Hello beautiful readers! If you've read my one shot "when did you miss me?" then part of this story will seem familiar, but you'll see it from another perspective :o)

Disclaimer: Only the Poem and the feeling in my heart that both Leah and Sam were set up by faith, but Leah got the shorter end of the stick while Sam at least got to find the love of his life, are mine. I don't own Twilight.

"Woah! Oh gosh Lee! So many things! When did you miss me?" Sam had asked this question many times, and he always loved her response, but right now, he knew he was asking it out of habit, so she wouldn't feel something was off. Leah was still nervous, and was blushing, but kept herself quiet.

Man, she really regretted not telling him so many things during and after the break up. That was the reason for this letter, eerr poem being sent today.

He couldn't do it, watching her blush, feeling her hand glide through his arm and fiddle with his hands absentmindedly while telling him some more about the activities in the Reservation, was killing him.

The universe was so evil. How was he going to do this? And on top have him imprint on her cousin? He was gonna shatter her to pieces.

He felt the need to cry, he couldn't tell her anything, he kissed her, slowly, sweetly, softly as his tears streamed down his face.

After he left, things just got harder for him, for Leah and for Emily.

And now here he was, holding a not so innocent, deceitful piece of white paper, knowing fully well, it might as well be a dagger heading straight to his chest.

"GODDAMIT! I kill vampires! I'm Alpha, I protect the entire Reservation and my people and I deal with Paul's shitty attitude all day long, how am I so scared of this?"

He unfolds it and begins..

"oh shit, this is why. Fuck! I knew this would be bad."

He kept reading and couldn't help but clutch his chest, as tears rolled down his big strong eyes. So many times had he cried for Leah, not because he loved her but because he loved her but because of what he made her feel. It even hurt more knowing how happy he was with Emily and knowing that Leah was still alone.

But he knew all the guys wanted her and soon one would love her how she deserved…

He didn't want Emily to feel the pain or the guilt to he took the paper and placed it between an old book in their bookshelf. He never threw away any of Leah's poems, they were too beautiful and too important for her.

Someday, when things were healed he'd give them back so he gave the poem a last read, wiped new tears away, went to his room and before going inside he whispered sadly and honestly "I'm sorry Lee-lee. I really am"

We were happy together
though it didn't last long
Now I have to live my life
knowing that you're gone

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I cry every night
since we parted ways
And I wish upon a shooting star
You'd come back and stay

/

I thought it was forever
I thought your love was true
Now my heart is crying
Hard to believe, the reason is you

/

it hurts so deep inside
knowing together we could be
But what went wrong?
Tell me, was it me?

/

I know this can't be so
for I gave you my all
I even stayed up all night
just waiting for your call

/

have you come to think
That maybe it was you?
Why are you looking at me like that?
Tell me, could it be true?

/

I never told you this
but deep inside my heart
somehow I always felt
sooner or later we'd fall apart

/

Now it's just too late
and all I can really do
Is send this lovely poem
I wrote Only to you…

I hope you liked the story and liked the Poem as well.

My head is spinning, I'm gonna go lay down for a bit, being cuddled in Paul's arms always makes me feel better. Want to help me speed up the process? How about a little review? :o)

GabyCaldeMeraz