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Bailey and Cody had every single class together, when they were dating she was more than happy at that fact, but now she would rather jump off the ship. That might be a little dramatic of her, but she couldn't help it, it hurt to see the boy she had lost every where she turned. How was she supposed to get over him if he was always around? Plus, it was incredibly awkward … It was torture.
Bailey and Cody's eyes met as she walked into their last class, Ms. Tutweiller's history class , but after a couple minutes she coughed out awkwardly and looked away, going directly to the seat furthest away from his, not giving Cody a second glance, but she could still feel Cody's eyes on her.
They haven't said one word to each other since the break up.
Bailey's basically ignoring him. No matter how hard it was, she was trying to take Zack's advice and move on with her life without Cody in it.
She wants to be friends … but she can't, it's too early for that, so she's giving it time.
This brought her to her next problem.
Zack
She needed to apologize for how she acted towards him yesterday when he was trying to comfort her at her time of need. Zack was so good to her and she had to go and ruin it by opening her big mouth, just because she was confused on why he was treating her the way he was.
She liked that part of him, but it also scared her, not because it was confusing, but because he looked so sad … so lost.
Yesterday made her see that she really didn't know Zack at all. She wanted to get to know him, the real him.
This was the only class she had with him, so it was her only chance. She was so glad that this was their last class, because they'll be able to go some where private and talk after class.
When Zack walked into the room, Bailey immediately stood up and went over to him.
When he spotted her he frowned for a faint second, before smirking.
"Hey, Kansas,"
Bailey paused for a second to study him. This was the Zack she knew, this was the Zack she was used to … but now she knew the Zack she knew wasn't really the real Zack, this part of him was fake, it was a façade. She could see that now, in his eyes, in his expression, in the way he had acted yesterday, the way he acted all the time was only a shield, a mask to cover up his real self.
But, why? She didn't understand. What did he have to hide? Why did he want to hide away and pretend all the time?
She shook the thoughts out of her head. Now wasn't the time. She could ask all that later. Right now she needs to focus on apologizing to him.
Bailey leaned into him close enough so that she almost whispers directly into his ear.
"Zack, can we talk somewhere after class?"
Zack shrugged, not looking at her.
"Please, Zack, it's important." She begged in a very soft whisper.
Zack finally met her eyes.
Bailey could see a flicker of the emotions she had saw yesterday in his eyes, but other than that they were emotionless like they always were.
Her only answer was a small nod and a very low, inaudible, "OK."
With that, Bailey gave him a small, soft smile and walked back to her seat. Cody was staring at her questioningly, but she just ignored him.
After class Bailey quickly gathered her things and waited for Zack outside of the classroom.
Cody came out before Zack did and when he saw her waiting there, he thought for some reason she was waiting for him.
Bailey looked at anything, but Cody. She was very uncomfortable.
Cody opened up his mouth to say something to her, but when she saw Zack walk out of the classroom, she quickly went to his side.
She wasn't ready to talk yet.
"Where should we talk?" She asked.
Zack shrugged slightly, not looking at her.
"My room,"
She nodded.
As they walked away, Cody stared after them in complete shock and disbelief.
First Bailey eagerly went to Zack before class started and whispered things into his ear like she was flirting with him or something, and now Bailey was waiting for Zack after class, then when he comes out she's all over him again and they go to talk alone in Zack's room.
What the heck is going on?
Zack and Bailey were never close. Cody even had a suspicion that they didn't like each other that much.
So, he repeats, what's going on?
Was Bailey already moving on … and with his own brother?
He knew Zack had liked Bailey too in the beginning, but Zack knew how much he loved her, he wouldn't do that to him … would he?
And, what about Bailey? Well she seemed to move on pretty fast when she thought he was cheating on her, she ran right into the arms of a French dude, so it would be possible that she would do the same after they broke up … so is it possible that the guy's arms she ran into this time were Zack's?
His heart ached at the thought.
But, Cody didn't even know Bailey thought of Zack like that, it always seemed like she was annoyed by him all the time.
Zack sat at the edge of his bed and Bailey sat at the edge of Marcus's bed. There was an uncomfortable silence for the first few minutes, before Bailey got out what she wanted to say,
"I'm sorry, Zack. All you wanted was to help me at my time of need, I shouldn't have questioned it. Thanks so much for listening to me and being so kind, it means a lot."
Zack shook his head.
"You don't have to apologize; I'm the one who should apologize to you. You were right. I did treat you like I hated you. I'm sorry. I don't hate you, I really don't … I-it-it's just…" He trailed off as his mask slipped off of his face once again and all the sadness and loneliness from yesterday came back to his eyes.
"Why?" She asked carefully, but gently.
Zack hesitated, not knowing if he should answer her or not. She already knew enough … too much, but she deserved to know.
He looked away from her as he answered ever so softly she could barely hear him,
"Cody and I used to do everything together."
Then everything made sense to Bailey. He didn't have to say anything else, she understood.
Zack was jealous of her, because she took his brother away from him. They weren't just brothers; no they were so much more than that. They were twins. They were each others best friends. They were part of each other.
Zack and Cody being complete opposites was perfect, because they were two parts of one whole, they balanced each other out. If they were exactly the same, it wouldn't work, they would be unbalanced. One twin couldn't live without the other.
Bailey's eyes widened as she realized for the first time that she had been taking up all of Cody's time and that because of her Cody rarely had time for his other half. She got in between inseparable twin brothers.
She suddenly felt so selfish.
Girlfriends don't always work out, but brothers are forever.
There was a flashback to when she and Cody had first started dating and Zack wouldn't leave her alone. Back then she had thought he was doing it just to annoy them, but now she knows that it was because of separation anxiety.
Just like Zack had said, he and Cody grew up doing everything together, so not being with Cody all the time was hard for him and he misses him deeply.
It's hard to let go.
She looked at Zack with sad, guilty eyes as she stood up from Marcus's bed and sat beside Zack on his bed. She wrapped her arms around him in a sideways hug.
"I'm sorry, Zack. I didn't mean to steal your twin away from you. I didn't realize it until now that I took up most of Cody's time. But, you need to know that people grow up and grow apart, that even without me you and Cody would have grown apart eventually, because it's all apart of growing up."
Zack sighed sadly.
"I know, but it doesn't make it hurt any less. When you grow up always being with somebody, it's hard to let go. I feel like not only did I lose my best friend, but a big part of me too. I need Cody, without him I feel so lost and alone. I mean now I hang out with Woody more than Cody, he's more of my brother now than Cody is. Hell, I hang out with London more than I do Cody. Sure, I was friends with her since I was twelve, but we barely ever hung out, she was more closer to Cody than me, but ever since you came into the picture me and London started hanging out more, and now she's closer to me than Cody. I've been hanging around her so much I consider her my best friend. I guess you could say Woody and London are Cody's replacements. No offense to them, because Woody is pretty cool and London is fun to be around, but … it's just not the same."
Bailey rested her head on his shoulder as her hold on him tightened and she looked up at him with understanding and sympathetic eyes.
"I understand, Zack."
They spent the rest of their time together in silence, just enjoying each others company. Bailey had so many questions she wanted to ask him, but she didn't want to push it. He had told her the truth about why he was always so nasty to her and that was enough for today. She'll save her other questions for another day.
This talk with Zack finally made her realize why it didn't work out with Cody. People said they were a perfect couple, but they were too perfect, they were too much alike. They were so much alike that they competed with each other at who was better at what and who was smarter than whom. Soul mates are not supposed to compete with each other. They were unbalanced.
They weren't meant to be.
And with that came another conclusion.
Since she's a lot like Cody, she and Zack are a lot like Cody and Zack. They're total opposites. They would balance each other out; they would be one half of one whole.
She and Zack were meant to be.
It's too early yet though, she's not ready too start dating again, the hurt from the break up with Cody still fresh, but maybe just maybe she could survive her broken heart and live on if Zack was there beside her, helping through the way, because with the realizations she made and with Zack being so open with her, she thinks she could fall in love with him.
She already felt closer to him.
