A/N: It is all in Ambers POV, and I want to thank everyone who has reviewed thanks so much.
I would swallow my pride,
I would choke on the rinds,
but the lack thereof would leave me empty inside,
swallow my doubt
turn it inside out
find nothing but faith in nothing.
Want to put my tender heart in a blender,
watch it spin 'round into a beautiful oblivion.
Rendezvous, then I'm through with you
I burn, burn like a wicker cabinet,
chalk white and oh so frail.
I see our time has gotten stale.
The tick tock of the clock is painful,
all sane and logical.
I want to tear it off the wall.
I hear words in clips and phrases,
I think sick like ginger ale,
My stomach turns and I exhale.
I would swallow my pride,
I would choke on the rinds,
But the lack thereof would leave me empty inside.
I would swallow my doubt,
turn it inside out,
find nothing but faith in nothing.
Want to put my tender heart in a blender,
watch it spin 'round into a beautiful oblivion.
Rendezvous, then I'm through with you.
SoCal is where my mind states,
but it's not my state of mind.
I'm not as ugly, sad as you.
Or am I origami?
Folded up and just pretend,
demented as the motives in your head.
I would swallow my pride,
I would choke on the rinds,
but the lack thereof would leave me empty inside.
I would swallow my doubt,
turn it inside out,
find nothing but faith in nothing.
Want to put my tender heart in a blender,
watch it spin 'round into a beautiful oblivion.
Rendezvous, then I'm through with you .
I alone am the one you don't know you need
take heed, feed your ego.
Make me blind when your eyes close,
sink when you get close, tie me to the bedpost.
I alone am the one you don't know you need,
you don't know you need me.
Make me blind when your eyes close,
Tie me to the bedpost.
I would swallow my pride,
I would choke on the rinds,
but the lack thereof would leave me empty inside.
Swallow my doubt,
turn it inside out,
find nothing but faith in nothing.
Want to put my tender heart in a blender,
watch it spin 'round to a beautiful oblivion.
Rendezvous, then I'm through,
now I'm through with you
through with you
rendezvous then I'm through with you
Inside Out
Eve 6
Chapter Four: Inside Out
Things didn't seem real to me. It was as if I was in this book, like a fictional person that was made up in someone's mind. I mean who would of thought that vampires existed and guys that could turn in to huge wolfs that kill vampires yet get along in a way with some of them. Then I look at Paul, and how good looking he is, and I look at myself and I see nothing. How could a guy like him even want to be with a girl like me. I see this empty ugly person standing there, but he sees something in me. Then again he has no choice right, after all he did imprint on me. If he had a choice would he of picked me? I doubted it. He shouldn't want to be with a girl like me, he should want to be with a girl that is blonde and is or looks like a movie star. However there he was laying next to me in his bedroom alone and he was looking at me as if I was the northern lights and he was seeing them for the first time.
"Paul, stop looking at me." He started to laugh.
"I can't help it."
"Yes you can, close your eyes and go to sleep."
"Can't sleep, and I want to look at you."
"Please try and sleep, and stop looking at me so I can get to sleep." Just then there was knock on the door.
"Paul open up man!" A voice said causing Paul to growl.
"What do you want Jared?" Paul said getting out of bed and he was just in boxers. Now that sight was something to look at.
"Her step-father is drunk, in the woods looking for her. Let's go now!" Just then Paul ran out of the room and I wanted what they was up to. The last think I heard was the door slamming behind them and a howl of a wolf. I closed my eyes and laid down. I knew Paul would be back sometime and I wanted to fall asleep before that. I knew I couldn't sleep with him looking at me like he was. Slowly I drifted off in to a peaceful sleep. No worry's of my step-father coming in the room to rape me, or beat me. Nothing but sweet sleep that I craved in such a long time. A dreamless, night mare less sleep. It felt so good to finally have that, plus being Paul's bedroom helped. Also the fact that after they did whatever they was up to I was in his arms fast asleep laying on his chest while he was also asleep keeping my body so warm.
The next morning I woke to find myself in bed alone. However on the pillow next to me was a note with very sloppy writing. 'Amber, Call Bella when you wake up. Her and Edward will take you to get your things from your parents house. See you tonight, love Paul.' I put the note back down then got out of bed. I looked around the room to see Paul was a very messy person. He had clothing all over his bedroom floor, papers, food rappers, anything and everything. I started to laugh a little because I really did expect this of him, however when I walked down stairs I was shocked. The house was clean, everything was perfect in neat order. When we came in the house last night I really didn't get a look at it because it was to dark to see and Paul carried me to the bedroom with out turning a light on. Picking up my cell phone that was in my purse on the table I called Bella.
"Amber?" Came Edwards voice.
"Edward is Bella awake yet?" He started to laugh.
"Nope, how about we let her sleep I will come get you and we can get your things."
"That would be great."
"Only problem is you are going to have to walk some."
"Why?" I was confused.
"I am still not aloud on there land." I looked outside to see Pauls silver Chevy truck sitting outside along with his keys left on the table.
"Don't do it Amber, Paul will freak out!" I forgot he could read minds.
"I am not walking all that way, and I will only be driving it to meet you and to get back here."
"Don't do it, Paul has a anger problem and it is best you don't risk it."
"Fine Edward just come here and get me. If any of the guys start shit I will handle it. If they don't find out then we never tell anyone that you was on there land." Edward started to laugh.
"Fine, but we have to hurry so be ready in ten minutes."
"Okay, okay, get here now." I said hanging up on him.
I made a sandwich and started to eat when sure enough there was Edward at the door. It wasn't even ten minutes more like three. I was shoving food in my mouth and walking to the door. I opened it to see him standing in the with a smile on his face.
"What did you do trash your car getting his that fast, wait a minute where is your car?" I asked looking behind him to see there was no car out there only Edwards truck.
"Like I said, I am not aloud on this land and my car is not fast enough for me." I looked at him confused.
"So how do you expect me to get back to your car I can't..." He cut me off by picking me up on his back and taking off. I swear my food was coming back up and it would be all over him. I closed my eyes and keep them closed. It only took like three minutes and we was outside his car standing. Well he was standing I however was leaning on him about to throw up.
"Never do that again, or at least warn me." He started to laugh and if I had any power at all in me witch I didn't because I couldn't even stand, I would of punched him right then and there. Although I doubt he would feel it.
"Get in the car so we can go get your things. Are you keeping the car he got you?"
"Well yeah after all it is my car. Like I would give him that back, do I look insane." Edward looked at me as if he was trying to see if I was.
"A little, you have so meany tattoos and piercing's." I started to laugh.
"I love them thank you very much after all it makes me who I am." He also started to laugh.
"Yeah they do."
"You know Paul and Bella wouldn't be please with you looking at me like that." He turned away from me and started the car.
"You are just different then all the girls around here. Then again when I was born girls didn't look or act like you."
"That is because girls your time were boring." He just shook his head at me.
"So you in love with Paul?" I had to think about that question for a minute. Was I in love with him, no I can't be it's to soon. "It is never to soon"
"Stay out of my head Edward." He started to laugh.
"We are here so lets go get your stuff and get out of here before your step-father gets home." I opened the car door and started to walk to the house I was almost on the last step to the door when Edward grabbed my arm stopping me.
"We have to come back another time." I looked at him and he looked angry.
"Why?"
"He is here."
"No he isn't the cars are gone."
"Trust me he is in there."
"I thought you was a vampire, so if he try's something you can take him down."
"That is the problem, if he even talks I mite kill him, or even thinks something."
"Edward I don't want to be here all day or come back I want to get my stuff and get the hell out of here." He let go of my arm and shook his head allowing me to walk threw the door. However every step I took I could feel Edwards cold body really close behind me. We walked in the house to find my step-father laying on the couch watching TV. I should have known Edward could tell if someone was in the house or not. Just then he sat up and looked at both of us.
"I see you took my advice." Edward made a strange growling sound.
"We are just friends, come on Edward." As we walked up to my bedroom my step-father fallowed.
"Friends don't go in bedrooms alone, are you gonna fuck her because if so that is something I know from experience you will enjoy." Just then Edwards eyes changed to black, he was pissed so I stepped back. Next thing I know my step-father is flying out of the room and into the wall. As his body slid down the way you could see the imprint of his body where it hit the wall.
"Is he dead?" I asked looking at Edward.
"No, just knocked out."
"Holly shit Edward."
"You should of seen what he was thinking, and him saying that. I couldn't take it anymore."
"It's fine, lets get my stuff and get out of here before he wakes up." We started to pack up everything that we could fit in his car and mine. Once I had everything I wanted I took the key off my key chain to the house and dropped it on the table and walked out. No sooner did I get out the door Bella was standing by Edwards car waiting.
"Hey, everything go okay?" She asked us.
"Fine." I said looking at Edward who just shook his head.
"Bella call Jacob and have him get some help for taking Ambers things in the house, you can take my car and drive it to Paul since I am not aloud there."
"Okay, I get to drive your car!" She said excited and happy. He handed her the keys but not before making sure to tell her not to wreck it or drive to fast. I started to laugh.
"Are you her daddy or her boyfriend." He also started to laugh.
"Get going, make sure to bring my car back to my house." Edward said kissing Bella's forehead then taking off. We got in the cars and drove to Pauls house only to see Paul, Jacob and Sam standing there waiting for us. Paul almost freaked when he seen Edwards car but calmed down once he seen Bella get out of it. If only he would of known that Edward was on his fount steps standing he would have a heart attack. That was something I knew I had to get the guys over, because this not being able to go on each others land was a little stupid. Well they could go on the Cullen's land but not the other way around. That just wasn't right if you ask me. I got out of my car as the guys started to unload everything and take it in the house. Bella and I stood side by side watching them.
"Did you walk all the way to meet Edward?" Bella asked me.
"No, why?"
"How did you get from here to your house when you didn't have your car?" Not thinking the guys can hear for miles I answered her.
"Edward ran here and ran back to the car with me on his back." I said it in a whisper but they still heard me. Just the there was Paul, Jacob and Sam standing in fount of me.
"He did what?!" Paul screamed.
"Relax, I had no other way to meet him but walk or take your truck."
"My truck!" Paul looked over at his truck.
"I didn't touch your stupid truck!" I yelled at him.
"He broke the rules Amber, he is not aloud on our land." Sam said looking at Bella then to me.
"So you ass holes can go on there land but they can't come here to pick me up. So you are expecting me to walk for a two hours just to meet him then go pack my shit up and move in here. Fuck that!" I yelled walking back in the house grabbing what the boxes they took in the house.
"What are you doing?" Jacob asked me.
"Leaving, I am not staying here with a dick face!" I screamed knowing just talking normal Paul could hear me. Paul came in the door shaking with anger.
"He fucking knew better, he is not aloud on our land and yet he fucking came here, and put his hands on my girl!" I had it, I wasn't putting up with no ones shit.
"Fuck you Paul, I am done with all of you. Stay off the Cullen's land because I am going to be there until I get a job and another place to stay. I don't want to see any of you fuckers faces ever again!" I screamed throwing my stuff in the car. Bella looked at me then to Edwards car.
"Fallow me." She said getting in to the car.
"Amber wait!" Paul yelled calmed down some.
"What?"
"Don't do this, Edward will be punished for what he did and then we can go on with our lives."
"One of you even fucking touches him and I swear to go I will turn you in to Bella father!" Just then Paul grabbed my arm stopping me from getting in the car.
"Don't go, I mean it. I can't be with out you." He was almost begging like a dog begging for food.
"Let me go, stop being a fucking stupid ass then I will think about coming back." I pulled my arm away from him then got in my car. I started it up and stomped the gas that my car took off and I almost wrecked it right there but grained control fast. Soon as Paul seen it he changed in to his wolf form fallowing my car. Bella was some where behind us going a lot slower because I was going to fast for her to keep up and even if she did Edward would of flipped out on her. My tires were screaming the car was flying and I would drift it around turns causing Paul to run faster freaking out each time. I was in the Cullen's drive way doing about 90 when I slammed the breaks sliding and stopping just a inch from a tree. Paul in his human form and just shorts on came walking out of the woods.
"Are you fucking insane! You could have killed yourself!" Edward came outside along with Emmett.
"Go home Paul, and what did I tell you!" He ignored me and looked at Edward.
"You broke the rules, you know you are not to be on our land!" He yelled shaking with anger walking close to Edward. I ran over as fast as I could and shoved my way in the middle of them.
"Go ahead Paul fucking try something, because you will kill me trying."
"Get out of the way Amber!" Paul yelled at me.
"No, go home now."
"I said move!" Paul said to me. Just then Sam and Jacob came walking out of the woods.
"Do something Paul, go for it!" I yelled at him. He backed up away from us then all the sudden clothing was ripped to shreds and a growling wolf was in fount of me.
"Amber go over to Emmett, don't get yourself killed." I heard Edward say to me.
"No, what kind of friend would I be to you and Bella if something happened to you because of me. There is no way I would do that after you knocked my step-father out today like you did." Sam walked over next to Paul.
"What do you mean you knocked out her step-father?" Edward explained what went down but I keep my eyes on Paul making sure he wasn't going to do something stupid. Just then I heard Sam yell at Paul.
"Go home Paul now!" Sam yelled about five times. I looked down at Paul then to Bella who just pulled in.
"Go home Paul, in a few days I will call you and we can maybe work things out." He almost looked like his heart just broke as he turned away and started to walk to the woods with his head down. He would stop and look back a few times but then start walking when Sam yelled again. Sam looked over at Edward then back to me.
"This time is excused, no more and I mean it." He said then took off in the woods along with Jacob right behind him. I turned around to face Edward and he just shook his head.
"You had to of been crazy to stand there."
"No, after all I am his imprint and if he hurt me he would suffer in the long run as Sam does." Edward just shook his head.
"Well, lets get your stuff in the house for now and whenever you decide to go back Paul can load up his truck." Bella walked over to me and looked at me and Edward.
"You two are not in love are you?" She asked worried.
"No, come on Bella if it was the other way around I would expect you to keep Edward from killing Paul. Besides, Edward has become like my new best friend." This caused him to laugh. We started to take my stuff in to a extra room with a bed as Emmett was trying to talk me in to playing a video game with him when we was done. It turned out I spent hours playing that game with him, I passed out on the couch and Emmett was still playing it.
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