The next time Lexie opened her eyes it was daytime. But that didn't mean it was dark. It was dark. That kind of dark it is when it rains and when it is cold all day. Searching for her watch she realized she didn't even had to know what time it was. She had no where to be anyway.
So she stayed about 20 more minutes in her warm bed, before she got up, went to the bath room and took a long warm shower. That always relaxed her, even though the times when Mark was with her in the shower too, it was way more ...''Stop it! Stop thinking about him. It's not like he was my life. I had a life before him, and I will have one after him!'' Lexie thought ,but she knew that it wasn't true. Of course she had a life before Mark, but now having a life without him seems impossible. She didn't even want to try. So she got out of the shower, dried her hair, put on some jeans and an old Harvard sweater and went down stairs. Hoping that there would be someone she could talk to. When Lexie entered the Citchen she first noticed a little note Meredith had left her. It simply said : Lex, I'm glad ur back home. Derek & I are at work. We'll be home for dinner.
Okay, so she had no one to talk to. Never mind. Lexie made herself breakfast that she didn't eat because she realized, after making it, that she wasn't hungry.
And what now? The microwave watch told Lexie it was 01:00 p.m. . It was a Monday so everyone Lexie knew was at work now. Great. What Lexie didn't need was even more time for herself. She wanted to go to the hospital. She wanted to work, or to do anything. Doing nothing was awful, because now she had to think of all the things she just wanted to forget. Looking outside the window Lexie perceived that it really rained. It seemed like it had rained all day and wouldn't stop to soon. Lexie comforted herself on the couch in Merediths and Dereks living room. More and more she had the feeling she didn't belong here anyway. That was Merediths and Dereks home. They were married and lived their life together. Okay, alex lived here to but he spent every second at the hospital. Suddenly the door bell rang. Having no idea of who that would be Lexie opened the door, half hoping it would be Mark, but knowing it couldn't be him.
When Lexie looked up she was looking into big, bright, worried green eyes.
Into Izzies eyes.