Chapter 6: Help

The car ride home from the hospital was excruciating, we didn't talk at all. I stared out the window, and looked at all the buildings of Easton, my home. Unfortunately I don't think I should stay at Billings tonight since me and Noelle share a room. I told myself I would just go to my room really fast pack a bag and head to the Art Cemetery to meet up with Josh. We were getting closer to the gates which lead to the dorms, and closer. It seemed like time had slowed down just for this car ride home, I could here my own heart beating it was so quiet. We pulled up to the curb and parked.

"Thanks for the ride, Noelle." I told her.

"Mmmhhmm." is all she said.

So I got out and started towards Billings to get my things.

"Reed!!" screamed Constance. Gosh I haven't seen her in awhile. Am finally home.

"Hey, calm down don't have a heart attack." I said with a laugh.

"Sorry, am just so excited that your finally back." she said.

"Awe thanks, but I have to go get something's from my room and then I have to go meet Josh." I told her.

"Oh ok, we can hang out tomorrow." she said as I headed towards the elevator.

"Okie dokie, looking forward to it." I yelled back.

I got upstairs and started looking for a bag to put some clothes in. Oh who cares tomorrows Saturday anyways its not like I have class, so decided to not bring anything except my toothbrush which I put in my purse and I grabbed my key and put it in my back pocket. Now I have to call Josh to tell him to meet me there.

"Hello." he answered.

"Hey cutie, am on campus and heading to the Art Cemetery right now, ok?" I said.

"Alright, am here already so just come on in." he said.

"Oh ok, umm I'll be there in like 5 minutes." I said.

"Are you ok, you sound sad or depressed." he asked.

"No am fine, really, just.. I'll tell you about it when I get there, ok?" I asked.

"Promise??" he asked with a chuckle.

"Yes, I promise." I said.

"Alright, see ya in like 3 minutes." he said.

"Ok bye." I said.

"Bye." he said.

I hung up and was downstairs now. I was walking to the front door when I was stopped by none other then Noelle herself.

"Where do you think your going?" she asked me.

"Where ever the hell I want, your not my mother I don't have to explain everything to or tell you every single thing that I do." I said.

"That's fine. But I would start packing if I were you." she said.

"What are you talking about?" I asked her

"Exactly what I said, you better start packing." she said as she was walking towards the elevator.

"Whatever." is all I said as I walked out the door.

I couldn't wait to get to the Art Cemetery to see Josh, he was the only good thing in my life right now. He would understand, right? I hope he will cause I need to vent to someone and he is the only person I have. When I got to the Art Cemetery the door was unlocked so I walked right in. He was in his usual spot painting away.

"Hey." I said right when I saw him. I didn't want to sneak up on him.

He turned around and his face lit up just like I hoped it would.

"Hey yourself." he said with a huge smile on his face. He got up and walked over to me and gave me a big bear hug. I wish time would stop right here, so I could stay in his arms forever.

I could tell he could sense something was wrong with me because he let go to soon to look me in the eyes and ask me…

"What's wrong babe?" he asked.

"Ugh, am just having a really bad day. That's all." I told him.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" he asked.

"Not right now, maybe a little later." I said.

"Ok, just let me know when." he said with a grin. He was trying the cheer me up, and he was kind of I have to admit.

"I while, don't worry. So what are you painting, you looked like you were hard at work." I said trying to kill the sad mad.

"Umm, nothing really. Its not done yet." he said.

"Oh, can I see it?" I asked.

"Not yet, when its all done then you can see it, ok?" he said.

"Alrighty. Oh is it ok if I stay you tonight?" I asked him.

"Of course you can, you don't even have to ask." he said with a big grin on his face.

"Thanks." I said.

What was wrong with me? Here is Josh, my boyfriend, sitting here right next to me and we are all alone, wouldn't I usually just start kissing him, and making out. Am I scared?? I couldn't think of any explanation.

"So, they put up new painting huh? I asked as I got up to walk around the room.

Josh sat there for a second looking kinda confused.

"Umm, yea I guess they did." he said also getting up and walking around the room.

Why couldn't I just kiss him? Things were seriously messed up right now, I couldn't stop thinking about what Noelle said and what had happened earlier. Oh my god am crying now, I cant just start to cry for nothing. Ugh something is wrong, I cant let Josh see me like this.

"I actually I should get going, I umm have stuff to do. But I will see you tomorrow I guess." I said as I was getting my purse.

"Wait, What?? Your just gonna leave. What's really wrong. You won't even look at me, did, did I do something wrong?" he asked with lots of desperation in is voice.

Just by hearing the desperation in his voice, just by hearing him ask if he did something wrong made me start to cry even more. Am such an idiot, I couldn't let him think that. \

"No, no, no its not you. Why would you think that? I just need to go." I said trying to calm myself down.

"But I wanted to see you, and talk to you. Please don't go, please. Will you look at me please and tell me its nothing that I did." he said.

"Josh I said its nothing about you. Will you please just believe me. Please?" I asked

"No, I won't believe you unless you look me in the eyes right now and tell me its not me." he said.

"I have to go, Josh." I said as I turned to go. But then he caught my arm and turned me around.

"Why are you crying? Please tell me what's wrong." he said cupping my face in his hands.

"This has nothing to do with you, Josh. Please just let me go." I asked pleading now.

Then he did something that made my problems go away for a little bit, for a split second it felt like I was in heaven, like Josh was my own personal angel. He kissed me with such passion and desperation to make me stay. And I kissed him back. It felt so good I didn't want to stop, but I had to go.

"Josh please, you don't wanna hear my problems ok. I just need to go." I said half out of it.

"But Reed, I love you. You can tell me anything. And you promised you would tell me what's wrong." he said.

"But.." I said.

"No buts, you promised." he said as he led me to one of the couches to sit down.

"Now tell me what's wrong and maybe I can help." he said reassuringly.

"Ok, well it started when me and Noelle were at the hospital….."