Chapter 2: Pain

I couldn't remember what happened, it was all a blank. All I could remember was Josh's beautiful voice whispering my name and kept saying I was going to be ok. Be ok? What exactly happened? I would have to remember sooner or later, I would choose later of course, I kept hearing these annoying little beeps. Beep, beep, beep, beep… then I fell back into a deep sleep again.

I didn't know if I was still asleep but I heard a mans voice talking to someone, not near me but close enough so that I could hear the conversation.

"Hi am Dr. Leon, Miss Brennan's doctor, that is. You folks are here for Reed right?"

"Yes, yes we are. How is she?" it was a woman's voice.

"Is she awake? Please tell me she's going to be ok."

There was the voice again, the angelic voice, my saviors voice, the voice of Joshua Hollis.

"Josh please let the man speak." this was also coming from a man, Mr. Hollis am assuming.

"Sorry doctor, am just really worried about her. Go ahead." Josh said.

"Miss Brennan is in critical condition and has suffered some minor injuries such as, a broken leg and many bruises and scratches. But I am happy to say she will make a full, healthy recovery." said Dr. Leon.

"OH THANK GOD!!" this was a sort of a shout and it came from Mr. and Mrs. Hollis at the same time.

I didn't hear Josh though , which I was a little disappointed about. I was happy don't get me wrong I just had a broken leg and was going to make a full recovery. I just couldn't wait to get out of this hospital. I was wondering if Josh was even still standing there with the doctor and his parents, I couldn't hear him and it was making me wonder if he really just saved me because he had to, or did he really still love me. I thought he was in Paris the whole time I was in St. Barts, he said he HAD to stay with Ivy, that she NEEDED him. But Ivy was my friend and being the softy that I am I let in instead of telling him how I felt about him ever since all this starting happening. I should have made him take me back, who knew I was drugged at the Legacy I mean I took him back after the little thing he did with Cheyenne, but like I said am a big softy especially when it comes to Josh. While I was still thinking about all that drama I heard Mrs. Hollis.

"Oh Josh, please don't cry the doctor says she is going to make a full recovery."

"I know am not crying because am sad, am crying because am happy that she is going to be ok, am glad, ecstatic, overjoyed, excited that I get to see her again, do you need anymore of an explanation?" Josh said with a chuckle, but I could tell in his beautiful voice that he was getting choked up. He was crying because I was going to be ok. Oh no, now am crying, at least I think I am. Am I even awake, or am I dreaming. So I took a chance and opened my eyes for the first time and was at first blinded by the bright lights in the room.

" You folks can go in and see her if you would like, I don't think she's awake yet but just to see her." Dr. Leon said to the Hollis'.

"If you'll excuse me, there's an emergency on level 13." said Dr. Leon.

"Oh ok, thank you so much for everything!" said Mrs. Hollis. Always being as polite as she can, she was there comforting her family. Then I started to think of my parents and brother, where were they?

Did they even know I was in the hospital? I hadn't talked to them since Christmas, I hope that Mr. or Mrs. Hollis called them and explained everything that happened. Then I saw him, Josh poked his head into the door frame, I looked over at him and he smiled so big I thought his face was going to stay like that.

"Hey." is all he said. He stayed by the door and leaned on the doorframe.

"Hi" is all that came out of my mouth, my throat hurt so bad, but I had to tell him everything, I had to tell him how I felt and how I will always feel about him. So I tried to sit up, but that wasn't quite working out, so I kinda shouted in pain, cuz it really hurt. Josh rushed over to help me, when he touched me it felt like I was floating, I had to tell him.

"There you go, are you ok?" is all he asked.

"Yea, sorry I guess am kind of an idiot trying to move."

"You're not an idiot, just not that smart." he said with a chuckle.

I laughed at that, cuz I really wasn't smart at all.

"OW, don't make me laugh." I told him.

"Why? Does it hurt when you laugh?" he asked

"Oh yea, the doctor said I have a couple bruised ribs, but he said I was just lucky they aren't broken like my leg." I told him

"Sorry, I wont make you laugh anymore. So…" he said.

I couldn't just sit here and take this, I couldn't just keep all these emotions built up inside me anymore. They have been inside for so long….

"Josh am sorry! Am sorry for everything, for the Legacy, for Dash, for not being myself when I became president of Billings. I just got caught up in the power that I had I just thought I could change things, you know? Am sorry for not leaving with you the night of the Legacy, I should have but I just," I paused, what was I that night, why didn't I leave with him, I mean I loved him right?

"But you just what?" he asked

"I don't know who I was that night, it wasn't Reed, I was completely out of it, I was drunk and apparently drugged, or so I was told." I said with a slight chuckle remembering back to Kiran's party, when Sabine who was suppose to be my best friend turned on me and became my stalker.

"You don't know who you were? Are you serious?" he asked. His voice had a bit of edge to it like he was gonna break down or crack.

"Yes am serious, I was out of it when I did all those things, especially the things with Dash. Please you have to trust me, I would never willingly hurt you like that Josh, please." I told him. He was going to know how I felt about him.

"Josh I lo.."

"Please don't say that, of all things you can say!" he yelled.

Then he did something I would've never imagined. Not even the broken leg, all the bruises, and all the scratches can compare with the pain I felt when he turned his back and walked out my room and out of my life.