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Love

Lady Nobody

CHAPTER 4

BPOV

11:27. What could be keeping him? I was alone at home and bored out of my mind waiting for Edward to call. He told me he would be home around 10. I figured he would have at least texted me to let me know he was running late. Charlie had left a few hours ago on an emergency call. I flopped down onto my bed and checked my phone again. No new messages. This was really unlike him. I looked over to my window and longed for him to be outside. Edward had spent most nights here since the day we first kissed. It wasn't anything scandalous though, we simply liked to sleep in each others arms. We had both decided to wait awhile before we took any major steps in our physical relationship. Edward grew up in a very traditional household and I loved that he respected me so much. But it seemed that it was getting harder and harder to refrain lately, and I was fine with that.

As I waited for him to call I thought about the first night Edward came over.

I was lying in bed completely awake. There was no chance for sleep anytime soon. I just kept replaying the day over in my head, wondering if I hadn't just dreamed it all.

As if trying to prove it was real my cell phone vibrated. I held my breath as I checked the caller ID, breaking into a grin as I read "Edward". I took a steadying breath before answering.

"Hey." I kept my voice low so that Charlie wouldn't wake up.

"I can't sleep, you are keeping me awake." His low voice made my heart race.

"I could say the same thing."

"I'm sorry, I didn't wake you did I?"

"Far from it, it seems we both have insomnia tonight." I closed my eyes and pictured him on the other side of the phone, in his dark room lying on his bed just like me.

"Sleeping just doesn't compare to being with you Bella."

"I know exactly what you mean." I laughed quietly into the phone.

"Do me a favor, turn on your light."

"Um, OK." What in the world?

"Damn!"

"What?"

"Well I just wished I had known that you had a second story bedoom before I drove all the way over here." I gasped and rushed over to the window. I could just make him out standing below my window.

"Hello" He said amused at my surprise.

"Oh my gosh!" I was laughing as I opened the window, wincing as it squeaked. "What are you doing here?"

"I told you, sleeping doesn't compare to being with you. I'm sorry I should have asked before coming over…" his smile began to fade.

"Hold on a sec." Tossing my phone onto his bed I went over to my closet and threw open the door. Under an old pair of jeans I found it, my emergency ladder. I brought it over to the window, reading the directions carefully before attaching it to the windowsill and dropping it down the side of the house.

"OK." I called down to Edward who was grinning and laughing. He climbed up quickly and was soon face to face with me. I took his hand to help him in. I was suddenly aware that I was in a pair of old sweats and a t-shirt. I didn't even own a pair of cute pajamas!

Edward didn't drop my hand, instead he pulled me closer.

"I'm not even going to ask about the ladder, I'm just glad you have it." He said, chuckling into my ear. I smiled and moved to pull up the ladder and close the window. Edward took off his jacket and I was relieved to see that he was wearing sweats and a t-shirt also, of course he still looked amazing.

He sat down on the edge of my bed and smiled. I climbed right into the middle of the small bed and took his hand.

"I can't believe you actually came over here. How did you even get out of your house?" I asked as I traced patterns on his hand.

"Well luckily my bedroom is on the first floor and my parents' is on the second. All I had to do is climb out the window. MY car doesn't wake the dead when it turns on."

"Hey, I Iike my truck. And Charlie said it will be fixed by tomorrow night."

"I'm just saying that it is much more convenient to have a quiet car when you are sneaking out." He was grinning again. I was still in shock that he was actually here, in my room. How did I ever get this lucky?

He gently brushed a strand of hair out of my face, letting his hand come to a rest on the back of my neck. I let myself get lost in his eyes; they were full of the intensity that I noticed the first time I saw him. He slowly moved forward, releasing my hand and bringing it up to cup my face.

"Bella." He breathed; my heart was probably beating louder than his voice. His lips caressed mine as he kissed me. It was different than this afternoon. It was sweeter, softer, not as raw, more loving. Yes that was it, it was loving. I reached up to pull him closer, running my hands through his hair. Before I even knew what was happening he pushed away from me and moved as far away as he could without getting off of the bed.

I was at a loss for what I had done wrong. Am I really that bad of a kisser? I couldn't look at him I was so humiliated, so I simply looked down at my now empty hands.

"I'm sorry. Maybe I shouldn't have come. Didn't mean to…" He whispered letting his last thought die. My breathing started to come unevenly as I braced myself for whatever he might say next. I was ridiculous for thinking that this amazing man would want ordinary me. I rested my face in my hands; I didn't want him to see me. It was like how I wished I could turn invisible when I first met him. "Bella?" I could feel his weight shifting closer on the bed and then his hand began to stroke my hair. Now I was just confused.

Timidly I peeked up at him, surprised to see his face looked pained and worried.

"Are you crying?" he asked, looking even more pained than before. I hadn't even realized that tears had actually begun to fall.

"Don't worry. I get it. You realized it was all a mistake. You don't want me, I get it." I buried my head in my hands again. I wanted to have a small amount of dignity left even if he had stolen my heart.

"Don't want you? Bella that is… absurd. If anything I want you far too much, to the point where it is completely irrational. I just did not want you to think that I only came here for… well, physical reasons." I could barely believe what I was hearing. He did want me and was only thinking of me not wanting to go too far. I looked up into his worried eyes and broke into a grin. I threw my arms around his neck and held on tightly. He in return pulled me onto his lap.

"You want me?" I felt him sigh into my hair as he rubbed circles on my back.

"Of course I do Bella. I'm sorry if I made you feel otherwise."

"I'm sorry I overreacted. This is all new to me."

"It's perfectly fine. It's all new to me also." Now that I had finally relaxed I moved off of his lap and back onto my bed. My room was cool and so I snuggled under the covers.

"Lie down with me." I pulled his hand and he followed, kicking off his shoes first. We lay in silence for a few minutes, staring at each other, memorizing the other's face. It was me who broke our silence.

"So when you say this is all new to you also…" I bit my lip and felt my cheeks get hot.

"I mean that I have never had a relationship before. I was never really that interested in anyone before you. In middle school I had the stereotypical 'girlfriends' that involved going to the movies together when our parents would drive us and then ignoring each other. In 7th grade I kissed Jenna Mendes in a game of truth or dare on the back of the bus. But other than that, no one." He gave me his perfect crooked smile and sent my heart into a panic. "What about you?"

"No one, not even a Jenna Mendes." I was a little embarrassed, but it helped that he himself had not had much experience. I would have to remember to glare at Jenna at school.

"Would it be bad if I was happy about that? I don't do well with jealousy." I giggled in response and took his hand under the covers.

"I like this, having you here." I smiled and played with our entwined fingers.

"I like being here, very much so."

"Will you stay tonight?" I wasn't sure if I was pushing things. I wanted him to stay; it felt right with him so close.

"Do you think that would be a good idea? Don't you think my parents might wonder if I was not home in the morning?" Even though he was being sarcastic I could hear the longing in his voice. He wanted to stay.

"What if you leave super early? Then you could get home before either Charlie or your parents woke up."

"I suppose that could work, if you really don't feel uncomfortable with me here." I shook my head vigorously as I smiled.

"Stay!" He laughed at my enthusiasm as he took my head in his hands to stop me.

"Then I will." He leaned in closer and pressed a lasting kiss onto my forehead. "But I want you to sleep."

I rolled my eyes. Yeah like I could sleep with a Greek god lying next to me.

"I'm serious. I want to introduce you to my parents tomorrow, so you should be well rested. I don't want you falling asleep at the dinner table."

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I had been on the verge of falling asleep when I heard the front door close. Charlie must be home. I figured it would be better to act like I was going to watch TV, that way he wouldn't get stuck watching sports reruns and never go to bed.

I bounded down the stairs before stopping in my tracks. Charlie was standing in the dark kitchen crying. Charlie had seen many gruesome things being the police chief but I had never seen him cry. Suddenly something clicked in my mind. The emergency call. Edward hadn't called. He wasn't going to call.

"Bells." He looked towards me and I could see everything I feared written on his face.

"No…" Please no. I had to be wrong. I would give anything, I would give myself.

"There was an accident, Edward, his parents, they're gone."

"No! That's not true!" I ran towards the door but was caught by Charlie's strong arms. "Let me go! I need to go to his house, he's there I know it!" Charlie held me even tighter as I kicked and pushed. Tears began to blur my vision but I continued to fight.

"They're gone sweetie, it's over, they're gone."

"How dare you say that! It's a lie!"

"I wish it was honey, I wish it was."

"No! No, oh God no!" I quit struggling as it began to sink in. My tears became sobs and my body went limp in Charlie's arms. As soon as I began to understand my entire life fell apart.

The pain was unbearable.

I wished that I had died along with him. Without him I may as well be dead.

At some point everything went dark and I prayed I was dying, but I just simply could not keep my eyes open anymore. What was the point in seeing anyways if I could never see his face again?

Eventually a different type of darkness enveloped me and I slipped into unconsciousness.

I was standing outside of the hospital in a heavy rain. Despite the rain there was no sound. As I watched a small light in the doorway grew brighter and larger. I used my hand to shield my eyes from the brilliance of the light.

"Bella," I knew that voice. I lowered my hand to see Elizabeth Masen standing in front of me; it was her that was glowing. She was in a bright white gown and looked younger, but it was most definitely her. I would recognize her eyes anywhere. Her face seemed so peaceful, her smile so heartwarming.

"My dear you must be brave. Edward is not lost to you yet. It was not his time. But you must fight for him and be willing to sacrifice for him. Whatever you do, you must not give up. Many people will try to discourage you but you must persist. Both of your happiness depends on that. After tonight I will not be able to help you, so you must pay attention. Find Dr. Cullen, he will not want to tell you the truth but do not let him stop you. When you do find Edward do not be afraid. He will have changed but his love for you will not have. It is that love that will save you both." I watched without speaking. Even though I logically knew that what she was saying made no sense, I knew it was true. Edward was still alive.

"Please Bella, take care of him. He is the most important person in my world, as you are his. Tell him that both his father and I love him very much. And please do not let him hate me for my decision." A deep sadness came upon her beautiful face and I was confused at this part. Why would he hate her? "Bella, only you can save my son. I have faith in you. You are such a wonderful girl. I am so grateful that Edward has you." I wanted to say something, to tell her how wonderful of a mother she was but as I moved my mouth no words came out.

The light that was surrounding her was growing even brighter now. "Thank you Bella, my daughter." The brightness of the light surrounded me until it was all that I could see.

In a flash it was gone, and so was Elizabeth.

I was no longer in front of the hospital. I was in the forest, alone.

"Bella." It was not Elizabeth's voice this time; it was his.

"Edward?" I started to run towards where I thought his voice was coming from.

"You must come find me, Bella. Only you can find me." I pushed ferns out of my way as I ran but my feet felt heavy and I had no idea where it was I was going.

"I'm trying Edward. Where are you?" I screamed into the empty woods.

"I don't know."