The Wrong Turn
Chapter 4
"Days passed. It could have been months for all I knew... Maybe it was. But I didn't feel any different." – Bella
People came and went. Alice was always there. Jacob was there too. I couldn't even tell the difference when they weren't. I didn't get up from my space on the sofa unless I wanted to go to the bathroom. I didn't eat. I didn't sleep. I didn't talk. Life was like a never-ending hell. I may as well have been in the control of Alec. My life was like a moonless night, there's no more reason for anything anymore. I contemplated killing myself so that it was like he and I had never existed. Killing myself to be with him, just to see his face, I only ever thought about him so I didn't forget. I only thought of killing myself once though because I knew it would destroy Charlie's heart. I didn't want him to feel like me. I'd felt like this before, a long time ago, but this time was different. I didn't think I'd ever wake up from the feeling.
More people turned up. I'm sure I heard Esme's voice once. Maybe I heard the whole family, along with Tanya's coven, I couldn't be sure though. I didn't want to think about it for too long.
When everyone left, Jacob - the first person to talk to me directly not just about me - shouted something about a dumb bloodsucker and I knew who he was talking about immediately. I got so mad at him and told him it was my fault because I hadn't found a stone in time. Jacob told me something like don't be silly and that the stone wouldn't have helped. Then he pulled me into his arms for a hug and tried to kiss me. I let him for a mere second before I realised what was happening and slapped him. It hurt me more than it hurt him but since I hadn't eaten in ages the slap wasn't very hard and didn't hurt as much as the time when I punched him.
"Jacob, how dare you. I've just lost my soul-mate and you're trying to kiss me?? You are so immature and I HATE you. Get out now."
I sat down on the sofa again and cried. I didn't even hear Jacob leave, because I was crying so hard. But I knew he left because Charlie came down and said, "What did you do to make Jake leave?"
Except I couldn't answer; I just sobbed more.
I think two weeks passed before I phoned Jake up and asked him to come round. I wanted to apologize. But when he got here, before I could say anything, he rushed up to me, picked me up and kissed me.
And this time I let him.
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