A/N: Merry Christmas! I hope you were all on the Nice list this year. Enjoy. Review.
I don't own Twilight.
We didn't talk for 3 days. Which wouldn't be such a big deal if I wasn't so bored all of the time. And being bored means I have a lot of time to think. Thinking can't always be the best for me. I thought about our fight over and over. Trying to figure out what he was thinking, what he wanted, if I should have done anything differently.
I talked to Alice about my fight with Jake.
"I'm going to try and be unbiased, but he seems to have been unrational with his anger. You were trying to calm the waters, but he wanted a fight. He's obviously worried that you'll change your mind and go back to Edward." I saw a slight flicker of hope in her eyes, but she knew that I wasn't going to change my mind.
"He needs to grow a set and apologize," I said laughing, even though I was worried about the fight I needed to laugh.
"I know you want the 'best friend' answer, but I have to be honest with you. You might have been a little unfair. How would you feel if he asked you to not be jealous of his former relationships?" Alice was being honest, and it hurt.
"I don't know. I'd try..." I knew I was lying. Alice did too. She raised an eyebrow at me.
"Okay Okay, I'd hate it. And I'd probably freak out and be a jealous ass, but why can't he just talk to me about it?" I said, I was frustrated and confused.
"Bella, he's a boy. They're not always the brightest or most talkative." She laughed.
"Maybe you need to make the first move." She was right.
We said our goodbyes and I sat in my room, flipping my phone back and forth between my hands, dropping it on many occassions. I picked up my phone and, even though I was beating around the bush, I texted him.
Can we be friends again?
I waited for a response. It came within a minute of my text.
Nope. But we can kiss and make up.
I laughed. What a nerd.
Are you busy? Can you come over?
A rock tapped my window before I could hit send.
I opened my window and found Jake in the yard. He put his finger to his lips. He saw Charlie's cruiser out front and knew he was home. He leapt silently through my window and pulled me into a tight hug.
"I'm sorry, honey, I shouldn't have lost my temper," He said into my hair.
I breathed a sigh of relief.
"And I'm sorry for being so selfish. I should have thought about the situation from your point of view. You're amazing to me, but I can't expect you to be a super hero."
"What are you talking about? I am a super hero!" Jake said as he put his hands on his hips.
I laughed at him.
"Can we avoid fighting next time?" I said, still laughing slightly, but still relieved we were talking again.
"I can't promise we won't fight, you are kind of stubborn," he said tickling my ribs, "but I can promise I won't walk out before we kiss and make up."
"That's a good promise."
"And besides, I hear makeup sex is the best," he wink at me.
"Charlie's right there!" I pointed in the direction of where Charlie was sleeping.
"Oh yeah, well. I'll stay with you if you want," he said looking a little defeated.
"Please?" I asked.
He nodded and pulled the covers of my bed aside and I climbed in and he followed. He was warm and I hadn't realized how much I'd missed him next to me.
I fell asleep warm, safe and with the man I loved.
I dreamed that night, about Jake. It wasn't a bad dream, but I felt frustrated and I knew
there was something wrong about this dream.
We were walking around the forest, but it turned into a beach. And the beach was in flames. I couldn't figure out why the fire had started, but before I could tell Jake to run the scene changed back to the ballet studio with James. Only the difference was, I knew Edward wasn't coming. Jake and the pack came bursting through the doors and attacked James.
I woke up in a cold sweat and reached for Jake but he was no where to be found. I turned on my light and saw that there was a note on my desk, I walked over to it and opened it.
Sorry Bells. Been called for patrol. No need to worry. Seth got hurt so Sam called me. Seth'll be fine in a few days.
I love you.
-J
I breathed a sigh of relief to hear it was just a replacement and not an emergency.
I knew I'd never be able to go back to bed alone and sleep successfully, so I sat down and opened my e-mail on my computer.
I had 3 new messages, I hadn't realized I'd ignored my e-mails from Renee these last few weeks. I sent Renee a quick e-mail telling her I was fine and that yes, I thought it was a great idea for her to learn to unicycle with Phil.
I laughed as I tried to picture my uncoordinated mother unicycle. I walked back to bed, deciding to try and sleep. It wad only 3 AM and I couldn't sit here all night and wait for morning. As much as I'd rather have Jake with me, I had to get some sleep.
I slept, surprisingly. I woke up to bright morning sun in my window. It was a sunny day today, which was welcomed. I checked my phone and say I had 2 new messages, both from Jake.
Hey Bells, I'm done with patrol so I'm going home to get some rest. I didn't want to wake you. Call you tomorrow.
-J
The second one worried me.
Bells, Patrol again, something showed up near the border. I'll call when I'm done.
-J
I had no new calls from him. I called him, his house, and sent 8 text messages. I got no response. I was officially freaking out. I called Seth, who answered.
"Seth! It's Bella, where's Jake?" I was pacing through my room.
"Agh, I don't know. I've been sleeping." He was groggy and yawning. I forgot he had gotten hurt. I felt bad I wasn't worried about Seth.
"I forgot you were off patrol. Can you get a hold of Jake?" He got that I was asking him to phase and see if Jake was in wolf form or not.
"Sure, I'm feeling better than yesterday. I'll call you back." And he hung up.
I closed my phone and continued to pace back and forth. I waited a few minutes, still pacing. Then my phone rang.
"Hey Bella, yeah he's still out on patrol. I'm heading out too. Something came past our border. It's still hanging around so we're figuring things out. Jake says not to worry, he'll be back soon. Bye Bella." Seth hung up, and I fell to the ground. If they were out there, then obviously a vampire was near, but who would cause an issue if they were near the border? It must be a passing by nomad.
I texted Alice.
Hey, Seth said someone is at the border? Anyone you know?
-B
She texted back quickly.
Yeah, well, Tanya came by and we got into an argument. She got mad and left. We'll head out to the border and talk to the pack.
That made me worry even more. I didn't like the thought of any of the Cullens with the werewolves. Though there was a truce, the pack didn't trust the Cullens, and what had happened between me and Edward didn't help that.
I headed to my truck and decided to go down and see what was going on for myself.
As I neared the border I saw that there were a few cars I recognized near the road. I'd know them anywhere, they were Carlisle's and Emmett's. I pulled next to them and walked a few yards into the forest. I saw the wolves on one side and the Cullens on the other. They were in a tight positions and I could see Edward and Carlisle talking to Sam. Sam was still in wolf form.
I spotted Alice and walked up to her. She put an arm around my waist and pulled me slightly behind her. She whispered in my ear.
"Stay quiet, they're deciding if Tanya is theirs or not. Edward and Carlisle are trying to tell them she's not a danger and was upset so she ran without thinking."
As I stood with Alice's arm on my waist I wondered if I was on the wrong side. I was used to being on their side, but as I looked at the other side I saw Jake and his eyes were pleading. I stepped out of Alice's arm and walked toward Jake. I knew she was calling me but I kept walking toward Jake. I stopped by Jake's side and realized everyone's eyes were on me. The pack thought nothing of my actions, but I saw the betrayal in the eyes of all of the Cullens.
They continued fighting about Tanya, but I wasn't listening. I was running my fingers through Jake's fur and was lost in my own thoughts.
Had I betrayed the Cullens? I'd thought a lot about this when I chose Jake, but now it was more prominent. As I thought about it and decided my needs were more important. I had betrayed the Cullens, but I had no reason to be connected to them anymore. Yes, I loved them all. But Jake was my soul mate. He was my answer. The pack was my family now. I had to be loyal to them. As the decision to let Tanya go was laid down, I walked away from the Cullens and walked back to Jake's house without looking back.
A/N: Okay! I know. Sort of a serious chapter and not the greatest Christmas present. But the next chapter will be better. Promise. =D Lemons you say? Lemons you will get.
