Forgive and try to forget

Forgiveness means letting go of the past.

- Gerald Jampolsky

It has been a month since the little incident, and the whole school buzzed about it for a week. Nobody gave me peace, all of them wanted to know what I thought, so they can gossip more. It was really sad to watch.

But it also had a huge impact on me. Mostly I cried in my room, and I didn't even know why I was so upset. I mean I heard worse things, and yet here I was shaken up by Sasuke. I don't really understand what I did to him, to make him hate me so much.

My pain was not one-sided, as I heard. Naruto told me Sasuke was as miserable as me. He said that people molested Sasuke more than usual. It made him more grumpy than normal, if it was even possible for Prince of Glares.

It made me feel a little better, but I was still mad because what he said. So when we saw each other, let's just say it was far from friendly. Believe me it's not pretty sitting in your seat, feeling a pressure on your back, like somebody tried to make a hole on you.

And if I didn't have enough on my plate, I had to have Karin on my back now too.

The red-hair slut of the school just had to be Sasuke's number one fan. So here I was being tormented by a red monster with terrible hair and fashion.

"Yo pinkazoid! How dare you talk like that to my Sasuke? He is so much better than you, so if I see you ever near Sasuke again I'm going to ruin you! Got it pinky?"

I still can't believe that this THING is treating me, and it is the lamest thing ever heard. I can help but pity her. She is talking something about me, but when you look at her, you can see a girl who was trying too much. I mean come on, her uniform is too short and reviling, her makeup is too bright and she had it more than a clown, but her attitude was the worst. Sometimes I wonder how anybody can bed her.

"Listen here Karin, and listen good…I don't care about your little attempts to scare or whatever, I'm going to do what I want, and for the record I don't care for your precious Sasuke, so you can have him, on a silver plate if you ask me…"

With that said I just turned around and walked away not even interested to hear what she was going to say. Probably something stupid and did I mention annoying. I don't know how Sasuke can even stand her, let alone kiss her.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that the beast and Emo prince are in some sort of relationship. I seriously don't know how he can look at her let alone can sleep with her. Brrr nasty, I mean isn't he afraid to get some disease, the woman slept with so many people. Like I said nasty, plain horrible makes me want to hurl.

While I walked around the school, lost deep in thought, yes I know a shocker; I didn't notice that the class has already began. So like the idiot that I am I just had to run all the way to the other side of the school to get to class. But what made me halt on the spot were two voices sounding very angry, no more like pissed off.

And as is mentioned before I just had to go look. More like snoop, and I can't really say I expected THAT.

There was Sasuke arguing with angry looking Gaara. Well Gaara was also an outcast, but he was a drug dealer, everybody knew that. So the question is why he is talking to Sasuke of all people, the great athlete. Yeah Sasuke is the captain of the football team.

"Damn Uchiha I want my money now! I don't care for your reputation; you buy it you pay it, simple as that!"

You can say that I was shocked but that would be a far understatement. Who would have ever thought of somebody like Sasuke smoking pot? It just didn't make sense, sure he was an outcast, with the clothes and attitude and all but he chose to be one. If he acted a little differently he would be just like me, so I don't seem to follow, now his a druggie? I guess there should be no surprise; I mean Naruto does it to, sadly…

"Here is your damn money, just shut up already, and if you just think about telling this to anybody I'll make you wish you were never born…"

The way his eyes blazed, his jaw tight, and his voice menacing, I really believed every word he said. His was also famous because of his awful temper. Heh same here.

But when Gaara left, I made the biggest mistake, which I was sure I'll regret deeply. I turned to leave, as quickly as possible, no way I was about to let him get tough with his treat. But me being the klutz that I am, I just had to trip, and stumble just in Sasuke's line of vision. Oh boy his face I swear spelled doom.

Seeing his body go tense I took into a full sprint, too bad he was much faster than me, so in mere second I was slammed into the wall, not to gently might I add, and forced to look in his deadly captivating eyes.

"My, what do we have here hm? A little miss Sakura, snooping around the school instead of being in class? What do I owe the pleasure?"

He may have had the smirk on his face that could make any female fall in love, but I was more terrified of the sharp and icy voice he is using. The sadistic look didn't help me ether.

"Sasuke please let me go…I swear I didn't mean to…."

In my mind I had this great speech, but it was all caught in my troth, making me sound so pleading and desperate, you know like I really feel. I'm such a weakling…

"Sorry babe I can't do that, if I let you go out of my site you will tell everybody my little secret and we can't let that happen now can we?"

At that moment I knew my life was going to change drastically, I just hope I was going to get out of it alive. And by the way his eyes got that mischievous glint I now hated I knew I was in for a long painful ride.

"Sasuke please…"

I guess it was my last chance to plead him to change his mind.

"So I have an idea… here is what we are going to do…you are going to be hanging around me like my puppet…no, hm, let's say you will be my slave, you are going to do whatever I want you to do…sounds like such fun…but to the entire school you will be known as my cute, fake girlfriend and you WILL obey me, or else…"

The way he stressed out the word will, made me cry really bad, but I realized just now that I was crying for some time. He just had to ruin my life.

"Sasuke…don't do this…"

"Oh shh, babe don't cry everything is going to be ok, as long as you keep my secret and do ass I say…on the plus side you will see more of Naruto and your little friend"

I don't know what he was trying to do, but it was so NOT working. He took my freedom and he thinks his little sentence is going to make me feel ANY better?

"Why are you doing this, you know I won't tell anybody, why have to take my freedom away? Why torture me so much? Why do you hate me so much?"

"It's more fun seeing you this broken, messing with your plastic friends and reputation, and I don't hate you, I despise you little unreal world…che such a joke"

I may have been crying a few moments ago, but now I was feeling more and more anger running my veins that I couldn't see myself shaking like volcano ready to explode.

"I AM broken you jerk, I WAS broken far earlier then now, so don't flatter yourself! You don't know a shit about me, so don't you dare call me plastic and fake, because I am so far from it! My world is not unreal; it's more like my OWN PERSONAL hell! So don't say things you know nothing about!"

In the process of yelling at him, I have started hitting like no tomorrow unleashing all my frustrations on him. All the feeling I have bottled up for so many years, all the pain, loss, sorrow, everything. And by the look on his face he was far from shocked. But when I finished my little outburst he had a face somewhat understanding, but the now present anger was overshadowing it by the second.

Now I was the one confused…

"You think I don't know anything about personal hells? You think you are the only one with problems, the only one who's trying to deal or run away from them? You think it's all about you huh Sakura? Well it's NOT! You don't know a fucking thing about me, so don't dare act all high and mighty, cause you don't know a fucking shit about a bad days, months, lifetime…"

I have never seen him so angry before, but also I have never seen him so venerable and open, like a child. Right now even when he was pressing me against the wall, I felt more stable than him, he just looked plainly lost, almost begging to be saved. And I could not help but feel sorry for him, and me. He was so fragile right now, anybody but me would have used it against him already, but I could not help but relate to that pain.

So I did the only thing my fuck up mind told me to do, I hugged him. At first he tensed up, probably surprised, like me, and a minute later he actually hugged back. I could feel his fingers digging in my flesh, almost as he was making sure I was real and like he never wanted to let me go.

For the longest time we just stood there holding onto each other too afraid of reality to let go. I knew we had to face it sometime, so I pulled away slowly. Or more like tried because as soon as I did, his hold on me tightened in iron like grip. It was funny actually, just a few minutes ago we expressed our hate for each other, but really it was our way of hating our world and ourselves.

"Sasuke, we have to go, class is just about to end, and you don't want them to find us like this, now don't you?"

My voice surprised me, it was so gentle and understanding, so not like myself.

"Hn, I don't care…I don't give a fuck what they think"

I guess Sasuke had other plans. But I could not help but laugh. It sounded so sincere and care free that I almost felt like a living being, not a shell I really am. And my laugh it made him pout like an angry child.

"What are you laughing at?"

And I just had to laugh at his angry pouty face. It was so cute that I couldn't stop myself.

"Why you wouldn't mind people seeing all high and mighty Uchiha Sasuke pouting like a little boy? I personally don't mind but your fan girls might smolder you even more…"

When I said the part about his fan girls he look truly terrified, but then he thought about something and smirked like a smug cat.

"Well then I guess I am lucky to have you as my girlfriend to protect me form all the girls…."

Before I even had time to report on his remark on the girlfriend thing, he swooped his head down, and clamed my lips with his, affectingly making my repot despair from my mind, more like make my mind go blank.

I was so shocked, I didn't know because he kissed me, or because his lips were so soft and his kiss was so gentle, like he cared truly about me.

But I caught on quickly and eagerly returned his kiss.

As the time moved the kiss grew more passionate and wild, our tongues battling for dominance, his hand on my butt pushing me up on the wall even more, my legs went on his waist automatically, while my arms were around his neck pulling his hair.

And just as we were turning into live fire the bell rang, signaling the end of our missed classes.

But before I can blink I was on my feet again, looking all messy and wild, looking confused out of my foggy mind. And the reason is because the jerk Sasuke has put me down, stopping all the activity HE started, and now was walking all too proudly to god know where, smirking is such triumph that made me hate him all over again.

"See you later babe…."

At that moment I knew I was screwed.

Because he is making me fall for him

We are two people living in such different universe

He has a bitch as a girlfriend

Yeah I'm dead…

OK done with another one, very happy with how I wrote it, a little disappointed that so little people read the previous chapter, but I hope this makes it better.

I hope I didn't over write it….hope you like it…review…

Love Shadowgirl :3