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Maybe I was a little too harsh on him, maybe he was only trying to be nice to me. I couldn't except that? What kind of person was I, I had all these people trying to be my friend, but I kelp pushing them away. I don't think I could handle loosing anyone else to tell the truth, I knew I needed to get over this fear. A long time ago I had excepted the fact that everyone dies, but I don't think I let it go all threw my body, to my brain telling me that shit happens. I didn't let it sink in all the way.

"Erin, are you okay?" Carrie asked me, she was sitting on the side of my bed while I lay there motionlessly. "Yeah," I mumbled sitting up to look at her. Her eyes burned holes threw my body as I just stared at her with the same emotionless look I've had ever since I was mean to Embry.

"I should get to school." I muttered rolling out of my bed. I planted my feet on the ground pushing myself off the bed, I just stood there for a minute. Just looking at the wall, like there was a beautiful piece of art painted on the plain wall that stood in front of me.

"Are you sure you're okay honey?" Carrie stood up unsure of how to look at me.

"I'm wonderful." I shifted my eyes so I could see her slightly, "If you can excuse me."

I possibly wasn't completely awake, or maybe I was just feeling weird. Either way, even I knew it seemed like I was acting different. Maybe it was because of Embry, maybe it wasn't, but from now on I'm going to be nice to him. I brushed my hair, then my teeth walking back out into my bedroom where I threw on a pair of tight jeans, and a tank top that hugged my breasts tightly.

I grabbed my bag and put my camera into it, maybe I could find some things to take pictures of. I walked downstairs, Dan was just leaving for work and Carrie had just pulled out of the driveway. "Come on Jensen, you ready?" I asked, pulling a smile onto my face easily for him.

He was the best kid ever, I'd gotten so close to him in the past three days. If it takes three days, imagine the life time I can have with the kid.

"Yes I am Erin darling."

My smile expanded, "What?" I asked with some laughter flowing out. "You're silly." I bent down so he could jump on my back.

This has been going on for three days, I haven't talked to Embry at all. He hadn't been at school since I yelled at him on my first day of school, I felt horrible. I'm not going to lie, it hurt my heart. I still couldn't figure out where I've seen my teacher before, but he said I'm making extremely wonderful progress and that I was very talented and smart. He even called me pretty which I found was not called for.

I think he's lying to make me feel better, but I don't care. Sometimes it's hard for me to focus, sometimes I think about the other kids in the regular classes with their friends... the other kids with other people who care about them.

I was always obligated to walk right into Emily's house, but I refused to, I would always knock on the door. I waited when a familiartall man answered the door, "There you go Sam." I spun Jensen to the front, he said that's one of his favourite things we do together.

Sometimes him and I go for walks, we chase the birds that sit on the benches at First Beach. We like to throw the pebbles into the water, we even pretend to be animals. He always picks a wolf because he says he can hear them at night time sometimes. It makes me laugh all the time, watching him bark and growl at the people walking by. One time we even had a play fight, he was so proud when he beat me.

"What are you doing today?" Sam asked taking Jensen out of my arms, "Not much." I bit my lip, "I think my teacher is going to start giving me homework."

"That sucks." Sam chuckled lightly, "Yeah, oh well... what more to expect." I smiled softly, turning when I heard Jacob's car pull up in front of Sam's house.

"I'll see you when I come to pick up Jensen." I nodded a goodbye to him, "Bye Erin!" Jensen waved at me, "See you later buddie."

I waved my fingers at him, I noticed no one was in Jacob's car with him. "Where is everyone?" I asked getting into the front seat of his car.

"Jared is with Kim, I'm going to get Embry, Paul isn't coming to school today, and Quil wants to walk." Jacob explained.

He had me at Embry to tell the truth. The tall, muscular man popped into my mind. The way he looked at me with his intense brown eyes, that saw right threw me into my very soul. His high cheek bones, his shaggy hair I just wanted to run my hands threw. His lips, oh those lips were one of a kind. Whenever he was around me there was a smile on his beautiful face.

"Erin?" I shook my head, jerking it in his directions blinking a couple times confused. "Yeah?" I choked out, swallowing my spit.

"Nothing." Jacob smiled looking back at the road with what looked like a knowing look, what would he know? Oh god, was it obvious?

"Hey..." I paused, a smirk appearing on my face. "What?" Jacob asked confused seeing the look on my face.

"Say cheese." I grinned taking a picture of him with my camera. "You gunna put that picture on your wall?" He joked.

"Yeah, with the rest of my collection of tall tanned boys." I rolled my eyes looking at the digital picture of him, I put it near his face so he could look. "Wow, I look sexy." He grinned cheekily.

I snorted loudly, a blush appeared on my cheeks. I'd gotten pretty close to a couple people from just the car rides and the conversations when I picked up Jensen. Jacob, Quil, and Paul. If you want to add Sam and Emily in then you could, they are all pretty welcoming, well it took Paul a day to start having a real conversation with me.

We soon arrived at Embry's house, it wasn't that far from my own. He hopped into the backseat of the car, I don't know what came over me but I quickly turned around to him. "Hey Embry." I smiled at him taking a picture quickly.

He looked shocked, his head was tilted and his eyes were somewhat narrow with confusion, not a harsh look. My eyes widened when I noticed how happy I sounded saying his name aloud, or just to be with him. His eyes softened and he smiled largly at me. "Hey Erin!" He exclaimed. "Hey Jake."

I turned back around to look out the front window, my eyes still wide. I furrowed my brow and looked over at Jacob who winked at me reasurringly. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes as I contined to look out the window and think about what was wrong with me.

When we got to school I got out of the car quickly, I felt like I was half speed walking to my class hoping that Embry didn't think I was suddenly interested. I lifted my face up to look at the cloud that hovered high above me, I stopped and closed my eyes for a second when I felt a wet drop of something hit my nose causing me to jump.

I heard someone laugh, I turned to see Quil. "Surprised?" He asked with a snicker, "Just a bit, I have to get to class." I nodded at him speeding off before I could hear him say anything else.

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I had just finished eating dinner, I picked up Jensen right after school and came right home. Dan and Carrie left a message saying that they wouldn't be home until around ten tonight so I had to put Jensen to bed at eight pm, feed him, and entertain him. None of which are very hard.

I put some bacon and eggs on Jensen's plate, breakfast for dinner was always my favourite, plus it was the only thing I actually knew how to make that tasted possibly good. I began to empty my bag while I chewed a piece of bacon in my mouth, I pulled out my camera and looked at the pictures I took.

Only a couple, the sky, some cliffs, a little pond with tiny flowers around, "Embry." I mumbled looking at the picture, a smile spread across my face.

He lips were parted slightly, both his eyebrows raised up high. Eyes just a little bit widened, pure confusion in his eyes that made me laugh silently.

I pulled my thumb against the picture, "Embry is fun!" Jensen grinned, I chuckled softly seeing some of his eggs hanging out of his mouth.

"You're a silly little boy." I grinned pinching his nose, after we finished eating we both just sat there for a minute. "I'm bored." He groaned.

"What do you want to do?" I asked him, I turned on my camera and took a picture of him thinking. "Hey!" He screeched with a smile on his face, "Don't do that!"

I put the camera down. I grabbed Jensen and threw him over my shoulders, "And why not?" I laughed while he was giggling and kicking his feet.

"Put my down, sissy!" I froze, was I putting this much of an influence on his life?

I'd always wanted a little brother or sister to play with and take care of when I was younger, I actually wanted to set an example, have someone to copy the things I do. Learn from my mistakes so that they would never repeat them, they would always tell their friends. That's my older sister, she's awesome. That's what I used to want, after my family died I would have never given it a second thought.

"Sissy?" He asked noticing that I stopped playing with him. I threw him on the couch, "I'm not your sissy, I'm the evil troll who guards this house and you are trespassing!" I lowered my voice, "You better run before my fingers get you and tickle you."

He began laughing again, he jumped off the couch running towards the door. He ran out the door leaving the door opened for me, I closed it behind me. Good thing him and I decided to keep our shoes on in the house because if not we would have probably stepped on something by now.

"Don't go too far ahead, Jensen!" I called after him, I wasn't running full speed because if I did I would have been way past him by now.

Years and years of me running away on the streets, it gives you good stamina I'd say. I continued to chase him until I caught him, "I got you!" I grabbed him throwing him in the air then catching him. "You got me!" He giggled, "Let's go to someones home."

The first person that came to my mind was Embry, his house was near by to, but would he be home was my question. How would I explain me suddenly wanting to hang out with him, I was a complete bitch to him on the first day, I pretty much told him to fuck off and leave me alone and here I am trying to hang out with him now.

After school today I heard he was looking for me, but I just left. I didn't know what to do. "Embry?" Jensen asked, I raised both my eyebrows. "You friends?"

"Yeah, him and I are friends." I smiled softly at Jensen, wipping some dirt off his face. He scrunched his nose. "Let's go than!"

I put him on my shoulders, I had no problem lifting him up. He was pretty light for a three year old. When we got to Embry's I hoped he was home because I was cold, so was Jensen. We didn't grab our jackets, and it was starting to rain. I knocked on the door, a woman answered the door.

She was taller than me, obviously, who wasn't? "Hello?" She looked confused.

"Is Embry there?" I asked with hope in my voice.

"No, I'm sorry honey. If you step in I'm sure he'll be home soon, I can call him. He's likely at Sam's house again." She rolled her eyes as I took a step inside with Jensen still on my shoulders.

"Would you like anything to drink, hot chocolate, you look a little cold." She smiled happily, I nodded. "I'd love some, Jensen, how about you?"

"Please!" He grinned clapping his hands on my head. "Little rascal." I bent over, he fell forward into my arms. I put him on the 'Welcome' matt. I took off his shoes then my own because they were muddy and this wasn't my house.

"So, are you Erin?" Who I assumed was Embry's mom asked.

I nodded my head, then tilted it. "How did you know?"

I sat down at the kitchen table, Jensen up on my lap. "Couple days ago Embry came home telling me about the beautiful woman he saw, but knocked over."

"Why did you assume it was me?" I asked curiously, a blush appearing on my face.

"He described you, and you are very pretty." She smiled handing me a glass over hot chocolate, then one to Jensen. "Thank you very much." I blushed looking at the floor.

"No problem, I'm going to call Sam's house now. One moment."

I waited with Jensen on my lap, "You are pretty Erin." Jensen agreed with Embry's mom.

"Thank you Jensen, you are a cutie yourself. When you get a little older the girls are going to be all over you." I winked at him.

"Girls have cooties, except Claire. She's so nice, and pretty too." He smiled a toothy grin.

I mock gasped, "Do you have a crush on her?" I asked

"Crush?" He must not know what it meant. "It's when you like someone a lot." I shrugged, it was the simplest way that I could really explain it without getting into very much detail.

Embry's mom came back in the room and told me that Sam said that Embry would be home soon, she told me he didn't know who was here just that someone he liked was here. I bet he wasn't going to be expecting me at all. "Want to watch some television?" She asked. "I need to run out and Embry will be back soon."

Did she really just offer to let me stay in her house by myself with a little child? I wouldn't trust a person I just met, though aparentally Embry tells his mother about me. "Are you sure you just want to leave me here?" I asked her, speaking my mind.

"Well, I know you won't do anything." She smiled, "Make yourself at home. Please."

With that she just left, "She is nice." Jensen nodded his head, spilling his hot chocolate everywhere.

I groaned, right when she leaves us he spill his drink all over the floor. Once I heard the car leave the door opened, "Embry?" I peeked over the wall to see him.

"Erin!" He exclaimed running into the kitchen, "What happened? What are you doing here?" He asked quickly.

"Thought I would drop by I guess..." I nodded my head, "Any paper towel, Jensen kinda spilt his drink all over the place."

"I got it." He smiled, opening a cupboard taking out the paper towels. "Are you sure, I mean-"

He cut me off before I could finish. "I got it, don't worry about it."

I had put Jensen on the other couch while Embry and I shared the other. "Where were you after school, I was looking for you." He smiled, not even paying attention to the tv.

I blushed looking at me feet, "I just went home." I shrugged, "Why were you looking for me?" I looked up at him, looking into his eyes. He had that same look in his eyes, I bit my lip. His look was mixed with something I've seen before, it was kind of a lustful look, but it was more intense.

I paled in the face right at that moment, I remembered who he was. I knew how I recognized Mr. Nickson. Pete Nickson, he had money but he'd wonder around Satan's Lodge a lot. I felt my eyes tear, and my breathing became more intense.

One thing about Satan's Lodge was the sex, no matter what, ever mattress someone has had sex on. Whether it was willing, or rape. Which brings me to Pete, I said I've seen him around Satan's Lodge. That's because he would take advantage of the girls there, he was an attractive man and you would never really suspect it because he looked so innocent looking, but he was no where close to that.

He would flirt with you, that's fine, we would only want some money from him. That's why people talked to him, he didn't have a reputation because everyone was scared to tell people about it. No one wants to be judged, I can tell you that much, that's why I learned not to care.

Pete Nickson, he scared the shit out of me. I'm was lucky to have gotten away from him, hence meeting Craig. "Erin, are you okay?" Embry asked pulling me into him.

"D-don't touch me!" I jumped off the couch, my eyes wide with fear. I felt a tear slide down my cheek, I remember now. "I remember." I whispered grabbing my hair, my teeth chattering together.

I glanced over at Jensen who was sleeping on the couch, I looked up at Embry who looked sad and a little frightened. "Do you want me to call Dan?"

"No!" I said right after he asked, "I'm okay, I'm really really sorry Embry."

"Want me to take you home?"

I looked at the floor, I didn't want to be alone. I know I was being paranoid now, but that's how I learned. That's the only way I know how to act, I had to watch my back by myself. "I don't want to be alone." I whispered.

Embry patted next to him, slowly I got up and sat close to him unlike before. "I'm sorry that I'm so fucked up." I murmured, hoping he wouldn't hear me.

"Don't ever say that about yourself." Embry said, he grabbed my face with his large hand and just looked me in the eyes. I was shaking a little bit, "Don't say that about yourself."

"It's true though." I continued to watch his big brown eyes fill with sadness. "I think you're perfect."

"You don't know anything about me." I looked away.

"I want to learn." He said before letting go of my face. I don't know why he was so interested in me, who was I? Why was I so important to him? Why did I feel so happy with Embry? I felt like nothing could ever harm me while I was with Embry, nothing at all.

I just wanted to forget everything I've been threw and start out brand new with Embry and my new family. I have a family now, it's what I wanted my entire life. For once I felt complete inside.

I close my eyes and leaned my head against Embry's shoulder. His breath hitched, then went back to normal before I fell asleep against him.

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