A/N: Okay guys, the story is now rated M thanks to this chapter. To explain the jump between chapters, I already explained the last few chapters were actually written after the chapters I'm about to post. So to give you some background, my RP partner and I had decided that whenever Ed returned to Amestris the military would probably let him retire after all the things he did to help them and save the world and whatever. xD But he's still under some sort of contract, so he helps them out with paperwork/research type things. Not his favorite thing to do obviously, so he kind of avoids it until the last minute. So, from this point on, Ed & Al have bought a house close by to Winry's and are living happily together. Well, mostly anyway. c8 Enjoy! (And as usual thanks to my RP partner.)
Something About You
Part five
Edward sighed deeply to himself. He was standing in the hall outside Al's room, arguing with himself about if he should go in or not. Before he could stop, he found himself slowly pushing open the half-closed door to his sleeping brother's room. Al subconsciously huddled in a ball under his covers as the door opened. It was as if his body randomly assumed it was going to be licked with cold. The older alchemist paused again, hiding slightly behind the door, only halfway into the room. He looked through the darkness to Al's bed, hoping that he wasn't going to wake his brother up, and began to slip a little farther into the room. The strawberry blonde relaxed against the sheets again, his breath staying soft and shallow. Ed smiled gently as he approached the side of Al's bed, thinking how cute Al was in his sleep, or in general ... how cute Al was all the time. He frowned at himself for thinking thoughts like that about his own sibling ... he didn't know what to make of his feelings. He couldn't even think up a good reason about why he kept stealing into his brother's room at night.
Al stirred just barely then and Ed froze in place for a second. The blonde backed away a bit, afraid he had accidentally done something to wake his brother up. The younger alchemist opened his eyes slowly at hearing the metal shift quickly on his floor and looked over.
"Brother?" He blushed slightly but wasn't frightened by Ed's presence in the room. Al sluggishly sat up, resting on his elbows. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing's wrong, I was just checking in on you and since everything's okay I'll just go now." Ed smiled and started to make his way to the door, even though he knew that the fact he was talking quickly was something Al would notice.
"Wait, stop. What is it?" Al gazed at him, still a bit sleepy.
The older alchemist turned around to face Al and shrugged. "I just came to make sure you were okay. After all we've been through, I just kind of worry sometimes."
Al smiled kindly. "Yeah, I can understand that..."
Ed walked back over and patted the blankets next to Al, unable to resist against his brother's warm smile. "So you can just go back to sleep and know I'm here."
The strawberry blonde laughed a little. "You know, I'm actually sort of awake now, Brother."
"Oh ..." Ed patted Al on the head gently, leaving his hand rest there, although doing so made him nervous. "We could get something to eat, or I can get you a book or something. I'm not really tired either."
"I guess I am a little thirsty. Would you mind getting me something?"
"No problem, hang on." Ed laughed. Yet on the way out of the room, he mumbled something unintelligible to himself.
"Huh?" Al had heard something but couldn't figure out what his brother had said. He frowned to himself.
Ed made his way to the kitchen quickly, and filled up a full glass of cold water for Al. He tried to ignore the various thoughts that kept running through his head. The ones he knew were wrong, were sick. They had been there for a long time, but they seemed to pick up since his brother and him had returned home to Risembool. Every day he needed to stop himself from doing something that would scare Al. Something that he thought would make his brother disappear. Shaking his head to clear his thoughts, he hurried back to the room. The younger alchemist was still frowning to himself, looking thoughtful.
"Hey, I got you water ... What's wrong?" He stared at Al as he stood in the doorway.
"Nothing. I was just curious as to what you said when you left, but it doesn't matter." He shrugged off the statement and took the glass from Ed. Immediately he had to try to suppress both a blush and a quickening heart rate as his fingers lightly brushed over his brother's hand when taking the glass.
"I-I..." The blonde paused, coughing as if he needed to clear his throat. "I didn't say anything before, I don't think." He sat down in a chair by Al's bed, again pretending that he didn't feel anything when his brother's fingers had touched his own.
"Really? Because I could've sworn..." Al spoke before seeing that it was making his brother uncomfortable. He dropped the subject and focused on his glass instead, taking a short sip.
"No, didn't say anything at all." The older alchemist said, almost absentmindedly, staring down at the tank top he wore to bed. He twisted the hem in his hands, yawning slightly.
The strawberry blonde's eyes drifted to Ed's fingers and he abruptly found himself wishing that it was his fingers toying with the end of the fabric. Quickly, he tore his gaze away and returned it to his glass of water.
"Everything alright?" Ed tried to look at his face and moved from the chair to sit on Al's bed next to him, even though part of him screamed not to. 'The sensible part.' The older alchemist thought to himself sarcastically.
"Yeah, just fine." Al shut his eyes tightly and tried to dispel any inappropriate thoughts as he'd done so many times before. They were especially frequent since he got his body back. He still wasn't sure why he was constantly thinking about wanting to be closer to his brother in ways that he shouldn't be. It devastated him that they never really went away. There was nothing he could do but prevent Ed from ever finding out.
"Al?" Ed asked again, his voice quiet. "... what are you thinking about?"
The strawberry blonde opened his eyes again and couldn't help but smile at the concern in his brother's voice. "You-you always pay so much attention to my actions, Brother. It's as if you can read me as easily as a book sometimes..." He tapped his fingernails on the glass and took another sip from it. "Though I really hope you can't." Al tacked on at the end in a small voice.
"Well ... I have spent pretty much my whole life with you. I know you almost as well as I know myself. ... But I can't read your mind ..." He frowned slightly, wanting to know what his brother was talking about.
"Maybe it's better that way?" Al tried to laugh it off, setting the glass on the bedside table.
Without thinking about it, the blonde reached out to hold his brother's hand in his own. "Al, please. If something's bothering you, I want to know."
Al blushed again at the contact and connected his gaze with his Ed's. He felt like he had momentarily stopped breathing.
"What is it? A ... girl or something? Is some girl you like giving you trouble? Or ..." Ed bit his lip, not even sure what he was rambling about himself. It was almost like he wanted to know if Al was interested in girls.
"Huh? N-No. I'm not close to anyone else around my age really besides you and Winry..." Al replied, taken off guard a bit, but he still didn't disconnect their hands.
"Oh. Then, what is it?" The older alchemist started to stumble over his words, staring down at his hand.
"It's … me..."
"It's you? What did you do?" Ed blinked in surprise.
"I...haven't done anything...but I...might..." The thought made him slowly pull his hand out of his brother's grasp. "You know what, forget it. It's really nothing you need to worry yourself over."
"It's too late for that now. I'm going to worry, so you better just tell me."
Al suddenly brought his knees up to his chest and hugged them, curling into a ball again. "I can't."
The older alchemist was convinced that Al couldn't possibly be feeling the same impure feelings as him and yet the fleeting thought passed through his mind once before being tossed aside. Instead he gently hugged his brother, ignoring the emotions that jolted him. "I just hope you can tell me someday."
The strawberry blonde tried to stop the shiver that threatened to course through his body. "You'll be...afraid of me..."
Ed paused, pulling back to look at Al's face but rested his hands on his brother's shoulders. "Me? Afraid of you? Haven't I told you already that you're not scary one bit? I could never be afraid of you, Al. I mean it."
"Yes you can, believe me. I don't want you to be afraid of me. I want you to love-" He froze the instant the word had left his lips.
"You want me to ... love you? But .." Ed swallowed hard. "I do .. love you, Al. More than anything or anyone. You're my brother, you're all I have."
Al felt a few tears well up in his eyes, and the words that left his mouth seemed like they were spoken by someone else. Yet it all seemed pointless to try to hide it anymore. "You know which kind of love I meant."
"... you mean love love? You don't mean ... I mean ... ah ..." The blonde felt his face get hot. He never had ever expected his brother to even remotely feel that way. He wanted Al to .. but he hadn't dared to hope.
Al hugged his knees tighter and looked away from Ed, regretting that he had said anything. "See?"
"But ... but Al ..." He moved his face closer to his brother's before whispering softly. "I do ... love you like that ..."
The younger alchemist's breath hitched a little, seeming to be caught in his throat. He felt ecstatic but at the same time, sense was trying to convince himself that this couldn't be real. It was just another one of those crazy dreams he was always having, because there was just no way that his brother could think the same way. Ed held his brother's face gently in his hand and turned it to face his. Before he could think too hard or change his mind, he nervously pressed their lips together for a second. Al closed his eyes and gave in to the kiss for a few brief moments, absolutely wanting to fly at the feeling, knowing it was reality now. Sense returned momentarily, forcing him to press his fingers lightly to Ed's chest and push him away. "Brother...no, no, we can't..."
"I know Al .. it's sick. I'm sick. But I can't help but love you. I can't change it. I've tried and I've failed. I'm sorry."
The strawberry blonde's voice felt stuck in his throat. There was a war going on inside of him, one that even he did not know the outcome of. "Haven't we broken enough laws of nature?"
"Alphonse .. I don't .." Ed swallowed hard himself, his chest aching deeply. "What's one more than?"
Al froze again, choking on his own breath and slowly slid his hand down Ed's chest before removing his fingers.
The older alchemist shivered slightly at Al's short touch and bit his lip hard. He was sick- No, the world thought he was sick, he didn't care if it was wrong. He knew he loved Al and he knew he would only ever want his brother and no one else. "I love you, Al. That's all I can say."
"I...I love you too..." Al's voice shook, and he wasn't sure if admitting that was an acceptance or just a continuation of the conversation. He was on the brink of making a decision but it relied upon what Ed did next.
Ed collapsed against Al, his body shaking. He leaned into him and wrapped his arms around Al's shoulders. Hiding his face, he replied again. "Does that mean yes?"
The younger alchemist looked to the ceiling, knowing the war inside him was over when Ed held him close. "Yes, brother. It's a yes."
Ed's mouth burned, the back of his throat aching from the tears he had held back. He let out a deep breath as the pressure against his chest seemed to stop and held on tighter. His brother reached up and clutched onto him as well. The blonde remained motionless for a few moments before finally pulling back to press his lips to Al's again. Quickly, Al switched to rest his arms on his brother's shoulders and kissed him back forcefully, reacting stronger than most people would have. He hadn't ever felt the heightened sense of kissing with his new body.
The older alchemist was surprised at first at Al's strong kisses, but he quickly tried to match them. Al let out a very small moan and parted his lips, moving his hands all the way around Ed's neck now and pressed up against him just to get his brother to hold him tighter. Ed kissed Al deeper, pushing his tongue into his brother's harder, trying not to make any noise as the strawberry blonde moved against him. Al found himself wrapping his legs around his brother's waist, intertwining their tongues, forgetting his former worries and feeling as though he actually knew what he was doing. Ed couldn't help but let out a muffled moan when Al did that, finally feeling his brother's body completely against his own. The younger alchemist fumbled with Ed's hair tie, pulling it out and running his fingers gently through his brother's hair to undo the braid.
Ed sighed happily as Al did that, gripping his brother's waist. Though, he was still nervous about what he should do, or what he could do. He paused a moment before pulling on the bottom of Al's shirt to take it off. Al made a small gasp but allowed his brother to remove it. The blonde let his fingers drift slowly down his brother's chest, and slowed the kisses for a moment, savoring that he was now able to touch him in ways that he had only previously imagined. He moved to kiss his brother's neck, his hands shaking slightly as they slid lower down Al's chest.
"A-Ah..." The younger alchemist's head moved to the side to give Ed more room. His brother licked and gently bit his neck before pausing to take off his own shirt. The strawberry blonde traced a finger down his brother's chest and leaned his head back into the pillow, losing himself at just feeling Ed's kisses on his skin. The older alchemist shifted so he was on top of his brother completely, kissing gently down his chest and grasping one of his hands tightly. Al moaned softly and watched through squinted eyes as his brother's head kept moving down. Ed paused at the waist of his brother's shorts and looked up nervously, not wanting to scare Al and not wanting to go any further unless he was given permission.
"Is som-something wrong?" Al stammered.
"I just don't want to do anything else unless you .. want me to."
The younger alchemist blushed deeply. "Go ahead, Brother. I-I trust you."
"Just tell me to stop if you need to, okay?" Ed's voice was quiet and cautious.
Al simply nodded, obviously nervous too. The blonde began to pull off the last of his brother's clothes slowly, his hands shaking again. Al gripped onto the bedsheets, trying to get into a comfortable position against the pillow behind him. Ed ran his hand down the length of Al's legs and parted them. Slowly, he lowered his head to take his brother into his mouth. The strawberry blonde let out a strangled moan and practically tore the bedsheets underneath him with his fingernails in reaction to the warmth flooding throughout his frame. Ed shivered slightly at the sound of Al's moan and and moved his head down a bit more and back up again. Then he moved his left hand over to stroke Al, and held his brother's hip to the bed gently with his right hand. The younger alchemist shuddered even more at the feeling of both pleasure and the cold of his brother's automail against his hip. Ed repeated this, pressing Al's hip down against the bed a little more, and moved his left hand to do the same on the left side, but kept the movement of his mouth going.
Al whimpered slightly, the pattern of his breath changing. "Brother.. ahn.."
Ed gripped his brother's hips harder when he heard that, and moved so he could look up at his brother's face, silently communicating a question.
"Please don't stop..."
The blonde blushed as he slid back a little. "Alright, little brother." He carefully slicked three of his fingers on his left hand before inserting one into his brother gently, still using his right hand to hold down Al's hip. The younger alchemist cried out and involuntarily tried to move away.
"It's okay, Al ..." Ed promised, whispering softly before he inserted another finger, trying to calm his brother down, and making sure to keep a grip that wasn't too tight. Al fought back a few tears, unable to relax but not wanting Ed to know.
"I'm sorry that it hurts ..." He pressed in a third finger, making sure to push in a bit harder, although he hated to hurt his brother. Yet he had to press his fingers in deeper once again. He tried to remove them slowly and let out a deep breath before moving until he was lying over his brother again. "I'm sorry, Al. It would hurt more if I didn't do it. Are you alright?"
Al opened his eyes and although a few tears slipped out, he managed to smile at Ed. "Y-Yes, I'm alright. I understand."
Ed kissed him, knowing his brother was lying but didn't say so. Carefully he began to push into Al but gasped slightly himself, grabbing onto Al's hand with his own. He wasn't prepared for what it would feel like inside of his brother. Al stifled a cry against his brother's mouth and spread his legs a little more. The older alchemist pushed in a bit more, biting his lip hard. His body ached but he knew he couldn't move any faster or he would hurt Al. His brother held on tightly to him, attempting to steady his breathing. Ed finally pushed in all the way, making himself pause for a moment before pulling out and repeating the process over again, but a little faster this time.
"B-Brother, it-aah!" Al wrapped his arms around Ed's neck and buried his face in the crook of his neck. Ed let out a strangled breath, and did it again, hoping that his brother could actually feel as good as he did. The strawberry blonde began to relax a little and moaned, a little pain still mixed into the sound but significantly less. Ed moved faster again now, falling into a set pace as he felt his brother start to relax beneath him, and attempted to hold back his own moans. Al moved to press Ed's lips to his own and connected them just briefly, almost teasingly. The older alchemist kissed Al hard, and kept up the pace of his motions, wanting to make his brother cry out again. Al muffled a loud moan against his brother's lips and then captured Ed's tongue in his mouth to show his appreciation. His brother shivered and moved even quicker, finally breaking the kiss to gasp for air, and ended up moaning softly. Al licked a bead of sweat off of his brother's neck and shuddered at the speed, unable to hold himself up any longer. He fell back against the sheets. Ed pressed close to Al again, his head feeling hazy and his breath uneven. Al bit down on his severely trembling lip, and pressed up into his brother's thrusts as much as he could.
"Oh, Alphonse .." Ed managed to breathe out, his pace switching to shorter motions. Each second of each minute, he was reminded that he was inside of his own little brother and it made him feel complete. Not sick, as society said he should feel, but complete. Finally he was able to be one with the person he loved the most.
Al inhaled sharply a few times, as a foreign but not unwelcome feeling moved through him when he heard his brother's voice. Even though just his name was spoken, it felt like perfection. It felt natural. He managed to cling tightly to his older brother once more, moaning at each thrust inside of him. "Oh, Brother .. please .." He heard himself beg.
"Mn, yes." Ed said back, his voice heavy. Al held tight to him, his little brother's fingertips digging hard against his back.
"I-I can't-" the younger alchemist cried out a final time. Ed pushed hard against Al as he suddenly felt something warm against his stomach, and he came as well, resting his head against his brother's shoulder.
Al collapsed against the bed with a soft moan, shaking profusely as he tried to get air back into his lungs. Ed fell to the bed too, moving to the side so he didn't add his weight on top of Al. After a few minutes, the strawberry blonde managed to steady his breathing and he curled up against his brother.
"Kind of a mess .." he commented jokingly.
Ed laughed, looking down at themselves. "Only a little bit. It's okay. It's from you. I like it."
Al blushed, hiding his face against Ed's chest. "Bro-ther..."
The older alchemist laughed softly again, but then cupped Al's chin in his hand so they were looking at each other again. "But, seriously, Alphonse. You don't regret this at all?"
"No, Brother, no. Not at all." Al's eyes were wide but intensely honest.
"Thank you, Al. Really. For accepting me. I do love you."
"I know you do." Al seemed shy but then he moved so he could kiss Ed again. "I love you too, Brother."
Edward held his little brother close against him as they kissed, knowing this finally wasn't a dream and he would wake up the next morning with Al by his side.
A/N: Still sorry for the jump, but I hope you liked this chapter okay. ^^ It's not over yet, there's plenty more characters to come and humorous situations for the brothers to get into. Thanks for reading!