Epov

what did I do?. i asked myself. How could I kiss bella I mean she's my best friend, sure I love her and I would love nothing more then to kiss her again and again but it cant happen. I'm not good enough for her.

" hey Edward I thought bella was going with us" alice asked.

"well she's not okay so get over it". What the hell don't make it obvious.

" jeez who put the stick up your ass Edward" she said. I just rolled my eyes because I was more concerned on what bella was thinking. I mean she kissed me back that had to count for something right?. NO I yelled my self.

I pulled into the parking lot and searched for her red truck but to my disappointment it wasn't there.

" hey eddie" I heard a nasal voice. Of course it was Tanya. I looked away really I am getting sick of this girl.

" hello Tanya, nice to see you" and that's when I heard her truck. I looked up and saw my bella get out of her truck. Wait what the hell shes not your bella. Pull your self together for god sakes your Edward Cullen every girls dream man.

I saw bella walking this way and decided to hide so I bent down and kissed Tanya. While I was kissing her I looked up and saw bella. She had something in her eyes, it looked like pain. I pulled away from Tanya.

" I have to go now" I sad and with that I left. What was I going to do. I had English and bio with bella and then there's lunch.

I went to my locker and then went to my first class. I walked in and saw bella. I stoped and took a deep breath and when to sit next to her.

" bella, we need to talk". She looked up and I could see hurt and pain in her eyes and I wondered why.

Bpov

I walked to my locker grabbed my book and then headed to English. I couldn't focus on my book because I kept thinking about Edward and how he hurt me. I cant believe that he has this hold on me.

"bella, we need to talk" I froze. Damn I forgot I had this class with him. Might as well get this over with I thought. Looked up

" okkkayyyy" I said

" first I wanted to say im sorry I shouldn't have kissed you and just forget it ever happened okay I don't want this to ruin our friendship okay" he said.

I knew it he regretted the kiss. I was just something to pass the time. Oh well.

"no its okay I totally understand. Don't worry about it" I sighed " besides its not like it ment anything. Its just something that happened so lets just forget it okay". It hurt to say those words but I knew they needed to be said.

" thanks so much bella." Then he paused " you know I love you, you're the best friend anyone could have" I smiled weakly

" yea I know" we didn't get a chance to finish talking because the teacher started the lesson.

Before I new it was lunch. I wasn't really hungry. So I just went and sat at our table. Soon I was joined by Emmett and rose.

" hey bells you ok" someone asked but I wasn't paying attention. "hello earth to bella" I looked up

"oh sorry jasper" jasper was roses twin brother and alices boyfriend.

" whats up you seem distracted and why aren't you eating anything" he asked and I know he was worried. Jasper was like another brother to me.

" oh umm" I just looked down.

" hey guys what up" I looked up and it was Edward.

" bella you didn't answer my question" I looked up at jasper

"oh ummm I'm not feeling very good" I admitted. By then everyone was at the table.

" do you want me to take you home" he asked

"ummm i…" but I didn't get to finish. I was interrupted by a nasal lauren. She jumped into his lap.

" hey eddikens" I looked at Edward.

" you know what thanks but no thanks Edward" I decided to go home but I didn't want him with me right now.

" hey em I'm gonna go home. I'm really not feeling that good" I said as I started getting up.

" hey let me take you him" he said

"NO" I yelled they all just looked at me. quick think of something bella. " ummm I don't want you to leave school because of me" I said

"please bella you're my baby sis. I don't mind" I rolled my eyes

" I thought she'd never leave you eddie. I think she likes you but your mine" I heard lauren say

That was it I turned around. " what the fuck lauren if you have something to say, say it to my fucking face bitch." I yelled everyone just looked at me.

" please like I need to waste my time on some little slut that cant take care of her self." She looked at me and smirked.

That bitch did not just go there did she what the hell is her problem.

" bella just leave it she's not worth it" alice said

" bella don't give that skank the satisfaction" rose said I just looked at them.

" yea bella just go that way me and your "friends" can talk about you and so eddiekins her doesn't have to pretend that he likes you" he said with this grin on her face. That was all that needed to be said.

" you know what lauren" Edward started. But I didn't let him finish.

"no you listen to me lauren" I started full of anger. " sure I may not be perfect but neither are you and at least I can admit it. And you know what else at least I don't need a fucking man- whore or a man at all to prove that I'm worth something and to prove that someone love me. do you know why… because im not and ugly two-faced skanky bitch." I yelled and with that she got of Edward lap and ran away crying.

Everyone just sat there gasping. Emmett was the first to speak

" way to go bella" Emmett said I just looked at him and glared.

" bella what the hell was that" Edward yelled. I looked at him and then realized that I had called him a man- whore. The tears stung my eyes.

" I'm sorry Edward" and I looked down I saw him get up and come towards me. I looked him in the eyes.

"NO" I yelled " I ummm….." I stalled " I have to go" and then I ran out of the school. I just couldn't deal with this. I ran to my truck and me being the klutz I tripped.

"bella come back here" Edward yelled. I jumped in my truck and drove home. Once I got inside the house I ran up into my room and collapsed on my bed. She was right edward doesn't care about me. I mean this morning he kissed me and then he wanted to forget the kiss. Like it never even happened. After laying on my bed for so long I decided to go out on my balcony. About ten minutes later I saw Edwards Volvo pull up. The first out of the car was alice.

" bella" she yelled up at me. I smiled weakly.I really hated how the two balcony's were in view of each others drive ways. Then edward got out of the car. He slammed the door.

" Bella really. What the hell" he yelled. I just turned back around and went back into my room and lock the door. I went and put my head phones on and turned whatever cd I had in and turned the volume up all the way..

All of a sudden someone was shaking me. I opened my eyes to find a very pissed off edward in my room.

" what the hell" I asked " how did you get in here I locked the damn door" I said. He dangled a set of keys in front of my face. My face went pail.

" how did you get those" I asked

He smirked and raised his eyebrows " you gave it to me don't you remember" he asked.

" ummm no" I said

" bella what was your problem today" I just looked down

"I don't know she just pushed me to my limit so I just blew up". I was expecting him to yell but instead he just came up and hugged me.

" my bells is growing up" he wiped a fake tear away. I hit him

" ow that hurt" I scoffed

"yea right" I said

He laughed " hey im gonna go home but I'll be back in a few ok" I just nodded my head. Just when I sat down the phone rang.

" what the hell" I yelled. I answered the phone.

" hello" I said

" hey bella its James" . oh god just what I need this guy does not leave me alone he seems to think that I secreatly like him and that I want to go out with him. He just won't take no for an answer.

" hi James what's up"

"well I have something to tell you and its has to do with edward." I froze

"okay so tell me" I said

"well we were in the locker room and he said" he started