-it's like you're a drug-
[it's like you're a drug, it's like you're a demon i can't face down. it's like i'm stuck, it's like i'm running from you all the time.]
October 9, 2010 8:38 AM
boredom is an asshole. do i even need to describe to you how bored i am? i'm writing in a fucking journal, for god's sake. yeah, i could always call up one of the guys to hang out, but they're all way too absorbed in their friggin' issues. yes, "journal", or whoever the hell i'm writing too, i am bitter and depressed. deal with it. why, you ask? because kristen is looking more and more sad every day. and i can't stand that. why the hell is josh not treating her right? he doesn't deserve her. all the guys know that he treats her like shit, but we can't do anything, because "bros before hoes", right? screw that. someday, i'm going to save kristen from that dumbass. i swear it on my life. i'm going to go play some call of duty now. later.
[i know i let you have all the power, it's like the only company i seek is misery all around. it's like you're a leech, sucking the life from me.]
October 9, 2010 1:52 PM
the weather is clear, there aren't any clouds, it's a saturday, blah-blah-blah. all of that crap is useless to put in a journal. a diary, maybe. but not a journal. why am i writing in this journal? because a) my therapist said i should and b) i really need to tell someone about josh. and since i can't really do that (because he would bury me alive then murder everyone i love) i have to fall back on my second choice. writing it all down. and hoping that someday someone will read it, and will avenge me. not that i think that will really happen. but yeah. so why, you may ask (even though you're a book of paper and can't talk) do i want someone to avenge josh for me? because everything is his fault. my family is a mess. my social life is a mess. i am a mess. and it's all his fault. i'll explain in a bit. my mom's calling me for another "family meeting". screw life.
[it's like i can't breathe, without you inside of me. and i know i let you have all the power, and i realize i'm never gonna quit you over time.]
and… there's an update! :O yes, i know it's surprising. but i'm back on fanfiction! well, i still won't be on as much as i was over summer, but i'll post updates here and there. and of course some oneshots. (: hopefully there are still people reading my writing, so yeah. if you're looking forward to updates of my other stories, review this one! it'll encourage me into writing more. really. (: okay well i have a flight back home to catch now. bye guys! :D