Hello all! Please R&R I really appreciate it.

I tossed and turned all night. I rolled over looking at Dean while he slept peacefully. This must be the first night in two months that he's had a decent night's sleep. His bare chest rose and fell as he inhaled and exhaled followed by a slight snore. It was so wonderful to hear that sound next to me. It had been missing for far too long. Dean was so relaxed next to me while I'm lying awake with my heart practically beating out of my chest with fear and anger. Why did Cassie call Dean? Do they still have contact? These and numerous other questions ran through my mind. I had to clear my head. I had to leave, to get away for awhile. I grabbed my phone off the night table to check the time 8:45am. I texted Manny to tell her I was coming over and I desperately needed to talk to her. I took a quick shower and left a note for Sam and Dean.

Went to Manny's

Kendra

Manny's front door was already opened by the time I pulled into her driveway.

"What's going on?" she asked as we took a seat in the living room.

"Dean's ex-girlfriend called last night." I replied as my anger and fear that was temporarily washed away in the shower had returned.

"Did you talk to Dean about it?"

"No, he's still asleep."

"What did he say to her?"

"I answered the phone."

"Oh."

"Exactly." I sighed

"You should talk to him. It's probably nothing. Dean doesn't keep things from you."

"I know. It's just with how things happened with Jayson and Brooke, old insecurities are coming back."

"That's understandable but you've forgotten that you've got destiny and magic on your side. Didn't Nana say you and Dean are supposed to be together?"

"Yes but destiny doesn't automatically make my insecurities go away."

"True but don't you have the gift of reading people's minds. Use it on Cassie and see what she's up to."

"I'd have to see her in person so I can get into her head."

"Ok then tap into Dean. If she called once she'll call again. See what he's thinking after he speaks with her."

"This is why you are my best friend." I said giving Manny a hug. My phone started to ring. It was Dean.

"You're not going to answer it?"

"He'll leave message."

"You should go home and talk to him."

"I know" I answered getting more comfortable on her couch.

"Kendra, I meant now. You've been here for hours. He's probably worried."

"Ughh. Fine I'm going. I'll call you later."

I dreaded going to home to Dean. I wondered if Cassie had called again. I stopped at every yellow light and drove the speed limit trying my best to prolong my journey. Amaya greeted me with running and hugs when I entered the house. I made eye contact with Sam and his eyes told me that I was in trouble. My eyes locked with Dean's green eyes. He was upset. The front door closed behind me and it was only then I realized Dean and I were alone.

"Dean I'm so sorry."

"I've been calling you all day."

"I know."

"You can't answer your phone."

"I needed some time to think. I've got a lot on my mind."

"Kendra, I've been gone for two months and the first night I'm back, I wake up and you're gone. It kind of makes me feel that you don't care if I'm here or not."

"Dean, that's not true. I just really had to go see Manny."

"She's your best friend I know but you have her to turn to when I'm not here." Dean was right. Manny will always be here while my time with Dean is always limited. I took a seat on the couch next to him.

"You are absolutely right." I said smiling. He leaned towards me placing his lips on mine. Dean ran his hands through my hair moving slowly down my neck to my stomach. As his kisses became more intense soft moans escaped my lips. I wrapped my arms around his neck bringing his heat closer to me. Dean wrapped my legs around his waist and with each touch of his fingers my body shivered with excitement. With one quick movement Dean had me sitting up straddling him. He ran his hands softly across my back as our lips explored the others. Suddenly his phone began to ring.

"Don't answer it." I said in a soft whisper. I knew who it was already and I didn't want this moment to be ruined. Dean lifted me off of him and went to get his phone. He looked at the Caller ID confused. He didn't recognize the number meaning he isn't in contact with her.

"Hello" he said

"Hi Cassie hey it's been a long time."

"Yea I'm still hunting." Dean said laughing.

"Really well congratulations. I'm really happy for you."

"Well, if I'm around I'll definitely come."

"Um it would be me, Sam, my girlfriend, and my daughter."

"Yes I'm a dad."

"She's four."

"Didn't think that would be me either but I love being a dad."

"No it's cool. You can come by tomorrow around 2."

"Okay see you later."

Dean hung up his phone and took a seat back next to me on the couch. I reached over to kiss him to continue where we had been interrupted but he dodged my arms.

"Baby, I'm not in the mood" he said. He was quiet so I took this time to see what was in his head. There were so many thoughts going through his mind that I really had to concentrate.

Dean thoughts

Cassie's getting married! I thought when I finally hear from her it would be because she misses me and we'd get back together. That dream has long died from the day I met Kendra. She's changed me, her and Amaya. The day I found out I was going to be a dad, best day ever. Kendra and Amaya are my life now. Cassie's a distant memory that will never be.

"I'm sorry I just blew you off but that phone call surprised me." Dean said finally speaking.

"Who was it?"

"Cassie my ex."

"Oh" I said looking down at my hands. Dean reached out for them and held them.

"I know what you're thinking?"

"Do you?"

"You have nothing to worry about. My life is with you."

"Your life? And what about your heart?"

"My heart is with you."

"She's coming over here?"

"Yea to give me the invitation to her wedding and just to catch up."

"You didn't think to ask if I was okay with that."

"Didn't think it would be a problem." Dean said walking into the bedroom. I followed him.

"Well it makes me a little uncomfortable."

"I'm not going to cancel on her." Dean replied clearly with aggravation in his voice.

"You're not serious. You would rather I be uncomfortable than cancel on your ex." I said angrily. My blood was starting to boil.

"I told you already, I'm with you, I love you."

"I heard you Dean but come on. You're ex calls you and suddenly you're not in the mood. You're always in the mood. How do you think that makes me feel especially when I don't see you everyday?"

"Kendra you need to get your insecurities in check. You knew the life I lived, you knew what you were signing up for." Dean said yelling.

"I don't need to check anything. You're ex calls and your concern for me goes right out the window." I yelled back at him.

"You're overreacting." Dean said grabbing the keys to the Impala.

"I don't think I am. You must still be in love with her." I said as Dean stood in the doorway.

"I love you and only you Kendra but at this moment I don't know why." He slammed the door upon his exit. I was able to catch Dean's last thought as he left the house, "That damn crazy girl doesn't know how much I care about her and her feelings." I know Dean loves me but what the hell does that mean?