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Chapter 8 (Katie)

Holy Shit, I'm getting married today......

Ok so it might not be the way I imagined my ideal wedding when I was a little girl, but then again when I was little I was convinced I was going to marry the red power ranger but that's beside the point. I always imagined I'd be older then I am now, at least 10 years older or something like that. Things may not be how I planned but I'm more than happy with how they've turned out. Cook is the last person I would expect to be happy with. Before this summer I thought he was immature, stupid, pathetic and well just an all round twat really. But he's not, well most of the time he's not. He's caring and sweet, he's surprisingly romantic and I've never felt this way before, I love him so much.

I know why he proposed, because of the baby and I'm ok with it because it's the right thing to do but I still believe that we will stay together and be a real family. I used to have this dream; it was always the same. Me in a nice big detached house, married to the man of my dreams and having three great kids, twin girls and a boy just like me, Ems and James. Cook may not be the man of my dreams but he is the man of my reality, who needs a dream man when I can have the real thing. So now my dream has changed. I see no house or whatever other materialistic shit I used to dream about, all I see is Me, Cook and our baby and in that dream I always look a lot happier than in the other one. It just feels right, like it's meant to be.

Its 10 o'clock and I'm getting myself ready. I'm running a bit behind schedule because I've spent most of the morning comforting Emily, She and Naomi had a fight and she's feeling like shit but she's putting on a brave face for me and I can't thank her enough. She and Effy are now downstairs making sure everything is going to plan. Ems is my maid of honour, obviously and Effy and Panda are my bridesmaids but Panda is meeting us at the church because her mum is convinced she'll run away with Thomas, crazy bitch.

I put the finishing touches to my make up when my phone beeps. I look at the screen and see the name Cook flashing on the screen, 1 text message, I press the open button and a smile tugs at my lips at the message.

What have I always said Babes, they all come to the Cookie Monster in the end. I'm just glad you're the last one. Your my everything Katie and I can't wait to marry you, I'll see you at 11, I love you always x

I type a quick reply as there's a knock on the door and Emily pokes her head round it.

"Mum wants to know if you're ready to do your hair yet."

"Yeah I'm ready tell her to come up" Emily disappears and my eyes are drawn to the same picture I've been looking at all week. I walk over to my dresser and pick up the sonogram. There it is, my baby. I can't believe something that small is going to be a person. My door opens again and this time my mum walks in with her hair shit. I put the picture back on the dresser.

"Hi mum" she smiles at me and motions for me to sit on the stool in front of my make up table. I sit down and she immediately starts brushing my hair "mum?"

"Yes sweetheart" she keeps brushing my hair adding a stroke to my head with her hand in between each brush

"I'm sorry if I've let you and dad down" my mum stops what she's doing and pulls me to my feet. She pulls me into a hug for the first time since all this happens. She pulls back and sits down on my bed; she pats the bed telling me to sit down with her. I sit down and she takes my hand in hers

"Listen to me Katie ok, I'm not going to lie to you and tell you that when you told me you were pregnant, I was disappointed in you, I've always had amazingly high hopes for you kids, you know college, university, doing careers you love and just genuinely living life to the full and I have to say when I thought about it, you getting pregnant was the last thing I ever thought would happen"

I was afraid she'd say I'd disappointed her but I definitely can't blame her. I can't look at her anymore and I find myself staring at the floor

"but I also want you to know how proud of you I am for accepting your responsibility" wow ok wasn't expecting this "its not an ideal situation Katie but the fact that you didn't even consider getting rid of that baby or even adoption but accepted full on that you are meant to raise this child, so yes I was disappointed but right now I'm amazed at how much you've grown and how much I hadn't noticed about you, your a brilliant girl Katie, your beautiful, your funny and you just have a wonderful personality. Granted you can be a bit bitchy at times but what girl's your age aren't, hell even women my age are bitches a lot of the time"

She lifts my head up with her hand so that we have direct eye contact

"You kids will always be my life. You, Emily and James and I want you to make me a promise Katie"

I nod to let her know I'll do what she asks

"Cherish every single day that you have with your child, motherhood will be the best time of your life and what I'm telling you is that as a mother, you don't just love your children, you fall in love with them"

She kisses me on the forehead and I'm trying my hardest not to cry. I don't want to spoil my makeup

"its that same rush of feelings, the same need to be with them every second of every day and the same knowledge that you would give anything in the world just to make sure that they are happy and you would do anything to protect them and keep them with you, that's how me and your dad feel about you kids and I promise you that is how you and Cook will feel for your baby"

I subconsciously put my hand on my stomach and I can't help but smile. That's my baby in their and I know everything my mum says is right

"you will be a great mum Katie, you've got a great big heart and a lot of love in you, so don't you ever think that you could ever let me and your dad down, we are with you no matter what, just remember that ok"

This time it's me that initiates the hug

"I love you mum"

"I love you too darling" she pulls back from me and smiles "now lets get your hair done shall we?"

She sits me back down on the stool in front of the mirror and starts brushing my hair again. I know for a fact that the little talk we have just had is going to bring us closer and I have never felt so connected to my mum as I do now. She believes in me and as fucking corny as it sounds

It makes me believe in myself

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