Chapter 4: I Need You

No one came in my room for a couple hours, except the nurses who kept telling me I was going to feel better if I took every pill they gave me. I didn't really like taking a bunch of medicine because of my mom, but they insisted and who was I to say I didn't want to take them. It was either I take them myself or they force me to take them, they made sure they pointed that out when I just stared them. There were at least 6 pills there, all different colors and shapes, some big and some small. Then I saw something in the pile, it was white and had little blue dots on it. Where have I seen that before? Was I just imaging it? I tried to grab it but there was nothing, maybe I was just paranoid. After the nurses left I just sat there, I didn't want to go back to bed, I have been sleeping forever.

I decided to do something I probably shouldn't do, I got up and used the crutches that were right by my bed. I walked over to the window and just stood there watching the people down below, trying to make out if I new any of them. All of a sudden a black Sedan pulls up and a group of people get out. I tried my hardest to make them out and when I did I regretted it. There were six of them, Taylor, Kiran, Graham, Daniel, Sawyer, and Upton Giles. I thought for a second about what I could do to avoid talking to them or even seeing them, at least Upton. So I slowly made my way back to my bed and laid down and shut my eyes, hoping they would think I was asleep and not even bother coming in to see me and just leave. Five minutes later I heard footsteps coming towards my room, and the door slowly opening. Its ok Reed just keep pretending, of course they will leave, right?

"I think she's asleep." Taylor said to the people behind her.

"Lets just go in and wait for her to wake up. Just don't make to much noise." Kiran said to them.

Damn it!! Why did they have to wait 'til I wake up? I laid there for at least twenty minutes contemplating on if I should just wait longer or just wake up and get it over with, guess what I decided…

"OMG!! She's awake!!" yelled Kiran

"Oh Reed, we were so worried!!" shouted Taylor while she hugged me.

"You guys am not deaf, just a little hurt right now." I told them with a slight chuckle to break the tension.

"Can I talk to you alone Reed?" Upton asked.

Right when he asked that Josh walked in and looked straight at me. It was like he was looking straight into my soul and he knew that I needed to talk to him really bad. But he still turned around and started to walk out of the room.

"Actually no you cant Upton, I have to talk to Joshua right now." I told him.

Josh turned around and looked at Upton this time, and a small smirk came through on his face.

"Oh umm, ok." is all Upton said before he walked right past Josh and out of the room, Taylor and the others followed him.

"So what did you need to talk to me about?" Josh asked

"Oh I just said that so I didn't have to talk to him." I told him. I wasn't letting him get off the hook that easy.

"Huh?" he asked

"I don't really want to talk to you." I said.

"Wow. Ok. Well if you don't want to talk to me then I will talk to you." he said

"No, I don't wanna even listen…." I said but then was rudely interpreted by him.

"Please just give me five minutes." he pleaded.

"Fine. Five minutes." I told him.

"Am sorry for acting like a jerk early and am sorry for being such a prick and a liar to you. And I just want you to know I only went out with Ivy to make you jealous, and we broke up the day after you left to St. Barts. I just couldn't stand to see you with other guys, and I cant get the image of you and Dash out of my mind, but I have to get over that because its in the past and I know many of the facts now. And I want you to know that I love you, and that I will never stop loving you no matter what, if you make me mad or you make stupid decisions, or if you choose your friends over me I just needed to give you some space I was smothering you I guess. I don't want to force you to do anything you don't want to do. If you want to be friends with Noelle I will get use to that, I will have to because that is what people do when they love that person. I love you Reed, and I will never stop falling head over heels for you. That's all I have to say so I guess I will go. Bye Reed."

Did this really just happen? He is apologizing to me? And now he gonna walk out again, I cant let him do that again, I cant live without Joshua Hollis..

"Wait Josh!!" I said, then I got out of my bed and ran to him. I ran well tried to run to him with a crutch and kissed him with such passion that we stumbled into the door.

"Whoa, Reed careful there. Don't wanna break anything else ." he said with a chuckle.

"I love you, Josh!!" I told him and kissed him again.

"I Love you too, Reed." he told me and kissed me.

"And Josh, I have a confession." I told him when I sat down.

"What's that?" he asked.

"I will always need you." I told him.

All he did was smile, a smile that made my insides melt, that was the truth. I will always need him and love him….