Just A Dream Turned Into Another Dream

Chapter 4

I froze. No, I didn't just hear… no, I couldn't of. He's… he's gone.

"Yes, I am, but I needed to see and talk to you for a minute. It's weird, I know, but just listen, okay?"

My heart felt like it was going to jump out of my chest. Even though I was scared to death, I turned around slowly. It felt like the whole world stopped when I lay eyes on him. He was, he looked… beautiful- in that angelic way.

He was see-through, but he was there nonetheless. Tears immediately began falling down my cheeks. Shane, transparent and all, began to walk toward me.

"Don't cry Mitch. You know I always hated it when you cried. Please don't cry."
His eyes, they were glassy; I didn't know if it was from him being a ghost or if he actually had tears in his eyes, if it was even possible. I stood up slowly and came face to face with him. I wanted to touch him, but knew it would do me no good.

"What… how…?"

"I don't know how, but I know why. I need to talk to you, help you understand some things."

"Um… okay. And then you have to leave again. R-right?"

Shane looked down and then looked back up with an apologetic pale face.

"Yeah, it's kind of how it works. I can't change things Mitch, not the rules that say I have to leave and not the Big Guy's decision."

I couldn't help it when I let out a sob.

"Shane, I miss you. I miss you so much. Can't you come back? Please. I love you; I love you more than anything. Don't you want to be there when your child's born, when he or she grows up? Don't you? Please… I…"

"Mitchie, I would if I could. I love you too, and you were the best thing that ever happened to me. I had to go Mitch. It was my duty to my country. Please know that."

At that moment, I could've sworn my eyes had a blazing fire in them.

"No, you didn't! Don't you dare give me that bullshit Shane Gray! You did not have to go and now you're dead! You're gone! Shane, you were my everything and I can't believe you left me! Shane, I love you. I love you and I don't want to live Shane. I want to die. I want to go with you. I don't want to be here."

Shane gave me a fierce look.

"Not a chance in hell Mitchie Torres. Not a chance in hell. You will not kill yourself and you will not go with me. One day, we'll be together again, but when you're old, very old. I want to see you when you've got wrinkles, do you understand me?"

I nodded.

"And you know what?"
I looked up at him. I was so ecstatically happy about seeing him again, but it was just going to make it even harder to have him leave again.

"W-what?"

He looked up at me and hesitantly, brought his hand up to my cheek and I felt my cheek tingle with desire for his loving touch. I wanted to feel him- I wanted… him. I wanted him back. Shane, I couldn't feel his hand, but I knew he was touching me in the best way he could in these crappy circumstances. I closed my eyes, wishing we could stay here in this spot, just like this, forever.

"It wouldn't hurt me or you if you moved on. I hear you and Nate are getting married."

My eyes shot open quicker than lightning. I knew he could see the alarm in my eyes.

"No Shane, I… I… I don't want to. But, our baby…"

"Our baby can't live without a father, and he or she's not going to. Baby, I love you so much. But, Nate loves you. This isn't just about this baby. It's about you and your happiness. I have to know that you're happy. Nate wouldn't ever let you down and I know that he'll care for you forever, including our child. I'm always going to be here Mitch, just where you can't see me. I'm in heaven, but I'm here too. In your heart and I'm always watching over you two. I am just fine with you marrying him and I hope you'll love him eventually. And just like I told you in the beginning, you don't have to forget me. And Nate doesn't have to feel bad either."

I was speechless.

"I had to go and I apologize for leaving you, but I like I said, I had to even if you can't understand that. I love you Mitchie Torres and I am so sorry that I didn't get to marry you. But, you will always be my wife in my eyes and that baby will always be mine. Oh, Mitchie."

I didn't realize that I was still crying.

"I-I don't w-want you to l-leave again. I miss you and I just want to be with you. I need you so much it hurts Shane. Please don't go. Please?"

It looked as if he were crying.

"I love you. I love you so much. I'll see you later, I promise. Don't even think about joining me right now. I love you. Bye."

And then… he vanished.

I slid down to the floor and brought my knees up to my chest. I stared at nothing.

"Mitchie? Hey, Mitchie? Mitchie!"

I looked up at Nate from my spot on the floor.

"He's gone."

Nate's eyes filled with water. He crouched down in front of me.

"Sweetie, he's been gone. Shane's gone. He died. What's wrong? You weren't like this before. You look like you've seen a ghost."

"I did. He was here Nate. He talked to me. I know it sounds crazy, but I promise you, he was here. Please believe me."

I was holding onto his arm with a death grip, praying to God he wouldn't think I was crazy and would believe me. Tears dropped onto his cheeks.

"I believe you Mitchie. I believe you."