Chapter 8: God Works In Mysterious Ways

We ran all the way to Ketlar hand-in-hand. I felt so free from everything; school, Billings, Noelle, all that mattered was Josh. He loved me and that was all that I could ask for. We crept upstairs trying to avoid anybody that was still awake, especially Gage. He would probably go around telling everyone about us and spread rumors that aren't even true, I swear he gossips like a teenage girl. But nobody saw us or heard us, we got into Josh's room safe and sound.

"Are you tired?" Josh asked me.

"Not really, are you?" I asked him.

"Not if your not." he said with a grin on his face.

"Alright." I said as I was going to sit on Josh's bed.

It was sort of awkward, neither of us said anything. I was sitting on his bed and he was sitting at his desk toying with whatever he could. Why did this feel weird? I mean we obviously didn't come here just to sit here right? I wonder what he was thinking right now, was it as weird for me as it was for him? I decided I would be the one to break the silence.

"So this is fun." I said sarcastically.

"I could have gone to Billings and sat on my bed." I said.

Right after I said that something in Josh changed, like something snapped, something bad. He looked at me with disgust in his eyes.

"Then why did you come then??" he asked with lots of strain in his voice.

"Because you wanted me to, remember. I was fine with just going back to Billings, but YOU insisted that I come here with you. You said that you asked Trey to find somewhere else to go, any of this ring a bell?" I asked.

"Actually yes it does ring a bell, but if you didn't want to come here why didn't you just say so?" he asked obviously pissed.

"I did wanna come, but now that am here I don't think I wanna be." I said looking down at the ground. I couldn't stand to look him in the eye and say those words.

"Well then maybe YOU should leave." he said looking me straight in the eyes.

Was he serious? I couldn't believe he could actually look me in the eyes and say that. I hate fights, especially ones that can be avoided, like the one were having now. I wasn't gonna cry, not in front of him.

"Fine, I'll leave." I said trying to hold back tears.

"I'll see you tomorrow." I said as I grabbed my stuff.

I paused at the door waiting for him to say something like stop don't go, am sorry. But nothing came out of his mouth not even a goodbye, all he did was stare straight ahead, not even straight ahead like at me but at the wall in front of him. I knew I lost this fight, did he not take his pills today. God only knows what happened, and what will happen to us in the future. I just hope God loves me enough to keep us together. I don't think I can live without Josh in my life. I walked out of the room closing the door gently behind me so that I wouldn't wake anybody. I faced the door and broke down. I couldn't hold it in any longer, all this drama, all the fights, everything was just too much. I cant take it anymore, I need someone that's there for me, someone that I can talk to and that tells me everything is gonna be ok. But I know for a fact that one person doesn't exist. If you think you have that special person, your wrong. That person that you think is so perfect can come along one day and just stab you in the back, and stop telling you everything is gonna be ok.

"Reed?"

I turned around to see the one person I really didn't wanna see.

"Hi, umm sorry Gage I didn't mean to wake you up." I said trying to talk through my tears.

"Are you ok?" he asked sincerely.

"Ha, what do you care?" I asked him.

"Cant a guy wonder, jeez Reed." he said.

"Look am just having a really really bad day." I said.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" he asked.

"Not right now, but thanks Gage." I said.

"Well when you want to, am here." he said smiling.

"Thanks. Really that means a lot. I really don't have that many people who are there for me." I said

"Well I am. So, do you want me to walk you to Billings?" he asked looking down at the floor with a slight blush on his cheeks.

Was Gage really crushing on me, or was he just trying to be nice?

"Umm, you don't have to if you don't want to." I said trying to control my breathing.

"Well I have nothing else to do, so come on." he said holding out his hand.

To my surprise I took his hand, and he really did walk me all the way to Billings like he said he would.

"Thanks for walking me back." I said.

"Sure, anytime. Listen there isn't some guy, his name might be Josh, that I have to beat up do I." he said with a smile on his face. He was obviously kidding.

"No. At least not yet." I said laughing.

"So it was just a fight then?" he asked being totally serious now.

"As far as I know of, yes it was just a fight." I said.

"What do you mean as far as you know of?" he asked obviously worried.

"I don't know, it could just be me. But we'll see. Thanks again for walking me back, I appreciate it." I said trying to avoid the question.

"Sure. I will see you tomorrow then." he said as he was backing away from me.

"Alright, bye." I said waving and then turning to go into Billings.

"Bye." I heard him say as I was opening the door.

I looked back and he was still walking backwards making sure I got into Billings safely. I waved before I closed the door, so did he. As I was walking upstairs I kept thinking about what had just happened. Well you know how I said that those special people that are always there for you and tell you that everything is gonna be ok don't exist well maybe they do just not in the people you would expect. God works in mysterious ways.