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10. Love is sickening.
Bpov:
As Edward closed the door behind him I made myself comfortable and tried to remember exactly what I dreamt about. I know that we were in our own bodies and that we were in some kind of meadow in the forest. Edward was sitting against a fallen tree and I sat between his legs with my back against his chest.
As I settled into the comfortable covers of the bed I began to remember exactly what I dreamt about.
The Dream:
I could hear birds chirping in the tree tops, a woodpecker was pecking somewhere in the background. Edward was tapping his finger, in unison with the pecking sounds the woodpecker was making, on my knee.
I watched as the breeze blew the wildflowers from one side to the other, the leaves in the trees brushed against each other as the wind blew through them, perfecting the harmony of the forest orchestra. It was one of the rare sunshine days in Forks, there was still some water drops dripping onto the forest floor. We were sitting at the far side of a meadow on a large blanket.
I could feel his chest heave and fall against my back as he breathed. As he breathed out through his nose the air blew over my cheek causing some loose strands to tickle my face. I could also feel the rhythmic beating of his heart against my back.
I tried to match my breathing to his, to see if I could keep contact with his chest. "Bella what are you doing?" He asked softly and even though I couldn't see it I knew he was smiling. "Who me, I'm doing nothing." He chuckled, "Yeah and I'm the tooth fairy." I smiled and glanced at him side ways. "Can I see your fairy outfit? It must be a sight to see you in a pink dress." He stifled a laugh.
"Hardy-har-har, you're so funny Bella. Who said it was pink?" I settled back into his chest smiling softly gazing out at the meadow. We said little, both of us feeling content in just sitting together. "A penny for your thoughts." He said, carefully tucking a stray of hair behind my ear. I watched his hands on his knees and then slowly twisted sideways so that I could look him in the face.
"I just thought about how great this feels…..being here….with you." He smiled a crooked smile I have never seen him smile before, it sent my heart racing. "It's just this place; it makes it seem as if anything is possible." He said looking away. I raised my hand and placed it gently under his chin to make him look me in the eyes.
"It's not this place Edward, it's you. You understand me in ways that no one else does. I never realized just how big a deal our bickering to each other was to me. It's like our constant fighting was masking how I really felt about you." His eyes flashed and the corners of his mouth began to twitch in a half smile. "So how do you really feel about me?"
He asked and I smiled slyly. I shot up and moved away from him. "If you really want to know, then you'll have to catch me. He laughed and jumped to his feet; I turned around and ran across the meadow. Whenever he sounded near or his mocking sounded louder I swerved and changed direction.
Suddenly I was tackled to the ground; we rolled a couple of times and finally stopped in a tangle of limbs. I was trapped under him, my hands caught in his above my head. We were both breathing heavily; he looked down at me and smiled evilly. "So out with it, tell me how you really feel."
I made as if I was deep in thought. "I feel….with my hands." He laughed, "Now come on, before I make you tell me." I widened my eyes, "I'm not afraid of you." He glared at me and began to smile, "You really should not have said that." I smiled, "Ooh what are you going to do?"
He glanced around us and then looked back at me; there was an evil little glint in his eyes. "Maybe this would convince you." I opened my mouth to say something smart back at him but that was just what he was waiting for. His mouth crashed down on mine and then, very slowly, he began to kiss me. My mind went blank and all I could think about was that I was in heaven.
All too soon it was over and when I opened my eyes he was looking down on me, satisfied with himself. "Is there something you would like to tell me?" He asked still holding my hands above my head and I was still pinned under him. "I think I ….might need… a little more convincing."
He smiled and began to lower his face; his lips were inches from mine. "You know… I think you like this torture way to much." He whispered and kissed my nose and then very slowly he moved to my cheek and began kissing his way down towards my neck. When he finally reached his destination he bit down on my pulse point and began sucking it softly.
I turned my face sideways to give him more access and moaned out softly. He moved again this time trailing kisses down my jaw line towards my mouth. "Please Edward". I moaned wanting to kiss him. His mouth made a small smile before he captured my lips again. Our mouths moved in unison, when he shot his tongue out and trailed it over my lower lip my lips parted more than willingly.
He released my hands and turned us over so that I was now straddling him. As our tongues fought for dominance he released my hands. I tangled my hands in his hair and a moan escaped his throat. He slipped his hands under my shirt and onto my back. He began trailing his hands up my back and at the same time pulled me closer to him….
Present time:
That was where Edward woke me up, my mouth was dry and I was breathing heavily. What the hell was I dreaming about? This was Edward for crying out loud. There was no way I was falling for Edward, was I? I mean we were forced together by this stupid body swap, which must be the reason why I was dreaming about him.
But why didn't you have dreams like that about Jacob? The small voice in the back of my head taunted me. Oh come on; just imagine me and Edward together. As I thought about it, it didn't seem so crazy anymore. Edward wasn't really the ass I originally thought he was. He was a good person that cared about other people; he was most definitely not a cheater.
Then why are you so against this? The little voice taunted again. I didn't have the answer to that question and I'm not going to find out either. He was in love with someone else in anyway. Great Bella, leave it to you to fall in love with the boy next door while you're actually trapped in his body. Did I just say I was in love with Edward? I shook my head to get rid of that thought and stood up to take that cold shower Edward mentioned earlier.
When I got out of the shower I dressed quickly in a pair of jeans and an old gray t-shirt before heading to the kitchen. As I walked in the hallway laughter came floating out of the kitchen. I stopped in the doorway, Edward was making toaster pastries and Alice was pouring juice as Rosalie told them a joke.
"So after the class finally stopped laughing the teacher asked Johnny where he lived. She would like to have a talk with his father. Johnny smartly replied that he lived next to his neighbors. So where does your neighbors live? The teacher asked him thinking that she finally cornered him. Well Mrs. our neighbors live next to us, Johnny replied." I laughed and they all looked surprised to see me.
"Hey Edward, did you finally decide to come out of your hiding spot?" Alice asked taking out some plates. I was about to say something when my stomach growled loudly. "Hungry much? Here have some breakfast before you keel over." Edward said and placed a plate with a pastry on the table.
"Starving, so what are you going to do on this dreary Saturday?" I asked taking a bite from the still warm pastry. "Well Rose and I are going over to Wall-Mart, we wanted to ask you if you can keep Bella company since she has been banned from Wall-Mart until she is twenty one. "Why have I been banned?" Edward asked surprised.
I rolled my eyes and made a stupid face at him, didn't he ever hear of just going with it? "Uh well let's see, you got bored the first time and so you took twenty packets of condoms and threw it into other shoppers trolley's when they weren't looking." Alice said. "Then the one time we went to bay snacks you set all the alarms in the house department to go of five minutes after each other." Rosalie said.
"Angela told me that one time you left a tomato sauce trail all the way to the tampon aisle." Alice said again holding three fingers in the air, "Did you really do that?" She asked Edward. "Yes she did. I remember Emmett telling me that she walked to a salesperson in the shoe department and said to him, in a very panicky voice, Code 3 and then fell on the ground covering her head." I said remembering actually doing that.
"Then there was the time you walked to the till and asked if you could place a packet of M&M's on lay-buy." Alice said now holding up five fingers, "Oh do you remember the time she placed the Caution Wet Floor sign in the carpet apartment?" Rosalie asked and Alice nodded her head smiling wildly.
"I remember hearing that she built a tent in the camping department and invited other shoppers to join her if they brought their own blankets and pillows from the home department." I remembered the biggest one I ever pulled. "Oh and the one time you looked into the security camera as if it was a mirror and then picked your nose and you ate it!" Rosalie said enthusiastically. "I didn't eat it!" Edward said finally playing his part. I gave him a thumb up sign without them seeing me.
"Yes you did and then there was the incident in the hunting departments where you picked up a shot gun and then asked the assistant where you could get the anti-depressants?" Edward looked at me quirking his eyebrow and I just shrugged. I can't help it; the Wall-Mart is the perfect place to pull pranks. "Oh how about the time you were walking around following shoppers and whenever they looked your way you ducked behind something while humming the theme of Mission Impossible?" Rose asked.
"No, the best one was where she was in the Auto department and she practiced her Madonna look with those orange traffic cones." Alice said and dropped her hands as she lost count of all the things I did. "If it wasn't for Charlie being the Chief of police you might have ended up with a record for vandalism or something." Rose said as we all finally calmed down enough from the fits of laughter.
"Didn't anyone ever ask if I was with you" Edward asked them and stood up to place his dirty plate in the sink. "Yeah but we just go. We don't know that crazy person. Yeah who ever her family is we feel sorry for them. They don't even bother us after that." "So will you keep her company or not?" Rose asked as she and Alice stood up from the counter table. "I don't know…what if I catch her crazy germs or something. Can you die from something like that?"
Alice laughed, "Maybe you should keep your distance, just to be safe Edward." Bella made an offended looking face, "I don't think you can catch craziness twice Edward?" I smiled "Touché Bella, well just let me know when your ready to go." I said and left them to clean the kitchen. Having nothing better to do I walked to the living room and played the song Edward thought me on the piano.
To my surprise I was picking up on the whole piano playing thing quickly and picked up a few things from Edward over the past week. I got so lost in the music that I jumped slightly when Edward touched my shoulder. "Hey, that was really nice. Where did you learn that?" He asked sitting down next to me on the bench.
"I don't know it just kind of flew into my head and I let your talented fingers do the walking. It's nothing like your masterpieces though. Where are Alice and Rose?" I asked looking around the living room. "They left a few minutes ago, I told them not to bother you. Why don't you play it again and I will write the notes on a music sheet, that why you'll never forget it." He said taking a new music sheet from the pile next to the piano.
"I don't think I can play it again." He smiled, "Just play whatever comes to your mind." Even though the eyes I was looking into, was my own brown eyes, it was as if I could see Edward behind them. It somehow calmed me and I took a big breath. "Fine I'm probably not even going to remember it in anyway." I began to play and when I finally stopped Edward was still writing something on the paper.
I watched as he hummed the ending I played and then, making a last scribal on the paper, looked up. He smiled, "That sounded even better this time than what it did before. Here is your piece; you just have to give it a name." I looked at the three papers he placed on top of the piano. "That can't be what I played."
He chuckled, "I might have fixed a couple of notes here and there but most of it is you. So what do you want to name it?" He asked again and handed me the pencil. "I don't know, what does it sound like?" He thought about it for a moment, "Like a lullaby, like someone humming you to sleep." I thought about it for a minute and agreed that it did in fact sound like a lullaby. I raised my right hand and scribbled something on the top of the first page.
When I sat back he leaned forward to read what I have written. "The lullaby? Well at least it fits." I bumped his shoulder, "So back to business, teach me the end of your music piece Mozart." We spent the better part of the day playing piano and reciting poetry, when Edward called everything to a stop. "Ok I think I had enough for one day, do you want to go to the park?" He asked throwing his English book on the table.
"I'm grounded remember; besides the swings would be covered in mud." Edward closed the lid of the piano, "What Carlisle doesn't know won't hurt him, who cares about the mud? You can wash the mud from your boots when we get back home." I looked at how exited he seemed to be and sighed. "Fine but you have to promise me that we will be back before your father gets home from work." He jumped up; "Fine go put on some boots I'll meet you back down here in five."
I laughed and did as he asked; I was done before he was and waited patently in the living room for him. He was still smiling as he made his way down the stairs, then in pure Bella fashion stumbled on the last step. I reached forward and caught him just in the nick of time. "Slow down Edward, before you break my leg. Having gone through that before, believe me it's not something you want to experience." I said as he regained his balance.
"Tell that to your body, somewhere it must have lost its sense for gravity because only you can know how you trip over nothing but thin air." I waited for him to finish his little rant, "Suck it up and be a man Edward." I said and opened the door. He chuckled, "Whatever she-man."
We walked slowly to the park a few streets from our homes. It was the same park where Edward ate sand and where Charlie taught me how to ride a bike. "Do you come here often?" I asked as we reached the abandoned park, "Yeah sometimes, it's more like a witness to all of my firsts." I frowned, "Your firsts?"
He nodded, "I ran here for the first time, drove my bike here for the first time, lost my first tooth. Actually I believe Emmett punched out my first loose tooth when we wrestled, right over there." He pointed to the sandbox under the swings. "I have flown my first kite here and it's the place I saw the girl of my dreams for the first time." We reached the swings and sat down. "Is this the same girl you're in love with?" I asked ignoring the small shot of pain in my stomach.
"The one and only, I have seen her before but this was where I really saw her. You get what I'm saying right?" I felt like I was hit in the gut and couldn't breathe, "Yeah Edward, I know." He smiled, "I saw her everyday, a small self depending little girl. We were both unsure teenagers when she stumbled into me on her birthday. She said I was an arrogant jerk and I left her party to come here. I thought I must have imagined things but when she began seeing another boy it felt like I was dead."
Every word he said felt like my heart was being pulled apart shred by shred. He sounded so alive when he talked about her, how he felt about her and I hated this unknown girl. She had his heart and I had nothing. Holy crap! I have actually fallen for Edward. Somewhere in the midst of this weird body swap, I have fallen in love with Edward freaking Cullen.
"Is she still with this other guy?" I asked placing my last hopes on some guy. "No they have made out, that is why I can't wait to get back in my body. I can finally tell her how I feel. Are you ok? You look a little white." I stood up shakily, "I'm not feeling so good, I think you might have a cold." I made up some excuse and began to walk without actually looking to see if I was heading in the right direction. I just wanted to get away from him.
"Here let me help you home." I felt his warm hand slip into mine and pull me slightly in a different direction. "Do you have pain; you don't seem to have a fever." He said after he quickly placed his hand on my forehead. I don't know Edward what are the symptoms of a broken heart. "I'm fine Edward, just need some sleep is all." He kept asking me all sorts of questions on the way home; he dropped my hand when we entered the house.
"Go to my room Bella and lay down; I'm going to wake my mother." I did as he asked hoping that that way he would leave sooner so that I could think. I took of my shirt and shoes and climbed into bed. Esme walked into the room followed by Edward. She felt my pulse and forehead then mumbled something about flue season. She made me drink two sleeping pills and something for a cold. Then everything went black.
When I woke up everything was dark, my head felt like I've been hit by a truck. It must be those sleeping pills that made my head seem so fussy. I glanced around the room and spotted a glass of water on the night stand. The clock next to the glass said it was about midnight. I downed the glass of stale tasting water and turned on my side.
But I couldn't fall asleep, my mind kept returning to Edward. I turned on the lamp and grabbed the book I was reading. Maybe Lindsey Boxer and the rest of The Woman's Murder Club could help me forget about him. Edward's cell phone vibrated suddenly. I knew who it was without even looking, I sighed and picked up the phone to read the message.
I couldn't keep myself; it was like I would take any little thing Edward offered to share with me. You are supposed to be resting. How do you feel? It was the same question he asked me in my dream the previous night. You are supposed to be sleeping. I feel a little fussy, must be those pills Esme gave me. I replied and glanced at the window, everything was dark and I couldn't see him at all.
It will wear of in awhile, you really scared me Bells. Why was he making it so hard to keep a distance from him? Too just forget about him. Then you scare too easily, I'm ok and you really should get some sleep. Please stop texting me. I switched of the lamp and tried to fall back asleep.
Are you sure you are ok? You don't sound like yourself. I don't even know myself anymore. My hart is broken, I'm in love with you and there is nothing I can do about it. Sherlock stop worrying so much. I'm fine and I'm going back to sleep. See you tomorrow. I hope he would get the message that I just wanted to be alone.
Ok then, if you're sure. Goodnight Bells. See you tomorrow. I sighed and placed the phone under my pillow. I made up my mind that for the last few days I had left in Edward's body I would make the most of it. I would really get to know Edward.
A/n The dream, I wanted to bring in some fluff into the story and I felt a dream would be a perfect way to do that. Bella finally realized her true feelings for Edward now she must only realize that Edward was talking about her. The whole Wall-Mart thing was inspired by an e-mail one of my friends sent me but it was really funny and I felt like sharing. I know this was more of a serious chapter but it was necessary for the plotline.
This chapter was hugely inspired by one of my Favorite songs With Arms wide open, by Creed. Don't know if anyone knows about them but they are really great and keep my creative juices flowing.
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