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After few weeks, it became completely normal to come into her room in the evening. And whenever I had a night shift and I couldn't be with her, I spent the whole time wondering how's Bella doing, if she's sleeping or if she has nightmares. I was like crazy, like I was addicted. It was ridiculous, but I couldn't help myself. I felt different. And right now, when I started to wear my hair in a my-hair-look-like-this-when-I-wake-up style, I even looked different. I guess, I was different.

It was somewhere around 20th November, when my addiction and craziness reach kind of another level. Level that nobody including myself could expect.

I came through her window and she wasn't in her room. That shocked me a little bit. Yeah, I came a little sooner that usually, but still, where could she go? Then the door opened and she came into the room without even noticing me, and just big white towel was covering her body. I couldn't help but stare at her, my mouth opened.

"Nice outfit…you should wear it more often…" I said and she froze. I knew she didn't expect me to be here, so it had to be kind of shock.

"Carlisle? You're here quite soon today, don't you think?" she asked and she turned around with a smile on her face. She didn't seem to mind, that I was there, though.

"Well, honestly, I wanted to surprise you…" I said.

"I guess that you succeeded then." she replied, turning her back to me again so she could look into her closet for some clothes. I found myself watching her body again.

"You don't have to be sad, I am surprised as well…" I replied. She chuckled.

"I see. So if you excuse me, I will go to dress up myself, so you don't have to feel uncomfortable anymore…" she said and with that she walked out of the door. I sat down on her bed, wondering what the hell was happening to me. Because when she was standing right there in front of me in just her towel, I actually wanted to stand up, go to her and kiss her. Maybe I was really going crazy. I was 300 years old crazy vampire. Amazing.

She was back in a minute, wearing her pyjamas. It didn't cover THAT much more than the towel. Not that I would mind. Oh, just shut up already, you stupid brain!

Without a word, just with a little smile on her lips she went to her bed. But she didn't lie down as I expected her to. She just sat down next to me, covering herself with her blanket.

"If you are cold, I can jus-"

"Ssssh…just don't say anything, please. I am not cold." she replied silently. I looked at her face, giving her quizzical glance. She looked at me as well, little smile playing on her lips.

"I've got a question…" she said then. That didn't sound good.

"Ask then…" I nodded at her.

"Tell me, what would you say to me if I asked you to kiss me?" she asked silently, watching my face as she waited for my reaction. I was...well, speechless.

"Bella…"

"Don't 'Bella' me. Just tell me what would you say?" she repeated her question. I stared into her big brown eyes, that were asking for any answer.

"I guess I wouldn't say anything…" I said. Her smile fell a little. I didn't like to see her like that.

"Oh…I understand." she just said, looking down at her hands.

"No, I don't really think you do." I replied quickly. That got her attention.

"What do mean with that?" she wondered.

"I wouldn't say anything, because if you would ask me to kiss you, I would just kiss you…" I muttered, avoiding her eyes. I could feel she blushed. When I dared to look at her face, she smiled.

"Carlisle?"

"Yes, Bella?" I answered even though I was sure about what was she going to say.

"Kiss me…" she whispered. I moved my face closer to hers, slowly putting my hand under her chin. We were so close, that our lips nearly touched each other. She was breathing hardly, and I moved even closer, putting my arm around her waist, causing our lips to connect. We were kissing slowly, but still with so much passion that I could barely think about anything else than her lips and her body, that was pushing itself on me. She was so warm and so soft…and it felt so damn amazing. And I knew how wrong this was…but if it was so wrong, why did it felt so right, then?

After few minutes our lips separated as she was reaching for some air. I opened my eyes, staring at her face. Why does she have to be so…perfect?

Without a word she lied down on the bed, obviously drowning deep in her thoughts, not looking at me.

"Bella, what are you thinking about?" I couldn't help but ask her. She looked up at me.

"I am wondering what the hell is happening. I mean…it feels so new and yet so familiar, if you know what I'm talking about. And I don't know if it's right or not, probably not, but still I can not help what I'm feeling. I'm falling in lo-" and then I stopped her with my lips. I couldn't let her finish it. I knew how wrong this was. What would Esme say, if she saw me now? What would Edward say? He left her, because he thought it's going to be the best for her. And yet here am I, kissing her and behaving like some crazy teenager. If he'll ever find out, he's going to kill me with his bare hands. And then her warm hand pulling me down to her interrupted my thoughts. I allowed her to pull me down, lying down next to her, but still kissing her. I could feel her everywhere and that was exactly the moment when I was perfectly sure, that I was never going to let her go. Ever.

The next morning I was just talking to Dr. Marks when my cell phone started to ring. It was Alice.

"Yes?" I answered it quickly.

"Carlisle…so I guess you really didn't run away from your future, did you?" Alice asked with a chuckle. I was perfectly sure, that she knew what was going on between me and Bella. After all, she was the seer in our family.

"Oh hi, Alice. I suppose you know it all then." I answered, walking a little further from Dr. Marks, so he could not hear me.

"Of course I know. Actually, I knew it from the moment you decided to stay in Forks…" she said silently. That really shocked me. I knew that she saw something. But I would never guess, that she saw me and Bella together.

"You knew this was going to happen? And why the hell didn't you told me?" I asked her.

"Are you kidding me? With your kind character would never allow something like that to happen. And I loved that image of you two together. I couldn't let you ruin " she said dreamily. I just shook my head with a smile. Alice was always a little bit different.

"Well, what about the family? Do the know?" I asked then.

"Just me and Jasper. You know, I just had to tell him, he could feel my excited mood. Edward's gone. He left as soon as we came here, so he doesn't know anything. We'll try to keep it from him, I don't think he would take it good." she explained.

"Yeah, I absolutely agree." I said.

"I think that you should come here for few days. You know, just to make it look good. Bella's going to be alright, I've seen it." she asked and I could hear in her voice, that she was smiling.

"Ok, I'll buy a ticket and I'll take some flight tomorrow, OK?" I promised.

"I'll tell it to everybody. They are going to be happy. Have a nice day." she wished and she hung up. I had to laugh. Yeah, if everyone form the family would be like Alice, it would be ideal. But Edward and Esme weren't the only problems. Rosalie was never glad, that Bella appeared in our family. I knew, that this was definitely going to be hard.

When I came to Bella's room, she was sitting by her desk, doing her homework. I knew, that she didn't even notice me coming, so I came behind her, giving her a little kiss on her neck. I felt how she shivered.

"Gosh…you scared me to death…" she exhaled hardly.

"I am sorry…" I apologized, even though I didn't feel sorry at all. She was so cute, when she was scared. She turned her head to glare at me and I immediately used it to kiss her. She instinctively turned her body to me, running her hand through my hair. In the combination with her soft lips, it almost made me crazy.

"Did you notice, that I need to concentrate myself?" she asked. I smile and broke our kiss, walking away to sit down on her bed. She opened her eyes, watching me carefully.

"I have to go back to my family…" I muttered. Her eyes widened and I was wondering what was she thinking about.

"Do they…know about us?" she asked.

"Just Alice, because of course she saw it coming. And Jasper." I replied.

"Oh…what did she say?"

"Well, you know Alice. She is completely excited, but she promised me, that she'll not tell anyone. Edward left them, so they didn't even have to watch their thoughts…" I explained. Bella sighed and she walked to me. I opened my arms, so she could sit on me and lean herself onto my chest. I threw my arms around her protectively, enjoying her scent.

"Are we going to tell them?" she asked carefully, probably scared of my reaction. I smiled a little.

"We probably should. It will become kind of weird, that I'm desperately needed in hospital, because the only person that visits our hospital quite soon is…well, you." I said, chuckling into her hair. What the hell did she done to me, that I felt like some crazy teenager when I was with her? She looked up at me, sticking her tongue out on me.

"You look good with the hair like this…" she said, running her finger through my hair again and I was sure, that if my body was able to, I would shiver.

"Thank you. The nurses in hospital like it, too." I teased her. She snorted and turned her head away from my face. I chuckled and kissed her hair. She ignored me. I removed the hair from her neck and I caressed her skin with my cold finger. She shivered, but still ignored me. I did the same thing with my lips.

"This is terribly unfair, don't you think so?" she turned around with amused look in her eyes. I raised my eyebrows.

"Why do you think so?" I asked curiously.

"I can not stay angry at you for a minute, because with everything you do, you make me go crazy from desire." she muttered and she blushed. I smiled, putting my arms around her waist, turning her body slowly so she faced me completely.

"Isabella, you're absolutely right. It is barely fair, that you don't even have to do anything to make me go crazy from desire…" I whispered to her. Her eyes sparkled with surprise. Then she blushed again, looking down. I couldn't help myself, I had to kiss her again. In my whole life there was nothing that have ever felt half as good as kissing Bella. I would do that for eternity. Of course, there was a part of me, that was extremely crazy from the blood going through her veins, but I was used to that feeling and I knew I could never hurt her. Ever.

She broke the kiss, laying her head on my shoulder, sighing.

"What?" I asked, scared that something is wrong.

"I'm just disappointed…" she said.

"Disappointed?" well, NOW I was scared.

"Yeah, I am disappointed, that I can't kiss you for the rest of eternity." she said. I chuckled.

"That's kind of funny. I was thinking about the same thing. Yeah, it's kind of disappointing. But you can at least kiss me for the most part of the eternity, how does that sound to you?" I asked. She quickly looked up at me.

"Does that mean…you still want to change me?" she asked and a little smile appeared on her lips.

"You still don't understand it, do you? I am not going to leave. Never. Of course, if you don't ask me to." I said, looking down at her.

"Why the hell would I do something like that?" she asked. I kissed the top of her nose.

"You can never know…"

"So when actually are you going to do something completely opposite than you just said?" she asked. That confused me.

"What?"

"You're going to leave me, remember?" she smiled.

"Oh…tomorrow. And that does not count, because I am coming back to you soon as possible. I still think that they'll recognize something has changed."

"Why do you think so?" she asked curiously.

"Just look at me. I used to have my hair like that for thirty years. And now I've got haircut like some crazy teenager. I am even behaving like some crazy teenager. They'll think I've lost my mind." I explained and Bella laughed.

"Maybe you did." she said then.

"Yeah…maybe I did…" I nodded, touching her cheeks with my finger, "You should go to sleep." I whispered.

"I don't want to." she said. That made me laugh.

"I know that you don't want to, but that doesn't mean you don't need it."

"Welcome back, Dr. Cullen. Where did the crazy teenager go?" she asked sarcastically, but she moved out of my lap, lying down on the bed, covering herself with a blanket. She must have been cold. I didn't really think about that I wasn't the warmest pillow. Completely out of my mind, obviously.

"He went to sleep, just like you will now." I teased her. She stuck her tongue out on me again. I laughed.

"Are you going to be gone, when I'll wake up?" she asked.

"I'm afraid yes. I'll leave you my phone number on the table and so you can call me if anything happens, OK?" I asked her.

"Ok…" she nodded and she smiled sadly. I bended and kissed her on the top of her head.

"Goodnight, Isabella…" I whispered into her hair. She smiled and she closed her eyes, signing. I watched her face until her breathing became slow, so I was sure, that she was sleeping. Then I slowly stood up and I walked to the window. I didn't dare to look at her, cause if I did, I wouldn't force myself to leave, and I get out of the window towards the darkness…

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