HAPPY VALENTINES DAY Love's :D I know some of you might groan *God why do we have to have this holiday, no one loves me* but I love you so that's bullshit (sorry…bull dust) XD So you are loved, so start enjoying this holiday :D

This is dedicated, as always to my lovely girl LeShea, where ever you are mate, I wish you a great Valentines day. A safe Valentines day.

And PLEASE STOP MAKING ME BEG! :D Go read thatgirl_65's stories. She's a Cholive writer but you know Chenzel? Well she writes that too. But just…love her. Please? She's so good. And needs friends and love too :D)

I love you all. Enjoy chapter 6 of A Dear Life…

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Chapter 6:

Elphaba's POV:

It had been months! Well, it seemed like months. More like weeks since we've talked. I admit it's my fault.. I had received a reply from Galinda a couple of weeks ago out of the blue. She had been gone for a while and I'd not heard from her for a week. But when she returned she seemed really apologetic. Upset that she'd caused me some confusion and loss at her sudden disappearance. And I'd felt my worries lighten and myself actually smile. I'd yet to understand the spell this girl had placed on me from such a far distance away, but it was strong, whatever it was. And yet…I had run in fear and not replied back. I tried to deny my actions, tried to make it sound like I wasn't being the afraid girl I really was, but in the end I'd lost to my own thoughts, and admitted defeat amongst my emotions. I was tragically, and scarily, crushing on a girl whom I'd yet to meet, yet to see. I was in trouble. And when I'd heard those words at the end of her Ozmail, I'd panicked and turned away.

'All my love'

Those words still haunted my mind, still echoed around the empty corridors that used to once be full of important academic ideas. And my computer seemed to scream at me from across the room. That small black laptop that seemed to shine the reflection of the setting sun on another week of no contact. And that infamous guilt I've been living with since she'd fallen ill, that sickening notion sitting heavy in my stomach, seemed to be stronger and stronger every day. Growing off the lack of communication as if it were fuel to a fire. I knew I'd have to pluck up the courage to speak to her again. It was inevitable. The real question though, was would she forgive my absence? The answer to that question prolonged my return which sadly slowly destroyed the chances of that answer being a no. It was a sick cycle that I couldn't seem to remove myself from. A sick cycle I seemed to thrive in. And one I wanted to escape with all my might, but as hard as I tried…I kept getting pulled back in. Until, one day, I just stopped trying.

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Galinda's POV:

I've done something wrong. Oh Oz, I know I've done something wrong though, for the life of me, I can't figure out what. She's just disappeared and I don't know where too. I hope she's alright, I hope she's not hurt. Oh Oz, what if she's gone and been attacked and now I'll never hear from her again. What if she's been hurt and is left alone with no one to help her! Oh Oz.

I knew I was being a little ridiculous, but the thoughts wouldn't stop flowing through my mind. And the one that seemed to just hover continuously was 'What have I done?' I scanned every one of our messages to each other, noting the almost intense, dramatic change in Elphaba's personality. From Bitchy to sympathetic and apologetic in almost a day. The change should have been scary but it wasn't. It was endearing, and I knew that this crush was strongly influencing my thoughts of her.

I read over my final Ozmail to her, the one that seemed to end our conversations. What was it? And then my eyes landed on the final sentence. 'All my love' and it clicked. My mind had not been in control of my hands that day and unknowingly I had typed my feelings before thinking. And now she knew. Now she knew I felt something more for her than I should. She's run away from me. I couldn't believe what I'd done. I'd lost a friend in the throes of my sudden weird and intense desires. Damn it Galinda! Stupid girl. Stupid, stupid, stupid…wait. My internal 'head banging against a desk' ceased as an idea formed. Why was I sitting here, waiting for her to Ozmail me? Why didn't I just write to her? Of course! Oz sakes am I such an idiot. I practically shook in anticipation of writing a letter to her. I want to say I'd ran to the computer, no matter how bad that may sound, but to be honest I was already sitting there, staring forlornly at the screen, waiting for a message to tell me she'd written to me. But every time a notice would appear and my heart would begin to race, it turned out to not be her. And disappointment seemed to live within my heart constantly now.

Shaking these thoughts from my mind, I opened a new Ozmail page and hastily addressed it to Elphaba before I even thought about what I was going to say. And then I realized…I didn't know. I was stuck, a blank page with nothing but Elphaba's name on the top. What was I going to say? What should I say? Was she expecting an apology?

Once again my fingers seemed to be moving before my mind could think of what to say and without seeing, I was typing a letter to the girl I'd thought of for so long.

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Elphaba's POV:

I had gotten as far as to actually turn my laptop back on. I had convinced myself that it was time to stop running. I had to talk to her. I know I did. But when I'd turned on my laptop, I'd lost my nerve. The empty Ozbox told me she'd yet to Ozmail me and I felt heartbroken. I don't know why I mean, it wasn't like I deserved her to reply back. It wasn't like she should be sitting there, waiting for me to Ozmail her and then, when I didn't, she send me one instead. Yet…I still ached and in defeat I turned away from my laptop and decided to study instead, even though I'd finished all my work and had already read ahead by two chapters. Except…I couldn't concentrate. There was a repetitive noise. What on Oz was that? You've…ail…you've…ail…you've ot ail… Wait…You've got mail! Oh…my…Oz.

Swinging around fast towards the computer there was a flashing light and one boldly highlighted notice in my Ozbox.

Elphie: Galinda Upland sent 1:20pm Sat 14 Feb 2010

My heart seemed to either stop beating, or began beating so fast I couldn't feel it and my head went light. She'd replied. She's sent me an Ozmail even though I couldn't find the courage to do it. And only now did I notice the date. Valentines day. It was Valentines day. Now I was more guilty, if that was even possible. I hope she was ok.

And yet…I couldn't find the courage to open the Ozmail. I couldn't seem to breath. I needed to just shut my eyes and click. I could do this.

My fingers trembled as I reached out to the mouse and then took a deep breath and clicked.

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'Dearest Elphie,

I don't know what to say, I don't know how to say it. There's been some confusion I'm sure. I know you might be running from me, I know you might be trying to forget me but I can't let that happen Elphaba and I won't let you slip away. We've both tried so hard to get this relationship to pick up from the rocks it once lay on, and I won't let it now fall back onto those rocks. So please, please, listen to me.

It's been a long time Elphaba, but by now you should have realized that this 'assignment' no longer is an assignment for me. This is friendship, something I've needed for so long, yet have never quite had. And now I'm afraid I've made a tragic error. I've gone and said something neither of us were quite ready for were we? I said a word that should have meant nothing yet to both of us, caused a large amount of distress. Love. Now Elphie, I'm sorry. I shouldn't of said it. I worry about you, I love you, but as a friend. I want nothing but the best for you, as a friend. Please…please come back to me. I miss you Elphie. I miss you even though there shouldn't be anything to miss.

I've been seeing a counselor recently about a crush I have on this girl. I know, it's weird right. Probably disgusting to you, but I told you because I trust you. I trust you to not judge me by my love for someone who is the same as me. I don't know how to tell this girl and I'm afraid she'll never love me. My counselor told me though, that being out of touch with you, makes my life harder still and I do need you back Elphie. Please. I miss you.

I'm also so sorry. I'm so sorry I've not done this sooner. I'm so sorry you've been this lost and I've turned a blind eye. I won't do it again Elphaba I promise you. I will do anything it takes to make you see that. I really do miss you.

Lastly, Happy Valentines day Elphie. I want you to feel loved, and wanted. I love you Elphie. Really I do. I wish you the best day you can have. And I hope you are safe and well.

Please, come back.

All my love still

Galinda

Xoxo'

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I was shocked. She'd blamed herself. And…it wasn't a crush on me. She didn't love me, it was someone else. Someone ELSE! My fist came down hard on the table, but that wasn't enough. Anger surged through me as the images of Galinda (who was blonde with blue eyes, a gorgeous smile and red lips in my mind), entangled in the embrace of some unknown girl. I stood, throwing her chair into a wall, and I just managed to remove the urge of the laptop joining the chair. I was so furious I was crying. And I didn't care. The tears that burnt me…I didn't care. The fact I was aching over a girl I'd never met…I didn't care. All I cared about was the fact that I knew there were feelings for Galinda. And that was all in vain.

The fact I wanted a girl I'd never met…

I cared

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Galinda's POV:

I sat at the computer desk for hours, just staring at the screen. Waiting for the response I knew was coming. I could feel it. She would reply to me. I averted my eyes for a second to check the clock. A ritual I'd begun and had maintained since the second after I'd sent the message. It was now exactly 12:30am meaning I had sat here for 11 hours and ten minutes. And I still didn't move. I would sit here all night…all day until I saw her reply. Though I didn't need to wait much longer.

As my eyes scanned back to the screen I noticed a bold message in my Ozbox and my heart sped up. She'd replied. Hastily clicking the message it opened to reveal the message Elphaba had sent me. Her distinctive green letters making me smile for the first time in weeks.

'Happy Valentines day my sweet. I love you too.'

It was short, it was almost too short but my heart melted and I almost fell off the desk chair in joy. I know I'd lied to her, told her I loved someone else but it was for the best. I was sure it was. And it didn't matter right now. So far this had been the best Valentines day I'd ever had.

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There we go lovely friends. This is my Valentines special for you all. I purposely didn't update sooner because I wanted to give you all a Valentines day special post. I hope you have a day surrounded by love. No matter whether or not you've got a love or friends…Valentines day means you're wanted no matter by who. :D And I want you all :D You're such lovely people

Stay safe

Grumbello