I started hyperventilating. This was insane. I didn't even have the will to move from my uncomfortable position with my hind legs folded up to fit in this tiny bath tub. This didn't make sense at all. I was scared and panicking wishing it all to just be a sick dream I was having.
My dad was still at the door and I yelped out to him. He moved and rested on his knees beside the tub.
"Okay, just concentrate. On being human. It shouldn't be that hare. It's instinctual. "I did as he asked and I slowly started to phase back. Then I felt exposed. I was butt naked in front of my father. He sighed with relief.
"I couldn't get it on my first try." My eyebrows pulled together. His first try. I was confused again. He saw the confusion on my face.
"Don't worry I'll explain." He locked his eyes with mine giving me an everything- is-gonna-be-okay smile.
"Get dressed and meet me in your room, we have to talk." He left then and I got dressed slowly still in slight shock.
When I entered my room he was sitting on me bed watching the door waiting for me to come in. He saw me and patted the space on the bed next to him.
And he explained everything to me that night. Everything about the Quileutes and the werewolves and the wolf pack at the other end of the La Push rez and Sam and everybody else who could help me adjust. I was going to see them tomorrow. I didn't go to sleep until two that night, thinking about new life as a werewolf.
Don't panic. Don't panic. I was walking steadily to the place we were supposed to meet at for the wolf pack initiation. I was so unbelievably nervous that I was contagious. I definitely rubbed off on my dad because when I left trembling, more so than I am now. I couldn't help it. This was my only chance at fitting in at all in a way, and I had no idea if they would accept me or kick wet sand in my face. We were meeting at First Beach and it was raining so no one was out. It was the perfect time apparently. I drove in my old BMW 2004 3 series down to the deserted beach. As I walked down to the shore with nothing but my ladybug umbrella I began to panic again. This was it. Four shirtless guys stalked toward me without even a welcoming smile. I took a deep breath and met them in the middle.
