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I'd sent Jake home after we'd talked a little, I knew we'd have to talk too, but Alice needed to come first. I knew she'd seen everything. I had to man up and talk to her.

After a deep breathe, I opened my window.

"Alice" I called, I knew she'd hear. I didn't raise my voice higher than a whisper.

She stepped into my room silently. I knew she was avoiding my gaze. Looking at her, my heart ached. I did love her, she was my sister. She meant a lot to me, they all meant so much to me. But I knew this would break her heart, along with 6 other hearts.

I couldn't speak, I simply walked over to hear and cried into her shoulder. She may not be too happy with me, but she embraced me and we sat on my bed and she let me cry. I cried for everything. For her, all of the Cullens.

"This is what you want?" Alice said after my tears had subsided.

I nodded. I didn't trust my voice.

"You know I'll still be here for you, right? You can't get ride of me that easily." She laughed, though I knew she was joking, but I could even tell she feared that.

"Alice, you're my best friend, more than that you're my sister. I'll always feel that way. I love you." I hugged her tighter.

"I know Bella, I love you too." Alice said, stroking my hair.

"They'll hate me." I said as a fact, instead of a question.

"As long as you're happy, that's all that matters to us." I knew Alice was trying to believe that.

I tried to believe that too. I could guess Carlsile and Esme would think that, but I had a hard time believing Rose and Edward would. Jasper and Emmett would hold no grudge. I didn't want to hurt anyone, but I knew I had to choose with myself, and only myself in mind.

"I'm sorry," I tried say to Alice. I didn't know what else to say.

Everything had changed when Edward left. My life was turned upside down. I had to right it on my own and Jake had been there. Although I'd hoped Edward would return, I couldn't believe he would. Things were different and I needed to know that Alice would fit. If she wanted to.

I yawned deeply, and Alice stood me up.

"You need rest. We'll talk in the morning okay? I promise I'll be here." I understood she wouldn't stay here tonight. She needed space. I could understand that.

I hugged her goodbye and climbed into bed. So much had changed today it was hard to believe it was all real.

My phone vibrated on my bedside table.

I miss you.

Even with all the stress of what had happened today I didn't want to be away from him.

Miss you too, can you come over?

Though I knew it would be better if I were alone, I couldn't bear the thought of sleeping alone.

Jake stepped through my bedroom door before I'd even closed my phone. I knew he'd be close.

"Hey," I said.

"Hey," He said, he knelt by my bed.

I didn't want to talk, and he knew that. He climbed into bed and held me close while I drifted into sleep. The first sleep that was not interrupted by a screaming nightmare.