Lost Loves Chapter 5, a gilmore girls fanfic

Rory surveyed herself in the mirror

A/N: Hey all! I'm sorry it's taken me awhile to update but I wanted this chapter to be lengthy. It is their reunion after all!! I'm pleased with how it turned out and hope you enjoy it!! It's my longest chapter ever as an author: 3,244 words!! I own nothing!

As the family got into the limo on the way to their grandfather's home Logan looked at his sister with a curious look on his face.

"What?"

"I was just wondering why you decided to visit grandpa. It's been years since we have heard from the old man. Why is it so important to see him now after close to three years of no contact with him? It's like his heart has turned to ice and he doesn't care at all about our family".

"I would like to give him a second chance. It also gave me a chance to spend some quality time with you little brother".

Logan smiled at her last statement. It did feel good to get away for a few days. It would hopefully ease his heartache just a little.

"How about we go see grandpa and then we can go check out the beach house Josh and I just bought?"

He nodded in agreement and within a few minutes the limo came to a stop in front of their grandpa's office building. The two along with the kids made their way to the front desk. Upon seeing them enter everyone there knew who they were and was genuinely happy to see them. Honor inquired about Elias and they informed her he was out of a town for a few days.

Within ten minutes Honor, Logan, and the kids arrived at the beach house. It was a beautifully decorated spacious home with four bedrooms, three bathrooms, a living room, kitchen, dining room, laundry room, garage, and a deck that was on the ocean side of the house.

"You made a great choice sis" Logan replied as he looked around the house while she took the kids to the bedroom.

Honor walked into the living room and saw Logan standing on the deck.

She noticed he was staring at the sunset and knew his heart was aching for Rory and Madison. Disappearing into the bedroom she grabbed an envelope. Within seconds she was joining Logan on the deck

"Hey little brother" Honor said as she placed her right arm around his shoulders.

"Hey" Logan repeated.

"I have something for you".

Honor gave Logan the envelope with a dvd in it. He glanced at her with a confused look. As her voice wavered slightly she began:

"It's from Rory. She gave it to me right before she died. I was given strict instructions to give it to you on your 30th birthday".

Logan was shocked. How did she do this? Did she know she wouldn't be here for my 30th birthday? he thought silently. Seeing her little brother's reaction Honor thought she would try to help him make some sense out of Rory's gesture.

"She loved you Logan. One day while visiting her she was talking about this idea she had for your 30th birthday even though it was three years away. After it was finished Rory gave it to me so you wouldn't find it by accident. To answer your unspoken questions she used the computer to do your "secret project" as she referred to it. No, I'm sure she never dreamed she wouldn't be with you today. In a way she is: in your heart" she finished as a single tear escaped her eye.

"Have you"……

"No, I wouldn't dream of it. It's for your eyes only".

Logan hugged Honor tightly.

"Come watch it with me".

The two made their way to the living room. As Honor checked on the kids Logan got the dvd ready to watch. Honor made her way back to the room, over to the couch, and sat down next to Logan. Logan pushed play and the two watched silently as the dvd played.

At the beginning of the dvd was a message from Rory. One look at her and his breath caught in his throat. It had been close to three years since he had seen her in any other form than a picture. She was pregnant with Madison and he had never seen her look more beautiful.

"Hey Logan or should I say my master and commander" she laughed lightly before continuing. "One day I got this idea as part of your 30th birthday gift. I thought it would be a cool idea if I put together 30 of our greatest moments as a couple. I hope you like it.

Remember, we will always love you" Rory finished as she placed her hand on her abdomen and blew a kiss into the camera.

He wiped stray tears and watched the screen. It read:

Our 30 greatest moments as a couple

Happy 30th Birthday Logan!!

I will love you forever!

Rory

The two watched as it started running a slideshow of pictures as the music Forever Love played by Reba McEntire.

The first time I laid my eyes on you I knew.
We'd spend this life side by side.
I still feel the same though you're so far away.
I swear that you'll always be mine...

There were pictures of the day they met, dinner at the Chinese restaurant, the jump off the scaffold, her grandparents party(aka the sub party), Finn's birthday party, his graduation, his graduation party, her graduation, the night they got the paper out, and her 21st birthday party.

Forever Love. I promise you.
Someday we'll be together.
Forever love. I won't give up. No matter what.
I'll be waiting for you. Forever love.

The next set of pictures included his 25th birthday dinner, his Stars Hollow visit, their dinner in Manhattan(after he and his group closed the deal), her visit to London, Rome, and Paris(three different pictures), their engagement, their wedding rehearsal and dinner, and their wedding.

Minutes and hours and years may go by.
But my heart knows nothing of time.
So don't cry, just keep me right there.
In your dreams. And hold on to these words of mine.

Forever Love. I promise you.

Someday we'll be together.

Forever Love. I won't give up. No matter what.

I'll be waiting for you. Forever love.

The last set included the day she told him she was pregnant, a sonogram picture, a picture of them with the gang with both Rory and Rosemary pregnant at Colin and Stephanie's wedding, one of them with Honor and Josh, another one with Logan feeling the baby kick, their honeymoon, their anniversaries, Valentine's Day at Martha's vineyard, and their Asia trip.

Love is the road to our destiny.
Nothing can change what is meant to be.

Forever Love.
Forever Love.
Oh, I wont give up. No matter what.
I'll be waiting for you. Forever love.
I'll be waiting for you. Forever love.

Lastly, was a picture of Rory in Logan's lap the night before their wedding.

Forever Love.

Glancing over at him she questioned:

"You ok?"

"I'm fine" he lied. "I think I'll take a walk on the beach".

Logan walked along the water's edge thinking about how much he missed Rory and Madison. Especially today, his 30th birthday. He walked with his head down and watched as the cool water ran over his feet as if it would help take his heartache away. He felt numb.

A few feet away Rachel was walking down the beach lost in thought. Within a few minutes she bumped into him.

"I'm so sorry" she replied as she glanced at him.

"No harm done" she answered.

Looking up at him she lost her balance and fell backwards.

"Are you ok?" Logan asked.

"I—I'm fine" she stuttered.

"Logan Huntzberger, and you are?" he inquired as he extended his hand.

"Rachel McBride" she answered shaking his hand.

"Nice to meet you".

"You too" she whispered as they went their separate ways.

Rachel waited until he was down the beach a little before she took off running towards Rory's room. Within minutes she was practically knocking her door down. Seeing her out of breath Rory became concerned.

"Are you ok?"

"Lo" she started but couldn't finish due to lack of oxygen.

"Take some deep breaths".

After following her instruction she tried again.

"Logan is here!!" she exclaimed excitedly.

"I'm sure you just saw someone who looked like him".

"It's really him" she insisted. "I'll stay with our girl and you can take a walk and see him for yourself".

Not wanting to fight with her she thought she would take her up on her offer and get some fresh air.

"I'll dream about Logan while I walk" she thought.

Making her way outside and down to the beach she walked along the water's edge. Rory walked for awhile before she saw him staring back at her. Immediately feeling the tears in her eyes she started walking towards him cautiously. As the two made their way towards each other they never broke eye contact. Without saying a word the two hugged each other tight. They stayed wrapped up in each other for a few extra moments for fear if they let go it would all disappear. Reluctantly she pulled back and guided him back to her room. The couple walked hand in hand without an inch separating them.

Entering the room Logan heard:

"Daddy" as Madison ran to him.

With a surprised look on his face he looked to Rory for confirmation. She nodded.

"Hey princess" he stated as he picked her up.

"I love you daddy" Madison said as she wrapped her arms around his neck.

"I love you too baby" Logan repeated as tears ran down his cheeks.

With his daughter still in his arms he walked over to the couch and sat down with Rory.

She saw the how, why questions in his eyes as she looked down at a sleeping Madison,

who had hold of her daddy's shirt.

"Rachel, could you take her please?"

Taking her gently from him she began:

"Don't worry Logan I won't take her far".

He smiled grateful at her. After she left he turned to Rory. Running her finger across his lips she whispered:

"I promise to answer all your questions but tonight I just want to be with you" she finished as she ran her hand down his chest.

A few minutes later, Rory was surveying herself in the mirror. She felt silly. She was nervous to make love to her husband! Sure, it had been three years but it was Logan there was no need to feel this way. Rory had on a simple long white satin grown with matching robe that hugged her curves. She let her hair drape loosely around her shoulders. Glancing in the mirror again she thought: Would he like her curves? Getting aggravated Rory silently scolded herself. Her excitement rose as she opened the bathroom door. Upon entering the bedroom she saw it was lit by only candles as soft music played. Logan was dressed in red silk pajama pants and a wife beater tank.

As he approached her he extended both his hands for her to take. Placing her hands in his Logan pulled her to his chest. He placed his hands on her cheeks as he kissed her lightly on the lips and wrapped his arms around her waist. His kiss let her know how much he needed and missed her.

"Dance with me".

Thank you for this moment
I've gotta say how beautiful you are
Of all the hopes and dreams I could have prayed for
Here you are
If I could have one dance forever
I would take you by the hand
Tonight it's you and I together
I'm so glad I'm your man

And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
but if destiny decided I should look the other way
then the world would never know
the greatest story ever told
and did I tell you that I love you
tonight

They continued kissing and with each kiss came longer lingering as they took turns deepening their kisses.

I don't hear the music
When I'm looking in your eyes
But I feel the rhythm of your body
Close to mine
It's the way we touch, it soothes me
It's the way we'll always be
your kiss your pretty smile
you know I'd die for
oh baby
you're all I need

Rory laid her head on his chest as she placed her hands on the back of his neck. Logan felt her silent tears on his shirt. He tightened his grip as a few stray tears ran down his cheeks.

Rory pulled back to look at him.

"It's you" she whispered placing her right hand on his chest.

"It's you too Ace" he repeated flashing his killer smile as he cupped her face in his hands.

Looking up at her husband she started as her remaining tears ran down her cheeks:

"I've dreamed about this" she whispered.

Kissing her tears away he picked her up and she wrapped her legs around his waist. Leaning in an inch from her lips he whispered softly:

"Let's go slow. I want to re-discover every inch of you".

Logan finished by kissing Rory tenderly on the lips as he walked them over to the bed. Placing her on the bed she patted the spot next to her. Obliging her he sat down next to Rory as she ran her hands down his cheeks for a slow, longing kiss. Pulling back breathlessly he helped remove her robe and she removed his shirt.

As she ran her hands across his bare chest he bent down removed her left shoulder strap and kissed her left shoulder. Feeling each other's warm breath hit their bare skin gave both of them warmth they hadn't felt in years.

Feel your breath on my shoulder
And I know we couldn't get any closer
I don't wanna act tough, I just wanna fall in love
As we move into the night I get crazy
Thinking how it's gonna be with you baby
I don't wanna play rough I've been loving you enough
Oh, baby

Coming eye level with Logan again she leaned her forehead against his as they listened to each other breath they let their hands explore each other's bodies. Pulling Logan closer she ran her hands down his sides while leaning in to kiss his neck.

I wanna take forever tonight
Wanna stay in this moment forever
I'm gonna give you all the love that I've got
I wanna take forever tonight
Fill you up, fill you up with love
When we close the door all I need is in your eyes
I wanna take forever tonight

Pulling back from Logan she looked into his eyes as she lowered them down on the bed. Her hands ran the course of his upper torso stopping at the top of his pants. She quickly slid his pants and boxers off as he rolled them over. Lowering himself on top of Rory he glided his hands up the outside of her legs lifting the gown as he went. Rory moaned with pleasure.

Touch my lips, I'm on fire
You're the only one I'll ever desire
Turn the lights down low, make the world go slow
When I'm holding you tonight it's so easy
Nothing moves me like you do when you tease me
And to rush would be a crime
I just wanna spend some time with you baby

Stopping briefly at her abdomen he traced the contours of it with his fingertips. Raising her gown a little more to reveal her breasts he kissed the area between them making her nipples hardened in anticipation. Rory tilted her head and placed a kiss on the top of his head as she ran her hands slowly down his back and grabbed his ass. With his right hand he bent her left leg up granting him access to her clit. Rory felt herself shake slightly when she felt his fingers glide inside her.

Feeling him fondle her left breast she quickly rolled them and straddled him. Lowering her head she placed kisses down his torso as she reached down and rubbed his length between her hands. She bent her head down and sucked his length. As they both felt the other start to lose more control Logan turned them over again. He quickly gave her a heated kiss and made his way to her breasts and gently sucked each one.

And when I'm here beside you
I wanna see what drives you out of your mind
I never wanna leave I only wanna be with you
'cause I love how you feel your love is so real

Rory not being able to contain herself anymore opened her legs and glided him inside her.

While Logan continued his ministrations she felt him hardened inside her. Wanting to please him she began to rock them slightly as she ran her hands inside his legs. Rory felt him climax a few seconds later. Knowing she was close he started slow ministrations as he placed a hot kiss on her nipple. Within a minute he felt her climax also.

I wanna take forever tonight
Wanna stay in this moment forever
I'm gonna give you all the love that I've got

The couple still tangled up in the other laid back in the bed satisfied. Snuggling into his side she felt his arm wrap around her waist and pull her closer.

I wanna take forever tonight
Wanna stay in this moment forever
I'm gonna give you all the love that I've got
'cause I can't live without you.

Pulling his face down to meet hers she captured his lips in a slow, passionate kiss. After a few moments she pulled away and looked in his eyes:

"I love you".

"I love you too Ace".

Within minutes, husband and wife fell asleep together.

A/N: I hope you enjoyed it. I wanted this chapter to capture the emotional/reconnect aspect of it and not just be about sex. More to come soon. Review please: good, bad, ugly!