could forget his bad memories.
I brang back my focus to Edward instead of recalling John Ryan's sad memories.
He was still starring at me. He was planning I think.
"How about I make you a deal?"
My eyes tightened.
He obviously read a question in my eyes. He expected me to ask about what deal he had in mind. He wasn't quite right, that was only my second question.
His face was familiar to me. The expression he held, It seemed familiar, like this wasn't the first time I've seen him wear it. I tried to remember when he held that hint of something in his expression. It seemed diabolical, like he was up to something.
"You make a lot of deals don't you?" I wasn't sure what brought me to ask that. I wasn't even sure what it meant.
I was suddenly over joyed by the thought that hit me. Maybe I recalling something from my past life! About Edward, maybe about the relationship we had.
When I saw his face again I rembered what he said yesterday.
We had a different kind of relationship then the one I thought in my head as friends.
We once had a romantic relationship and he made it obvious before he had something for me. He made it pretty darn obvious right now with the expression on his face. I thought back to my second question and suddenly wondered what exactly he had in mind.
He had seemed surprised by my first question but amused. I ignored my first question now and asked another.
"What do you mean?" I asked. "What did you have in mind, exactly?"
He forgot about whatever train of thought my first question led him on and he hesitated to tell me about the deal he had in mind.
"Well…"
"Yes?" I was now in fear and nervouse agaian.
"Now im beginning to wonder if my proposal would offend you."
"Don't hesitate to ask." I was to curious of what he was going to suggest in his deal.
"I wouldn't know if you are willing to,"
I wanted t know badly what he was offering. I listened to see if the silent whisper had anything to say. At first it didn't seem to be awake but as if I had called on to it, it spoke.
" But Ill just simplify the deal. Either way I'll just end up giving in to what you want in the end. If you don't want to take either deal because your not willing I probably wont be able to resist giving you whatever it is you want, deal or no deal."
"Please tell me the deals you have in mind anyways, I want to hear them. Like you said, either way you wont be able to resist giving in to what I want anyways. Im just very courios of what you deals you had in mind and what you would getout of it."
He thought it over a moment and decided to tell me. My voice told me he was a bit shy about what he wanted to ask me and if somehow it might offend me.
"Will my first deal in mind was I would tell you everything I could about your life and answer any questions you might have or come up with," I was liking this first deal so far "if …you would give me one kiss."
That hit me hard even though I suspected he might have wanted something like that.
"Then I thought you might not be willing to that so I would simplify the deal, so instead you could agree to be my friend and I promise to tell you everthing you want to know. But then I thought if you are not willing to that either I would just give in to giving you whatever you wanted and just telling you what ever you wanted to know, no strings attached."
I could feel he felt hurt if what if I wasn't even willing to be his friend. I wasn't sure how I felt about his first offer, it sent a thrill through me as I thought about it. And his second offer sounded nice. I wouldn't mind much to be his friend, I wanted to be his friend, I realized, I wanted to be close to him.
"Will I have many questions. I will be bothering you with a lot of questions that will be poping in my head as I ask you the many questions I already have in mind, so its only more then fair you should get something in return since I will be taking much of your time and probably will begin to annoy you." I said shly, informing him what he was getting himself into.
"I'm very willing to tell you anything you want and if you keep a presence around me it will be no bother at all but a pleasure to be around in your presence."
"Thank you." I said quietly. He stared at me. I waited for him to continue, to state what he wanted in return. I wondered what my family was thinking, surley they could hear our conversation, but my voice informed me they were out hunting with the Cullens, getting to know each other.
"A kiss and friendship is all you want in return?" I asked.
He nodded. "Unless that makes you uncomfortable then never mind, either way I don't mind at all answering all your questions."
I stood up and walked towards my paino that leaned against the wall across from my bed. He grabbed a hold of my arm. I flashed my head towards a him in surprise. "Where are you going?" He said eagerly with big eyes.
"No where."I said surprised.
I walked over to my paino ang looked down at it. I wondered which question to ask first, because I was agreeing to his deal. Probably about my melody. I herd him get up and felt him behind me. I turned around and stood beside my piano. He was a foot away from me, watching me intensly agaian.
"Deal." I said simply.
I kept my thoughts on what to ask first and not on how he seemed to move closer. But I only tried, I didn't say that it worked. Back then I would have thought I'd be throwing questions at whoever had the answers to them, to my past life, by now, but I never thought a person would have such an effect on me that I would me nervous by his presence and intimidated by what effect he put on me.
"You are agreeing?" He asked as he stepped closer.
I starred up to his face.
"Of course." I answered calmly. As I silently stepped back.
" You don't have to. I am willing to tell you everything you want, you know." He stepped a bit closer.
I stepped back. I was already as far as I could go. I felt my back to the wall. I nodded.
"Are you sure?" He asked as he moved in closer over towering me. He smiled a beautiful smile. It clouded my head.
"Yes." I whispered, it was all I could get through to say. I was now lost in his eyes.
He leaned in his head towards me, closing whatever space there was left between us. I couldn't move, nor did I want to. He placed one hand on the wall beside me, not giving me any room to escape. I waited. His face came closer, I couldn't see anything around me anymore but his face, I closed my eyes. I felt his lips brush gently against mine then he placed his hand on my cheek. I was now eager. Then he finally pressed his lips against mine.
I felt the lightening shock go through me. Then after that I eagerly kissed him back. I placed my hands on his face. And his other hand gently placed itself on my waist. I was completely happy.
I suddenly saw a flash in my closed eyes. We were no longer in my room. We were in another house. It was a very familiar house, it felt like home. It was home, it was my home. It felt like ages since I've been there. It was a simple house, a bit out of style, but it was home. My home. It was like I was in a dream. It began to feel like I never left, I felt like any other day that I was living there. I was walking through the house, walking down the hall and nearing the kitchen and living room. I was nearly able to see inside the whole rooms and walk into one of them that I pleased, when I came so close it disappeared in a flash as fast as it had come and appeared to me.
I saw darkness now, realizing my eyes were closed I opened them. Where was I? It was like I just had awoken from a dream, but I couldn't remember the dream even though I was sure I just had it. I was still in Edwards arms kissing him. I gently pulled away and so did he. I looked around at my familiar room, for a second it wasn't familiar at all.
I rembered everything, what happened the past few days and before that. My vampire years but nothing before that like always. I remembered Edward kissing me but it was like I couldn't remember what just happened a second ago. Like I was missing something. Like when you were human and you awoke from your slumber but you couldn't rember anything about the minute you fell asleep.
Edward chuckled happily starring down at me. I smiled up a him completely happy too, but I couldn't get rid of that feeling. I couldn't remember what just had happened. I couldn't remember my dream.
"Are you done kissing me yet?" I joked.
He laughed. "No." He pecked me lightly on the lips. Then I felt us fly across the room. He had carried me from where we stood to the bed. He kissed be once more.
"Bella?" I herd someone call as the door opened. I opened my eyes after recognizing the voice. Me and Edward both looked at the door.
John Ryan stood there shocked and then his face turned from shock to complete anger and out raged. Edward growled at him.
I felt a stroke of hurt. Like a stinging from a stab. I felt horrible. What had I just done to my best friend? John Ryan growled and hissed back to Edward. Then Edward shifted me and pushed me behind him protectively.
Oh no. I thought. This wasn't going to be good.
"Sorry! I didn't mean to interrupt!" John Ryan hissed.
"Then leave!" Edward hissed back. Then he got to his feet.
"John Ryan I-" He cut me off before I could finish.
"Save it." he retorted. Then he slammed the door.
I got up to go after him to do something to make him feel better. I felt his pain, and it hurt bad. It must been part of my power I guessed. I didn't like it. Edward followed after me. John Ryan was already outside heading towards the forest to get away.
"Wait!" I yelled.
When he turned and saw Edward still growling pulling me away from him, it didn't help. I sensed Edward was jealous and afraid of losing me. Edward had pushed me protectively behind him. That set John Ryan off.
"Get your hands off her!" He yelled.
"Make me!" Edward retorted.
They fell into a loud roar of growls and hisses. At that last comment pushed John Ryan off more.
Then I fell to complete shock when they both attacked.
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