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Now without further adu, chapter 4 of Fade To Grey
I sat at my vanity staring at that invitation to my mom's wedding . She said I can bring whomever I want…but I know she really wants me to bring a date. I can see it in her face.
I've been wondering lately if she knows about me. She's been acting kind of weird.
You know, weirder then usual.
I really hope Bobby didn't say anything about what he saw the other night. It was really a stupid idea kissing Austin on my family's front porch. But it was our three week anniversary.
Flashback!
"Baby do you realize what today is?" Austin asked me.
"Our three week anniversary." I answered. Smile stretching from ear to ear. I swear Austin makes me happier then I have ever been.
"That's right." Austin said, cupping his hands gently at the small of my back, pulling me close to him and resting his forehead on mine.
"It's the three week anniversary of the day you made me the happiest guy in the world."
I blushed so hard. Austin is quite the charmer when he wants to be.
"Your getting very brave." I said. "Holding me like this on my porch, what if we get caught?"
"Say the word and I'll step back." Austin said, rubbing the small of my back with his very soft hands.
"Don't you dare move." I said. Austin chuckled.
"Kiss me." I whispered softly.
"Now who's the brave one?" Austin joked. I smiled.
"Please kiss me?" I begged, using my puppy dog face.
"A request I will happily oblige." Austin said, leaning into me. We kissed for about one minute before I felt a presence in the nxst room, and opened my eyes to see Bobby looking at us.
End of flashback
I remember Austin was very understanding about it. He spotted Bobby too and kissed me on the cheek before leaving, whispering 'Don't be afraid, I'm a phone call away.'
Luckily Bobby agreed not to tell a soul, I just hope he kept that promise.
Mark says I should just go ahead and invite Austin to the wedding. I could tell people he was just my best friend and just the fact that I know he's there for me could be enough.
But I don't want to lie about Austin, not anymore. I feel like it hurts him every time I step further into the closet, bringing him with me. I want to be able to proudly introduce him as my boyfriend to everyone I meet.
Aunt Betty and Bobby both said I should at least tell my mom. That she would understand and love me just the same as she always has.
Maybe I will tell her. I mean she's a hairstylist so she has met a lot of gay people and I've never heard her bash any of them. In fact, she says they're her best customers. Plus, she knows Mark is gay and has no problem that he's a friend of mine.
With a deep breath, I pick up the invitation and mark +1, writing Austin's name beside it.
"Justin?" Mom yelled from downstairs, "Can you come help me with something?"
I put the card in my back pocket and ran downstairs. She was standing at the bottom of the staircase, holding her dress together at the back.
"Sweetie can you zip me up?" She asked. "I have to meet with the florist for some last minute stuff for the wedding."
"No prob." I said, bouncing down the last remaining steps and zippering her up.
Then it hits me that this is the moment I need to tell her…so I go for it. I pulled out the R.S.V.P and hand it out for her.
"This is for you mom." I said.
"Justin I already know your coming to the wedding," she said taking the card and looking down at it for a moment. She saw the box I checked and looked back up at me.
"So your bring your friend Austin?" She asked.
Deep breath
"No." I said.
"But you wrote down his name Justin." She said, looking confused.
"I know but I'm not bringing my friend Austin. I'm bringing my boyfriend Austin... Mom, I'm gay."
There I said it. Its out. I'm out. She hates me, I just know it.
Then all of a sudden she's hugging me with all the force she's got.
"Oh sweetie I'm so proud of you."
"Wait what?" I said, pulling back. "Your not angry? I just told you I'm dating a boy. I just told you that I'm gay."
"Yes I understand that." Mom said laughing. I got even more confused.
"You don't hate me?"
"Hate you?" She asked shocked. "Justin I could never in a million years hate you. Especially for being something that you were born to be! You are my son and I love you. That never changes"
I was so happy I started to cry. She saw my tears and wiped them away.
"Besides," She said "That Austin is a cutie."
I giggled.
"Well I certainly think so." Mom laughed too, pulling me in for another hug.
"Well tell Austin I can't wait to see him at the wedding. And he better be sitting in the front row, seeing as he is the best man's boyfriend and all." I pulled back and kissed her cheek.
"I'll tell him." I said. Mom smiled and picked up her bag.
"Ok now I really do have to get to the florist."
"Go go." I said, ushering her out the door.
"I love you Justin." She called over her shoulder on the way out.
"Love you too mom." I called back before shutting the front door and leaning up against it.
I did it. I came out to my mom, my best friend and she still loved me.
Quick as a flash I pulled out my phone and punched in Austin's number.
"Hey baby." He answered.
"Hey yourself." I said back.
"I can hear you smiling over here, what got you in such a good mood?"
"Just picturing my boyfriend in the tux he's going to wear to my mom's wedding. Which by the way, she said you need to sit in the front row for. Seeing as me and you are a couple and all."
"You told her?" He asked, sounding ecstatic.
"Yes." I answered. "And I feel like celebrating with my wonderful boo."
"Do you want me to come over?" He asked timidly.
"Well the house is empty so… hell yes." I answered, smirking.
"I'm leaving right now."
"Ok see you soon baby." I purred.
"As soon as possible." He answered. I laughed and snapped my phone closed.
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