Starting all over again

When Lexie first saw Izzie she was shocked. What was she doing here? Was she back? What the fuck? But Lexie knew, by the exprescion on Izzies face, that she was back, and ready to stay. ''Lexie. Umm, can I come in?'' Izzie asked.

''Yeah sure, oh my god, Izzie are you back?'' Lexie couldn't help herself to ask even if she already knew the answer.

''Yeah, I think I'm back, well I, look, Lexie, it's good I met u first because I need to talk to you, I think we need to talk before I talk to A...'' Izzie said but Lexie just interrupted her and said ''We're gonna come in first. Want a tea, or coffee or soemthing else?''

''Coffee, please'' Izzie said. Lexie hurried into the citchen to make two cups of coffee, while Izzie took place at the couch where Lexie just lay and wanted someone to talk too.

When Lexie came back with their coffee, she was kinda nervous, but glad she had someone to talk too. Finally. Even though the topic of their talking wouldn't be her favourite.

Lexie handed Izzie her cup and gave her a sign to start talking.

''Well Lexie, I always liked you. You are a sweet,caring, beautiful person and I don't wanna hurt or offend you. When I left, I left because I didn't believe that Alex really loved me. I spent the months I was gone at my sisters, at New York. When I heard of the shooting I immidiately called Meredith. She told me everything that happend. She also told me that you and Mark Sloan saved my husba... Alex from dieing alone in an elevator. And she told me that you and Alex broke up short after the shooting. And Lexie, you need to know that I love. I still do and always will. Now please tell me your feelings for him, because I planned on fighting for him, just getting him back somehow.'' Izzie started to cry. Lexie was near of crying to, slowly she started talking.

''Izz, Alex and I, we've never been a thing. We tried to make it serious and grown up and all relationship like. But it didn't work. We both are in love with someone else. And Izzie, what Meredith doesn't know, what only Mark and I know, is that, when Mark and I were saving Alex, he called out for you. He loves you and he wants you back for sure. My feelings for him are simple. He was a friend before. Then he was a sex friend. And now, well , I'm pretty pissed at him actually cause, I'm sorry to say that, he is a jerk, and even if he didn't love me, he let me down after I saved him. He thinks he's all badass, well he's not. I'm just angry at him. Nothing more. My heart is somewhere else. And I really want you and him to be happy. Even if he doesn't deserve you at all.''

''Thank you Lexie. I'm glad you don't love Alex, it would have been even more compicated can I ask you one more, very personal thing?'' Izzie said.

''Go ahead'' Lexie said.

''The guy you love, it is Mark right?'' Yeah your damn right Lexie thought. She knew she loved Mark. She always did and ever will. She didn't want to waste her time anymore. She knew she wanted him back, the only reason she didn't tell him she wanted hi, was that she was afraid he didn't love her. But he told her he did love her. And if that was really true, they deserved another chance. Lexie didn't want to lie to herself or to anyone else anymore. She knew Izzie was right. She just loved Mark, no matter what happend. And their reason why they broke up aren't reasosn anymore. So she could at least try. If he would have to fight for him, and their love she would. If she looses, it will breaak her aching heart even more, but at least she knew she tried.

Lexie felt that all new thirst for action happening to her. She nearly forgot Izzie was there.

''Yeah. It is Mark. And I want him back. I really do. And I'm ready to fight.'' Lexie finally answered Izzies question.

''And I will tell him, that I love him. Today. But before I'll do that. And even before you go and get your Alex back. I need you to do a favour for ya?'' Lexie asked.

''Sure what is it? '' Izzie said.

''I wanna be Lexie again, Marks Lexie, I want to be myself again. To be honest, I hate change, Change is barely good. There's this one thing, I need to change back, and I know it doesn't really matter, but to me it is important.'' Lexie said.

''Gosh, Lex what is it!'' Izzie said.

''I just wanna die my hair back, I wanna be a brunette again.''

Izzie just starred at Lexie for a few seconds. Then the two women burst out into laugthers and were happy again. And even if they hadn't figured it out yet, that was the beginning of a huge, powerful, neverending friendship.