The next day we had to go to school. It was a bit awkward since the whole Edward vs. John Ryan incident.

Edward walked beside me all day trying to hold my attention as often as possible trying not to give me a chance to talk to John Ryan. The bell had barley rang, ending class, when he saw John Ryan coming our way he pretty much pushed me to my next class down the hall shoving me through the door beside him, into my next class like we were going to be late. It was all now becoming very childish. But I wasn't sure how to ease Edward. I wasn't sure how to tell him he was being over protective and awfully childish of the whole situation and should calm down.

My first period class was also a bit awkward.

It started out happy. The moment I walked in and saw Ellaynese we screamed and she ran to me and we hugged each other joyfully. We startled the few students who were already in class.

Alice just walked past us sighing dramatically loud. She was becoming restless that I had not yet apologized.

As she past us by Ellaynese looked back at her feeling her sadness. She eagerly greeted her and hugged her. Alice was happy at the warm greeting but it wasn't the attention of Ellaynese she wanted. It was my attention she wanted. But as Ellaynese hugged her, a strange face came over Alice. Her happy mood at Ellaynese friendliness and her smile faded into a focused stair and she froze. But as Ellaynese let go of her she exited her daydream like trance and smiled brightly at her, happier then before.

She looked at Ellaynese, almost seeming like she wanted to hug her a second time. I wondered what was with her a moment ago. I waited on my whisper to appear and shed some wisdom into my knowledge. And as I called it, it awoke. It informed me Alice had just had a vision. That was her power.

Alice looked at me and sighed and walked slowly and over dramatically sadly to her desk. Ellaynese and I followed her and took or seats in front of her.

I turned to Alice. She huffed and looked away.

"Alice your being silly." I spoke to her, giving her what she wanted. "You know you're my best friend too."

"How can I be when you don't even remember me?" She scuffed.

My jaw fell.

"I lost all of my memory! I don't remember anything about my past life! What do you expect of me?" She had hit a nerve. "And I think I feel a little bit more upset about it then you!"

Her mouth opened slightly at shock at my tone. Her hands uncrossed from where the were on her chest. Her pout turned to disbelief at my sudden burst of anger.

I turned around in my seat facing forward, crossing my arms. Some best friend. I thought.

Ellaynese stared at me. She had also been a little surprised at my burst of anger towards Alice, but she sensed my long sadness in me. She opened up her arms towards me. I looked away not wanting to be comforted. I was upset and pouting my way out of this. She hugged me anyways. I knew if I just smiled it would make Ellaynese happy and her happy mood would spread to me and I would instantly feel great and very joyful.

So I smiled a small smile to her and she smiled brightly and suddenly I was feeling overly happy. There was no resisting her power. I loved the happy vibe she sent through me.

She radiated joy. She was the sun at times in my dark cloud.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, letting the wave of complete contentment flow over me and drown me. The only time I experienced anything better then this was when I was with Edward.

That over joyed me more. I was a cup of happiness about almost tipping over and over spilling.

"Bella?" I herd Alice's angelic voice say. My whisper spoke. I knew Alice was ashamed. She was no longer mad at me but in fear I was mad at her and had upset me. How ironic, wasn't that the position she had wanted me to be in just a moment ago?

"Yes Alice?"

She paused a moment. "Are you mad at me?" she sounded so much like a little child who had been scowled at.

I was deep in thought now about things that had just came into my attention.

"No Alice." I answered a bit late.

"I'm sorry Bella." She whined, quickly responding after I had spoke. I was building up my courage and rudeness to ask her a favor.

After I didn't respond back she continued to plead.

"Forgive me Bella. I'm sorry. I'm a bad best friend. I don't blame you for forgetting me. And I never did say good bye."

I was about to ask her when she said that. What did she mean when she said And I never did say goodbye. I didn't let my curiosity get the best of me this time. I stored it for later.

"Alice can you do me favor?"

"Anything Bella." she agreed all to quickly.

I looked around cautiously waiting for my senses to reassures me that no one was listening.

Alice looked around too, eager to be in on what seemed to be like a secret to her. She looked around sneaky, she seemed awfully like a top secret spy on a mission. A was a bit amusing.

Ellaynese listened in but formed a scene of looking casually, trying not draw attention to our conversation.

"Alice," I hesitated a bit. "Mmmhmm.." She reassured me to continue. "you can see the future right?"

"Yup." she said smiling.

"Will…Can you tell if I will ever remember anything about myself? And how? And why I even lost my memory in the first place? Or why I only remember that one song? Or… And if Edward…?"

She laughed. "Bella! You make e feel like one of those carnival fortune tellers. Like people expect them to know everything. I can only see what are the different possibilities of things that could happen. They change as you change your mind. I can't see the why's, the how's, or the past. I'm sorry."

I looked down. I guess I couldn't expect to get all my answers I wanted so easily.

"But I can I try to answer your first question. If I can see anything."

This brightened my mood automatically.

"Thank you Alice!" I said over joyed.

I waited and Ellaynese turned to face us over curiously, forgetting her mask of casualness.

She starred at me for a moment then spoke.

"I cant see anything if you don't make a decision Bella."

"Umm..I don't know what to make a decision about."

"Try hard on believing that you will somehow remember." that would be easy. I did have high hopes. But at times I still had doubts and worry's.

"You don't have a plan yet do you?" she asked. "I cant see anything yet till you make a decision."

I kind of had a plan. I was going to ask Edward bunch of questions hoping I would remember. That was all the plan I had.

"We can try later." I stated. Then I turned back around a bit depressed.

"Your planning to spend more time with Edward?" She asked after a moment. I felt a bit embarrassed. Of course I planned t spend a lot of time with him. It was obvious to me that I loved him. I just realized that.

I love Edward.

I smiled happily.

And I'm sure he loved me back.

"Yes." I said in contentment.

I think something had changed and I am sure you will remember."

"Really?" I said excitedly.

"I'm sure even if things change, in the end you will still have all of forever to try to remember." She giggled a it.

"Yay! Alice!, Thank you!" I said as I jumped out of my seat and hugged her.

I herd my whisper say something in the back of mind. Something was bugging Alice. But it had disappeared the moment I hugged her and she saw my excitedness giving her attention.

I studied her face. "What's wrong Alice?" I asked.

She was surprised at my knowledge.

"Nothing, its just that-"

She hesitated and I stared at her in awe. The silent voice awoke in the back of my head.

"Alice." I said alarmed. "You don't know anything about your past life. You don't remember anything, d you?"

Her mouth dropped in shock, she was surprised at how I knew.

"Is that something you remember from your past life?" she said "What else can you remember?"

I looked down. 'I haven't really remembered anything." I said it bit gloomy. "I just know things-"

"Hasn't she told you she is schizophrenic?" Ellaynese giggled from her chair.

"Oh Right." Said Alice. She stayed quiet a moment thinking, about to ask me something.

"Bella? How many powers do you have?" she asked curiously. "You can hear things and you can break windows?" she asked amazed.

I laughed but it wasn't with amusement. I had no clue what happened that day. Or how that happened. I was just mad and a felt a weird feeling go through me and all the windows just shattered. Was it my emotions that caused that?

"Yeah, what was that Persephone?" Ellaynese asked. "Is that something from your power?"

"uh…I don't know. It scared me though."

"You were scared? I was scared. I didn't know what the heck had just happened!"

"I'm sorry. I didn't know how I did it. It just happened."

"Will after you left, everyone was sure impressed."

"Yeah, I bet they were." Alice spoke.

The day went on the same, Edward never leaving my side, Alice chattering to me every chance she got, she was happy to have her best friend back. And John Ryan never looked my way. And when he did, he through glares. I felt ashamed and guilty every time. I couldn't help but to look down, I couldn't meet his accusing eyes.

At lunch, things were awkward. I had just gotten my lunch about to follow Edward when I noticed my family sitting at another table across the room. When they saw me, they waved hi eagerly and expected me to sit with them. John Ryan spotted me and he smiled. Brightened, he believing I would sit with them.

Then I saw Edward pulling out my chair waiting for me to walk over to him and sit down. I felt like I was tied in a knot and people were pulling at each end of the rope.

Edward began to notice my hesitation. Then both sides of my family realized what was wrong. I wasn't sure what to do next.

Then I saw Ellaynese stroll past me like nothing and headed to the Cullen's table and plotted her self down next to Alice and began to eagerly talking to her like she had known her since forever. Then she looked around for her family, then waved at them to come over once she had spotted them. They all hesitated at first, especially John Ryan. But then they walked over with there trays and they all put to tables together. I smiled brightly when they walked past me.

They stared at me for a moment then smiled. I went over to the newly formed table happily that it turned out wonderfully.

But when I sat myself next to Edward and looked up, everyone was starring at me.

"So Bella," Jay interrupted. "It looks like she hesitated there a moment." he laughed. I looked down ashamed.

"So who's table would have you picked?"

They all waited for an answer.

"Will of course she would have picked the Cullen's." John Ryan sneered. He was upset that I hesitated and his happiness had faded. He wanted things to back to normal like they were before the Cullen's had came and stole me.

That scared me. I was happy I had them in my life and it would kill me if things went back to normal, and the Cullen's left. I wanted them to never leave, especially Edward. But I did want things to be normal, I wanted this awkwardness to end. I wanted all of them to just get along. And John Ryan was ruining it with his attitude and Jay with his embarrassing awkward question.

Before I could answer with an apology, Alice answered.

"She would have made us sit together or she would pout and just sit alone. Then Edward would have followed her, and then Ellaynese and me would have too. Then Jasper would have sat with us to follow me. Then everyone would just follow each other and we would have all ended up sitting together either way." Alice spoke causally, while looking down at her bagel, poking at it with her fork.

I almost smiled because the future seemed to show a sign either way that we would all get along. Before I could smile I waited approval from all of them that they were not upset at me after knowing what the future would had held either way.

"How would you know?" Jay asked with attitude. Did he have to start?

Alice lifted her eyes of her bagel where she had just stabbed it with her fork. She looked up at who had questioned her ability.

"I see things based on what people would decide." She spoke calmly.

"Oh yeah?" he challenged. " What car am I planning to buy next?" He asked.

"I don't know. I haven't seen you decide on a car because you haven't decided if you really want to buy a new car." she answered.

"Oh." he said. His question had turned into a trick question and it only turned on him.

"Like I said, I can only see things based on the decisions you make. I see the outcomes of the different choices you have in mind as you change your mind."

She paused for a moment.

"You seem to be favoring on not buying a new car cause I see you often looking for a new faster engines."

"Yeah your right," he said. "I rather put in a faster engine then buy a new car. I really like our car, I just want it to go faster." He looked at Alice. "Okay then I believe you. Your good." he said pointing at her with his fork. She smiled at his complement. I was glad to see them getting along.

Before Alice continued poking at her bagel she warned him.

"You might want to get a professional to check out the car after you put in the engine yourself, something in the outcomes of you putting in the engine yourself tells me your not that great of a mechanic." They laughed.

"Its true, I can manage with cars better then you can." Alexisandrasis teased. They all laughed again.

"Yeah, even Persephone can probably do that for you with out screwing something up." Ellaynese teased.

They laughed again, but I didn't. She made it sound like something bad. Like saying a bear could build something better the n a man with thumbs.

"What do you mean by that?" I asked her.

"Nothing its just that-" She tried to explain.

Jay and Emeitt started to laugh.

"What are you saying?" I asked in chagrin.

"Bella, I think you've noticed that your not exactly the best at things. You seem to always mess up, you don't exactly have the best luck." Ellaynese explained.

"What are you talking about?" I asked.

"Remember that one year when we had invited the neighbors for dinner and you tried making a big dinner and almost burned down the neighborhood?" Alexisandrasis stated.

All of the Cullen's chuckled, especially Emeitt. Edward looked down at me with questioning eyes.

I was quick to defend myself. "I did not almost burn the whole neighborhood!"

"Right." Jayleren answered. "Just the surrounding houses." He joked, truthfully.

I leaned back in my chair in defeat.

"Or that one time…" Ellaynese continued.

"Ok! I get the point! I screw up sometimes. So what?"

"Sometimes?" Jayleren interrupted.

"I said I get the point!"

Emeitt seemed he couldn't hide his amusement any longer and burst out laughing.

I scowled at him. "What?"

"Its that you weren't exactly have the best luck as a human either." Edward answered my wondering.

"Shocker." Jayleren mumbled.

"I herd that!" I complained.

Great. I was a screw up as a human too? This was not good news.

"You weren't exactly very graceful either. You were a bad luck magnet." Edward continued.

"How bad?" I asked slumping deeper down into my chair.

"I believe you had the worst luck possible." He said. "You fell in love with a vampire who was also in love with you and in love with the smell of your blood." he spoke this with a bit of old hurt in his eyes but at the same time complete satisfaction. I smiled at seeing him flash a beautiful smile at me.

"That doesn't sound so bad." I said. I don't think I would ever see me falling in love with him bad luck. John Ryan didn't seem to like the turn of the conversation.

"That was another problem…you never seemed to understand the dangers you were in." He said.

"So Bella became the clumsiest vampire ever?" Emeitt said amused.

" I guess clumsy is kind of a word for her little miss haves." Ellaynese spoke.

I quickly wanted to change the conversation. That's when the bell rang. Thank God!

As we walked out of the cafeteria, Edward went to throw his and my trays. And for the slightest moment he left my side John Ryan came up to speak to me.

"I think we need to talk" He said starring straight ahead at the sidewalk beside the cafeteria instead of me. I can tell he was trying to focus.

I didn't say anything for a moment. I was in panic. But I quickly pulled myself together trying not to over react. Jasper looked back at me as he walked with Alice, hand in hand.

John Ryan had turned to study my face after I had not answered him back quickly. I feared the look in his eyes.

"Yes, I guess we do." He looked back at a incoming Edward.

"I guess you prefer later when your not preoccupied with his presence and company." He gave me one last longing look then walked away.

Edward quickly took my hand. He watched John Ryan's retreating back with a hard eyes and a intense glare. Then he wrapped his arm around my waist pulling me closer and holding on tight. Hen he looked down at me. I could tell he was upset.

"I don't know why your worried." I stated.

"How do you know I'm worried?" He challenged.

"Its easy to read in your eyes, I don't need a little voice inside my head to tall me it." I said looking away. "I'm just not sure what you are worried about. I know you would be upset to see John Ryan around me but I have no clue why you would ever be worried."

I looked up at him after he stayed quiet and never responded.

He starred down at me, wonder in his eyes.

"A little voice?" He asked.

I pointed at my head. "I'm schizophrenic. Remember? I hear little voices in my head." I said looking away.

He didn't respond. I looked back up at him.

"You never really told me about your powers." He stated.

" I thought I had filled you in already this morning when I talked to Alice this morning." I said.

"He would you telling Alice have filled me in?" He asked.

"Oh, like I didn't know you were listening." I said. He laughed.

"How did you know I've been listening in on your conversations?"

"My voice told me." I answered him.

"Tell me more about that." he continued.

"Okay. If you tell me about what you can do. I know you have some kind of power but I don't know what it is."

"Did your voice tell you that too?"

"Yes but I had already realized how you seem to answer peoples questions or something when they never said anything."

"You always did notice to much too." he instantly sparked my curiosity.

I looked at him quickly. "Really?"

"Yes."

"Go on…" I said eagerly, I wanted to hear more about myself. I know that sounded conceded but I don't know anything about myself.

"I want to hear about your powers" he said. I noticed how he said powers, rather then just power. I guess he also wanted to know more about how I broke all the windows.

" I don't really know much about what I can do." I said. "I just sense things."

"You hear voices he asked?"

"Not voices. Just a voice. Its like a little whisper in the back of my mind."

He waited for me to continue.

"What about you?" I asked.

"I still want to hear more about your little voice." he said. "You have me curious."

"What do you want to know?"

"You just hear a little voice talk to you and tell you everything?"

"It doesn't talk to me exactly. I just hear a silent whisper sometimes and I can just tell what its saying. Sometimes its hard to hear it or understand what its saying or trying to tell me. It sometimes warns me and my family finds it useful. They sometimes rely on what it warns me about."

"So the voice can help t\you break windows too?"

I laughed.

"I don't know how that happened. I didn't realize at first I had done that, because I didn't know I could do that." I said.

"You don't know yet what you can do. You don't know much about your power?"

"Nope." I started to think about this more. What was my power? I hear things and I can break windows with my mind when I'm mad too?

"So what about you?" I asked again.

He hesitated a bit. "I had told you what I could do but you cant remember can you? You cant remember anything?"

"Nope." I sad sadly.

"I wonder if you could guess. You kind of guessed when you were human and you guessed right."

I thought hard, trying to remember. Something I've done a million times before. And just like a million times before I couldn't remember anything. Except for that song playing in my head.

"Are you using your sense? That's not fair if you just let your little voice tell you."

"I'm not."

He looked at me trying to tell if I was lying.

"I'm trying to remember but I cant."

"And you cant tell the voice to just tell you?"

"It doesn't work like that, I think. I never really tried t force it to tell me." After he gave me the idea, I did try. I herd the faint whisper but didn't her what it was saying.

"You have never tried?"

"I never gave much thought to what my power does, I was always to preoccupied trying to remember who I was. At first when I would hear the voice, it scared me. It was like it was screaming at me, but I couldn't hear it because it was still a faint whisper. It was screaming so much at me I thought I was crazy. When I told my family they thought it was amazing. I didn't care much though. I just wished it would shut up sometimes. Since it never helped me to remember anything about me, I didn't really care about it."

He hesitated, then looked at me intensely. "What- Bella,…The change… what do you remember about it?"

At first I didn't know what he was asking then I realized he was talking about the vampire change.

"You mean changing into a vampire?" I asked. He seemed shocked how I could talk about it so easily. Then I remembered we were at school and I shouldn't talk about it very loudly. I silenced my voice as I spoke.

"I remember waking up really sore, like I had a really bad dream and I had been in a lot of pain. And when I was opening my eyes from the darkness, I thought I was a dream, then when I could see, it was like seeing for the first time. Everything looked so clear. I remember seeing blue an white. It looked so beautiful. I wasn't sure where I was or what was going on. A thousand possibilities where running through my mind. And there where a lot of things in the back of my mind were growing. I didn't know what was happening or where I was. I realized I could hear music and a whisper telling me bunch of things all at once and it was a faint whisper that was growing louder and louder really quick. And I couldn't listen to the song. Then my panic hiked, because I realized I couldn't remember! I couldn't remember! It was a horrible feeling. Then I realized I wasn't moving. I was on the ground and it was the sky I was looking at. And I was afraid to move. I was really dizzy. Then the last thing that I finally realized was a felt a need for something. But I didn't know what. I was thirsty and I didn't know I was. There was a lot of things missing. I was scared stiff." I stopped. Thinking about it was scary but that wasn't why I stopped. It was because it was all so confusing. I didn't, I couldn't remember the rest of the story. I started feeling all dizzy again as I remembered this.

"After that part all I could remember was living with Victoria and the rest of my family and moving around from place to place through the years. I couldn't remember anything before that." I finally finished.

"You don't?" he asked.

"I just realized that I don't remember meeting Victoria or…" I began kind of began to remember becoming friends with Ellaynese but that was it. I was confused and I even felt dizzy. Where vampires suppose to feel dizzy? This scared me. I looked at Edward. He seemed to be frustrated . Many emotions seemed to be running through him. Anger one of them. Seeing his face seemed to calm me. I almost forgot what we were talking about. I smiled with out even thinking to. He was looking down at me. Then he smiled.

"What?" he asked.

"Nothing." I said. Then he leaned down and kissed me sweetly. And I thought I felt dizzy before, now my head was spinning. Then I herd a noise in the back ground I hardly noticed. But as Edwards lips pulled away slowly and unwillingly, the noise got louder and I realized it was the bell ringing. I finally tore my eyes of his face to see where I was. I realized two things. That I was smiling like an idiot at him and I was standing outside my next class.

I hoped no one had seen much of my and his personal moment. Before Edward walked away he leaned down and kissed me once more. When he stopped, he chuckled at my unwillingness to let go of him. Then he turned around and walked away.

As I turned to face the door completely content, I realized which class it was. I opened the door, to see John Ryan already sitting at our table, starring at the door where he could easily see through the little winnow on the door.

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