This song is I'm not Dead, by Pink.
He ran into the control room in his favourite business suit, ready for the mornings Doctor taunting. He had baffled Lucy with some roses, but at least she'd looked cheerful. He was angry that he was the one who had been punished with the drums. That was why it felt good to mess with the Doctor's head.
The Doctor stared at him warily, his grandpa mouth set in a grim line, determined not to rise to The Master's bait. But one day The Master would catch him out, one day and this conversation could be it because…
There's always cracks
A crack of sunlight
A crack in the mirror on your lips
It's the moment of a sunset Friday
When our conversations twist.
"You could have done this so easily," chortled The Master, "but you didn't. Know why? No? And I though you were the intelligent one… it's because you're a coward, Doctor. Always have been, always will be." And yet you were the one that survived because you ran and didn't look back and
We only spun the web to catch ourselves
So we weren't left for dead.
I looked into the vortex and saw death and misery if I tried to wield that power. It was not cowardice to run away. It was self preservation, Master.
You keep telling yourself that.
Power is not always made to be wielded, Master.
Was it worth it? Abandoning me? We could have travelled together. Instead you ran away.
Master why can't you understand?
I'm not dead just floating
Right between the ink of your tattoo
In the belly of the beast we turned into
I'm not scared just changing
Right beyond the cigarette and the devilish smile
You're my crack of sunlight.
Tell me, Doctor was it worth it?
I was scared. Scared of what I saw come to pass, scared of what I knew you would become.
Ha Doctor! Scared of greatness?
Scared of madness, scared of the drums slowly driving you insane.
You can do the math a thousand ways but you can't erase the facts
That others come and others go but you always come back
I'm a winter flower underground always thirsty for summer rain
And just like the change of seasons
I know you'll be back again.
So you chose loneliness?
Don't tell me you're not lonely, Master. That child wife of yours is no replacement for a true Time Lord.
But she loves me, she has not betrayed me, and she is mine.
You keep telling yourself that.
As the Master walks away, The Doctor feels sad. He would have given anything to travel with Koschei again, but a part of him knows that things would never work that way and besides, maybe he did love Lucy, just like The Doctor did love Rose. But it didn't matter, not really because the only thing that The Doctor had ever loved with all of his being was Him.
Oh Master, I was never looking for approval from anyone but you
And though this journey is over I'll go back if you ask me to.
The Doctor wasn't done with The Master yet, and he wasn't defeated just yet either. It was so like his Master to gloat over victory prematurely, but The Doctor had played this little game with his ex lover for years and it wasn't over yet. This game would go on for all eternity, for the rest of their lives, and The Doctor would always find The Master, because a part of The Master would always want to be found.
I'm not dead just yet
I'm not dead I'm just floating
Doesn't matter where I'm going
I'll find you
I'm not scared at all
Underneath the cuts and bruises
Finally gained what no one loses
I'll find you
I will find you.
Master.
