I thought I was dead until I came round in the hospital. Sam, Mr Mead and Mrs Fisher were sat there keeping an anxious wait to see if I ever woke up.
"Doctor, she's awake." Mr Mead yelled for the doctor. He came into my room immediately. He checked me over before telling me how lucky I was. Lucky? I certainly didn't feel it.
I really didn't want an audience right now, so I tried turning on my other side. "Ow!" I muttered before Mr Mead explained that I couldn't turn on that side. I could feel the anger inside and as our eyes met, I told him what I thought of him.
"You! You had no right! Why? Why did you call an ambulance? I wanted to die!"
"You don't deserve to die Hannah. Your sister will be looking down on you, she'll be happy at how strong you are. Your sister died before she had chance to experience life. You, you can do that."
I screamed. Didn't he realise that I had nothing left to live for? I started pulling out the wires that connected me to the equipment. "Why don't you all just leave me alone?"
"Is that what you want?" He asked me and I looked down at the bed. I didn't want to be alone because loneliness sucked but right now I didn't want an audience, "I only want Sam."
Mr Mead and Mrs Fisher had a conversation and they left Sam and me alone. They were just outside the room; I wish I could get rid of them completely. We were just talking, Sam telling me how much of a fright I had given her and I realised I felt guilty for putting her in that position. I squeezed her hand to apologize when the Doctor walked in with two people I didn't want to see.
"Shame!" I heard it. I heard him. It didn't take a genius to work out what he meant. Shame I hadn't done a proper job of killing myself.
"You should have done a better job." My mother replied before she turned to walk back out the door. I couldn't get over the hatred and coldness in her eyes. Surely she didn't mean that?
"Mum, I love –"
"You killed my baby! I'll never forgive you!" I screamed. I begged for her forgiveness but she didn't. She couldn't accept me back. She'd been through so much pain with my sister I wondered why she was doing this to me. Didn't she realise I was suffering two?