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Now I'm driving
Through the pitch black dark
I'm screaming at the sky
Oh cause it hurts so bad
Everybody tells me
Oh all I need is time
Then the morning rolls in
And it hits me again
And that isn't nothing' but a lie.
I woke up in the morning, not remembering anything. All I knew was that I loved Eli.
"Good morning, baby," I said smiling, waiting for a reply that wasn't coming, "Eli, you ok?"
I then looked down at myself. I was on the floor and my eyes were stinging. I touched my face and then realized I must have been crying.
Scared, I looked up at our bed and it was empty...
BAM!
It hit me.
BAM!
Eli was dead.
BAM!
He died in a car accident.
BAM!
I was alone... Forever...
I felt the tears come to my bloodshot eyes again and used all my strength to stand up. I looked out of my window and it was in fact, not morning. It was in fact, very dark outside.
I started walking weakly to my bathroom until I heard the house phone ring. I ran up to it, knowing it was Eli. It had to be. He told me he would never leave me, he promised! He said he would always love me! It had to be him!
"Eli, baby, is that you?" I said into the phone, waiting for his voice to emerge from the other line.
"Clare, honey, it's me." My mother said. "I didn't think you would be up. It's 2 a.m. I wanted to see how you were. I couldn't sleep and I thought it was my couscous telling me I needed to talk to you." She laughed, trying to lighten the mood. It didn't help though.
I was crying again. I looked at the phone in my hands and brought it back up to my ear.
"Mommy," I chocked, "I miss you so much. H-he's g-gone! I'm a-alone! He left me mom! I haven't slept in months! I'm loosing my sanity!"
That was a lie though; I had lost my sanity along time ago... I sobbed while my mother tried to soothe me from the other line.
"Sweetie, you just need some time... He's gone and you have to except that.". She was crying, I could hear it in her voice.
I was angry now. I didn't need time! I needed Eli! Now!
"That's nothing but a lie!" I screamed into the phone and slammed it down.
I stared at my hand on the table. The ring... The sparkly diamond ring...
And just like that, memories flooded back like a slap in the face.
We were outside on top of Morty, staring at the brilliant stars. Our legs were intertwined, along with our arms.
"I love you Eli." I sighed. He looked over into my eyes and smirked.
"See the stars?" he asked, and I nodded confused, "Sometimes, I come out here and give every star I see a reason why I love you.." He then sat up pulled me up with him.
He was nervous, I could tell. He grabbed my left hand to his lips and kissed my engagement finger which use to hold my purity ring. I had taken that off 7 months ago when I was finally ready.
He suddenly jump off the car, followed by me and bent down on one knee. I gasped
"Clare Diane Edwards," He began trembling, "Will you do the honor in being my wife?" He pulled out a huge diamond ring and looked into my eyes.
I screamed in joy and yelled yes a million times while he placed the ring on my finger.
"Forever. I will never leave you baby, I love you.". He kissed my lips softly while holding my waist.
I ignored the phone while it kept ringing and ran to the blank paper and envelopes. I sat down on the table and begin to write.
Dear Eli,
Remember when you said you would never leave me? You kissed me and you promiced. You said forever... Did you mean it?
You left. And now everyday I feel the empty hole in my heart that you left. I thought you loved me! Why did you leave? Why don't you visit it me in my dreams? Why do I never feel your presence? All I want is to hear your voice against my ears and your arms around my waist. Why can't you do that?
I love you Eli, I always will.
Sincerely,
Blue eyes.
I put the letter in the envelope and ran to my car. I got in and rammed down the driveway and to the post office.
Once I got there I put a box along with the letter in the box. This had become a habit of mine to write letters to him and once in awhile send him a picture of him and I.
As I put in the box, I remembered how I would usually cry when I did this. I was out of tears.
This time I left without crying or saying a word. I got back into my car and screamed with all of my might... I was insane
As I drove off, it was 5 a.m. now and I was going to the grave yard.
As I pulled up, I got out and walked slowly to his grave. When I reached it, I fell down and sobbed, even though no tears came out, and hugged the stone. I wiped off the snow that was on it to read what it said.
Elijah Goldsworthy
1993-2016
I began to cry until suddenly I felt I wasn't alone. But this time I knew it was him…
What do I do with all I need to say
So much I wanna tell you everyday
Oh it breaks my heart,
I cry these tears in the dark
I write these letters to you,
But they get lost in the blue,
'Cause there's no address in the stars.
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