"Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending to a prefect day. Just walk away, ain't no use defending all the words that you'll never say. And now I'm sitting here thinking it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you."
-Cold As You by Taylor Swift
Nathan and I were best friends who dated. And I fell for him. Well not just fell for him, I fell for him hard. That was the biggest mistake of my life. I was certain that I had found the guy that was right for me. He made me laugh at the dumbest things. He made me feel special. And most importantly, he listened. Now when I see Nathan, I don't see him the way I used to, the guy that I could've easily fell in love with, or maybe even did on some level. Instead, now all I see is the mask he puts up to hide his true self.
He's across the quad talking to all his friends and laughing. I'm not a stalker promise, but nothing else is interesting today. Lucas is in the library writing a paper that is due in about twenty-five minutes, so it's just me and my thoughts. And today, those thoughts just happen to surround Nathan Scott. It makes me sick just looking at all the girls practically begging for him to take them into a hall closet or an empty classroom somewhere. I used to think that Nathan wouldn't do that when we were dating, but I was so wrong. Nathan's pretty much notorious for that now. Most of his "girlfriends" have been one night stands and randomly pulling hot girls into closets for about ten minutes just because he's bored. The only reason they can only throw themselves at him right now is because his latest girlfriend, Peyton Sawyer, is no where to be found.
I don't understand her, although I don't think anyone does. She's a cheerleader, go figure, but she always has her nose in a drawing or something. I've seen one or two of them before and they are kind of dark. I guess that's just her way of expressing herself. She still doesn't strike me as a cheerleader, but she is, alongside her best friend Brooke Davis. You know, I would have never put them together as best friends either judging by the way both of them act. I guess life has a way of surprising you like that. Brooke Davis, like Nathan, has had her fair share of "relationships." I even think she and Nathan were together at one point. I don't know. It's too tiring to keep with relationships that can come and go probably faster than normal people change clothes.
Back to what I was saying, I shouldn't be doing all of this watching Nathan. Someone might see and tell him. That could potentially be bad. He'll never let me live that one down. Wait a second. Did he just look over here? No it couldn't be. He doesn't think of me that way anymore. So as I was saying, he'll probably spread a rumor around school that Haley James, the geek, wants some Nathan Scott. Yea right. That'll make Lucas laugh for days. Better go check on his paper that is now due in seven minutes and counting and I cannot believe that I've been talking to myself this whole time. Another thing that Lucas would laugh at for days.
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When I entered the library, I immediately found him with his face buried in his hands, just like I thought I would find him. "Hey Luke" I said as I approached him. "How's the dreaded English paper?"
"Oh hey Haley" he said regaining consciousness I think. "Well the paper looks like it's going down the drain. How in the world am I supposed to figure out what the purpose of this stupid book is? I didn't even understand it. To me all it that it accomplished was putting me to sleep."
That's my best friend. Although Lucas likes books and reading, anything that is assigned to him as a class always puts him to sleep. And the paper, he can write anything he wants to except the things that are taken for a grade. That's just the way he is.
"Well, if I were you, I'd find a way to write this paper very fast because I think that the bell is about to ring" I said laughing at his extreme frustration.
"Crap! Are you serious?" he exclaimed. Putting pen to paper, he was writing the paper in scribbles that I don't think anybody on the face of the world could decipher.
"Afraid so. Oh don't worry," I said when I saw his distressed face, "Mrs. Beech will let you make it up. She knows you're a good student. Just play dumb and tell her that you don't understand it she'll explain it and it will all make sense. I wouldn't worry about it. Oh I almost forgot, you missed it at lunch today." When I saw the interest in his face, I continued. "Ok, so I was looking around the quad looking at random stuff and I think that I saw Nathan looking at me." I paused seeing that he was about to interrupt with a question that I already had the answer to. "And before you say anything, no one was behind me for him to look at so it had to be me."
Taking a deep breath, he said, "Haley, you know how he is. Anything that moves he thinks is a piece of meat. There could've been a butterfly or another bug that he could've been looking at fanaticizing about a girl that it reminded him of. Or he could've been fanaticizing about the bug for all we know. I highly doubt that he was looking at you."
I scoffed, "Gee thanks, Luke." But as I said that, in the back of my mind I was thinking that maybe he was right. Hmm, there has to be a way to prove Luke wrong. Maybe I'll just have to keep secretly watching. But what happens if I find out that he was looking at me for real? I don't know if my heart can stand that kind of pain if he wants to try again. This could turn out really really bad. Well that'll have to wait. It's time for chemistry, the one class that I have with Nathan. Oh joy. Rolling my eyes at Luke because he was still trying to write I said, "Luke come on. English awaits for you and chemistry and Nathan await me."
Laughing, although I think he was about to cry, he said ok and he walked me to chemistry. Oh this class should be fun. Me, Nathan, and almost all of his "friends" for an hour and a half. And I just thought I was having a good day today.
AN: Hey guys. First of all i just want to say thanks for all of the reviews for the first chapter. Seriously I was blown away when I checked my e-mail this morning and I had 13 new messages of people adding and reviewing this story. Totally made my day. So I hope you liked the 2nd chapter, but I have no idea when the 3rd chapter will be up because of the holidays. I can maybe squeeze it in before we leave to have out Christmas Eve party tomorrow, but I don't know. Thanks again! -Tay- :)
