Just A Dream Turned Into Another Dream

A/N: Hey!! Sorry about the delay in updating this!! My Internet's been down and I've had serious writer's block ever since my Internet got back up. Once again, I apologize and I hope you like this chapter, sorry about the cliffhanger at the end. But hey, that's what makes a story great right?? Read, enjoy, and review!! Thanks bunches!!

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Chapter 3

I never did like how the sun could still shine so bright, no matter how crappy or bad the day was. It just didn't seem right; I thought it was just another of life's cruel jokes. Ugh, just like morning sickness. Oh no.

I took off immediately toward the bathroom. Gross, there's the spaghetti. And there's the headache, again. And what is that incessant knocking? Okay, fine, I'm overreacting, but I'm pregnant, so I have a right? Right?

I called to the person outside the door.

"Come in."

Nate walked in hesitantly.

"I'm dressed Nate, quit being childish."

He started to walk up to me, but I held my hand up quickly.

"No, no, I think you'd better stay a good five feet away from me right now. I'm a little queasy."

He nodded and gave a little nervous laugh.

"Right, hey… you know, I could sleep in here. If you want of course, to you know, hold your hair back if you need me too. I could sleep on the floor."

That's really sweet, if only I could be as sweet to let him.

"Um, I don't think so Nate, but thanks anyway, that's really considerate of you. So, did you need something?"

"I need a reason to see my fiancé?"

I cringed at that word. I had been a fiancé at one time, and then the other half left this world. That word cut like a knife. I didn't want to be his fiancé, I wanted to be… be… be what? Who else's did I want to be? No one's apparently, because the one I wanted was gone for good.

I faked a smile in good record time before he became concerned.

"No, of course not."

"Well, I do actually have a reason to be here. Um, I was thinking that we could look at some churches today if you want. I have the list that you and Shane had made before he left."

I put my hand on my forehead and took a deep breath.

"Don't. Please don't Nate."

"Don't what? Are you okay?"

"No, I'm not okay! That's extremely stupid to ask me, don't you think? I just lost my husband! Oh, wait! He wasn't even my husband was he? He got himself killed! Leaving his child and I to live without him! All he was was a damn bastard!"

I laughed darkly. Nate looked infuriated, but that was fine, because I had been holding this in for so long and I couldn't anymore.

"Oh, shut it Mitchie! Let go of the stupid little sob story! That's enough of it! He's gone, this is what happened, and you can't change that. It won't do any good to be angry! Who is that going to help? And by the way, that's my brother you're talking about! Watch it!"

I stormed right up to his face and pointed my finger at it. Tears came to my eyes.

"No, you watch it! I'm tired of this! Quit acting like you're not angry! Everyone needs to quit acting like they're not angry, because I know that they are! You're brother left you Nate, you and Jason! How do you like that! Yeah, tell yourself that you can't change that! It doesn't make you feel better does it? And don't tell me to watch it! I loved that man with all my heart and I gave him every piece of me, everything that I had! And you know what I can't figure out? Why did he want to leave me? Why did he leave? Did I do something wrong? Not love him enough? Did he hate me that much? That he couldn't even be around me? I… I just don't get it! I hate him! I hate him so much! He left me! I loved him so much! I… Nate, what did I do? What did I do? What…"

I looked down at the ground and contemplated the idea of not being good enough.

"Mitch, it's okay. I promise… it's all going to be okay. We're going to make it through this, together. I love you even if you don't love me and I always will."

"I know Nate, I know."

I looked up at him; at the guy that I knew was saving my life without even knowing it. I saw everything there- hope, love, adoration, safety, and so many other things. It was all there. He looked at me and then, slowly began running his thumbs over my cheeks, wiping my tears that had silently been coursing down my cheeks at an alarming pace. We were both leaning in toward each other when we both froze and decided better of it. I grabbed his hand.

"Will you sit down with me for awhile and just talk with me? Please?"

"Sure. Anything for you."

We both sat down side by side and leaned back against the headboard. "Nate?"

"Yeah?"

"Thanks, for assuring me just now, it mean a lot. And I didn't mean what I said about him being a… you-know. You know that. I loved him and… I still do."

"I know Mitch. And trust me when I say, I am angry too. We all are Mitchie."

I nodded.

"It's just Nate, we had this whole life planned out. And it was going to be great. This house, three kids, his career and mine at the family's record company, summer vacations at various locations… and now, it's not going to happen. Our life is gone. I just want it back. Is that too much to ask?"

"No Mitch, but the deal is that you won't be able to ever get that back with Shane. Ever. I have to be honest because I love you and you deserve my absolute honesty. But I'm more than willing to help you have that with me, if you want."

He kissed my head and left me alone. I knew he was completely truthful in what he said. I was angry, but not just with Shane, at myself too. I wasn't really helping anybody by being like this, especially my baby. I needed to change my attitude and accept that I had a life that I still had the chance at living. But, how could I ever forget Shane?

"You don't have to forget me Mitchie."

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A/N: DUN DUN DUN!!!! Sorry! I had to add that for effect! Hope you liked it and please please PLEASE REVIEW!! Thanks guys!!