"Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, you're gonna believe them. When you're fifteen and your first kiss makes your head spin 'round. But in your life you'll do things greater than dating the boy on the football team, but I didn't know it at fifteen."

Fifteen by Taylor Swift

Nathan's POV

Nathan Scott. Two names that anybody in Tree Hill would kill to have. Well, that's everyone except me, Nathan Scott. I hate all this popularity and all the people who want to be my friend so I can get them into good parties. They think that my life is so great because of everything. Well it's not. Basketball, parties, and girls are not everything. Hate to be the one to break it to you.

I wish that I could go back to what things were like before all this. Back to when Lucas and Haley were still my best friends. Back to when Haley was still my girlfriend and when she didn't hate my guts. I just wish high school never happened because that's when it all changed for me.

I used to have the best life. I had two really great friends that I thought were going to be my friends for life. Luke and I would go to the river court almost everyday just to play basketball. Not like high school basketball with competition and stakes. Just basketball, nothing but fun. Then there was Haley who would sit on the bench and try, but never succeed, to figure out what was going on. The three of us were inseparable.

Then one day I asked Haley to be my girlfriend. I was a little apprehensive because it could have made her feel uncomfortable and she could have ran away never wanting to speak to me again. She also could've laughed and asked how much money Lucas was paying me to ask her out. Instead, the exact opposite happened. She said yes and we dating for one year, ten months, and twenty days. Yes I still know how long it was. We were so close to two years.

When I told her, she was so mad, upset, and disappointed. She left and I haven't spoken to her since that day. That was almost four years ago.

I still haven't told her that I still have feelings for her. Believe me, I tried. After the break-up, she wouldn't give me the time of day. Every time that I would go up to talk to her, she would turn the other way and never look back. So after about three months of trying, I gave up. I figured that when she was ready, she would talk to me. My feelings wouldn't change and they could wait for her to be ready for us again.

After I decided to wait, I fell in with the popular crowd. Girls and parties were now my new life style. That wasn't the Nathan I knew. That wasn't the Nathan that was going to get Haley back. That was just Nathan trying to fit it. All the girls that I've been with, and there has been a lot, have been trying to fill the void in my heart where Haley was. None of them mean anything to me, not even Peyton, my current girlfriend. I know it's harsh, but it's the truth. The only girl I want is Haley.

Haley doesn't know this, but I sometimes sneak glances at her. Ok, so sometimes is an understatement. Try almost every time she's near me. She's usually always around Luke. I'm actually glad he's still looking out for her. She needs someone to look out for her after what I did. She's so beautiful. All the time. Even when she's not trying to be. She can even wear that stupid ugly ass poncho she has and she still looks hot.

The only reason that I can somewhat look today is because Peyton is somewhere with Brooke doing something. She told me, but I forgot. And I'm drowning out all these other losers with my thoughts about Haley, as usual. Today she's sitting across the quad all by herself. Lucas must be doing homework somewhere else. Typical Lucas. I can probably bet it has something to do with English too. That has never been one of his favorites if something boring is assigned to him. I know because I'm the same way.

But back to Haley. She's observing everything around her, like she always does, with a very serious look on her face. I hope she's not thinking about another guy. Although I can't blame her for trying to move on. I mean it's been four years. But she looks amazing today. I cannot believe she still has that effect on me after all these years. Actually I can, but that's not the point.

I cannot believe I screwed up with her and now she won't even talk to me. If nothing else I still want to be in her life as like a friend. I can't take this separation! I think that I'm going to have to suck it up and make her listen to me. I think that forcing her to talk to me is the only way that I can do it.

No. Even if I did, she wouldn't listen to a word that I say. She's too stubborn. What if I trick her into listening to me? Yea, that could work. But I'd have to get someone like Luke to help. But he may not after all the pain I caused her. Could my life get any worse?

Oh wait, it can. I have chemistry next period. I really do not understand anything in that class. And when will we actually have to use chemistry in the real world? My guess is never. Plus, all of my friends are in there which makes it that much harder to concentrate when I really need to. The only upside to chemistry is that Haley is in there. She's already taken that class and passed it with flying colors, as always, but she's in there as a tutor and a teacher-aide. Just a random free-class. But I still get to see her either way.

Ok, so in my little rant about chemistry and Haley, she disappeared. I'll bet she went to go find Luke. She always walks to class with him. A privilege that I still wish that I had. We'll see what happens when I talk to her. I might as well go to class because I need all the preparation time that I can get. And if I'm lucky, she could already be in there and that might be the place to talk.

AN: Ok guys, sorry it took so long to update. But I have to say that all of your reviews made me update faster. I think that I'm up to 18 now. :) I think that's a personal record for 2 chapters. So I know that this chapter is about the same length as the 2nd one, and I'm going to try and write more if I can. If I can't that means that it's just going to be a long story, but I'm really trying. I hope everyone had a good holiday. Oh and I just wanted to mention...I don't know if you know this (because I sure didn't!) there are people from all over the world reading my story. That is so cool!!! So hi to everyone! (Again so cool! When you're from Texas *well me* you don't get outside Texas very much.)*no offence to fellow Texans!!!*(Also being amused by everything doesn't help either :D) Ok, I think that I'm going to stop rambeling and go try to figure out what to do in the next chapter. And remember...reviews make me happy!! -Tay-