December 3rd

why can't you see that I care for you so deeply that it's killing me inside all the time to see you unhappy. I swear I will do anything that you need in order to be happy and alive. I'll pay any price that is named if it's for you. I just ask one thing of you and that is to never leave me behind because I wouldn't be able to handle it like normal people.

i belong in an asylum and everyone knows it. The reason I was put here is because I fell in love with someone I couldn't have and I didn't want to let go. I have to be watched because if I find him, then I will kill him and stuff him for my own. I will forever keep him in my closet as soon as he is near again. He'll hang in my closet looking perfect as always. He is forever mine and he should know it.

this separation is not going well for me because I need him in my life and he's not here. I'll travel the world to find him. I want his blood so that I will always feel him. I want to drink his blood and have him live to watch me do it. He's mine and no one can take him away from me. He will never be alone, I will always follow him. Forever is a long time, and I intend to keep it that way.

can you find him for me? I need him here so that we can die together. He knows what I'm planning for him. I can wait until he comes back, but I don't want to. My preparations are almost done. His arrival will be the end and I will no longer be alone. I don't want to be considered a killer, but death is the onl way to stay together. Some people have to realize the truth in that.

death is the only thing that will placate me. You don't have to die, but one of my loves must die with me in order for me to be truly happy. When we die, I will have something to give to you, but not now. My music will fill the void in your heart and you will be fine until you find another care-giver. I love you, but he needs his lesson with me, so I am truly sorry for what is to come.

leaving is the best thing for all. I want to die somewhere I haven't been before. We won't be here when we die, and we won't ever be coming back. My last words to you are going to how I want my death planned. I want you to bury me and my love in whatever country we are found. Another wish is that you cremate half of us each and scatter us through the winds.

GOOD BYE. I LOVE YOU AND YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT FOR ALL ETERNITY.