Ladies and Gentlemen, boys and girls, friends and family…alright let's be realistic…
Friends, thank you for your very patient wait. I've had promising reviews on this story. God only knows why :P But I am actually starting to enjoy these chapters. I know they're so distant in between. But that's because each one has a bit of me in it, and I need to restore the parts of me that go into these stories. If I just kept writing there'd be nothing left of me. :P Maybe not such a bad thing XD
Anyway, enjoy this Chapter friends. I, once again, write it for my special friend LeShea. May she be safe and happy.
The song in this is an Original Grumbello work. So don't flame the song too much. I did my best. I wrote what I believed would be in my heart if I was Elphaba…if my girl wasn't mine. So enjoy
Stay safe friends
Grumbello
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Chapter 7:
Elphaba's POV:
The ordeal between the girls had been long over, Elphaba and Galinda had forgiven one another for the lack of contact they had undergone as a result of Galinda offering those three simple words, 'All my love' and both Galinda and Elphaba had long since forgotten the pain of denying their attraction for one another. Well…
Almost
Elphaba had forced the painful moment back into the darkest corners of her mind the moment Galinda had told her she was crushing on another person. Some lucky, teenage girl. Some childish git who couldn't treat Galinda the way she deserved.
'Oh and you could Elphaba? You would have been better?'
'I know I would have been' Elphaba growled to herself. 'I KNOW' And with that her anger flared again, like it had that eventful day. She had almost thrown her laptop at the wall in her anger and it still remained a likely target. She was livid. And as hard as she tried, she could not ignore this painful fact. She was unable to ignore it. Her computer chair met her wall in passionate fury, then her text books, her folders, her soft toy she found as a child, everything that was unfortunate to pass her way met the wall with a hollow thud. Each thud resonating in her heart. Elphaba never cried, but she was crying now, heart wrenching sobs. She'd lost the only person who ever understood the real her, liked her for who she was not what she looked like. Oh how stupid she was to let this wonderful girl slip through her fingers.
They had agreed to send photo's of each other but Elphaba had yet to even find one suitable enough. She was scared, though she wouldn't admit it. She'd never told Galinda about her…well…colour clash. Someone like Galinda would never stay friends with a green freak who clashed with almost every colour and clothes. Galinda was a fashion idol…what fashion idol would go out with a walking closet clash? None, and certainly not Galinda Upland.
She was still panting from her sudden outburst when she realised that she was feeling braver than ever at this moment, her anger serving as a sort of strength. Rummaging through her photo files on her laptop she found a photo that had been taken for a comparison profile that she had done for her health and human essay. It showed Elphaba smiling, her hair, flowing and black across her face, her eyes shone with amusement. She had taken this photo imagining the looks on her classmates faces when her green face popped up amongst all the others. It had…amused her greatly.
With a strong urge she could not ignore, Elphaba attached the file to an email she had typed out a long time ago and without leaving time for second guessing, she pressed send.
'Galinda Upland…ready or not, here I come.'
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Galinda's POV:
We had agreed to send photo's. WHY?
'Because you wanted something to obsess over. You were crushing on her for her mind, her attitude and now you want something to actually fawn at whilst you're gushing over her mind and attitude'
Her little voice snickered at her cruelly. She didn't need to be told how much she had been fawning over her pen pal. It was blatantly obvious when she had been daydreaming in class only to awaken to find 'Elphaba and Galinda' in pen all over her book, and all over her hand…
And all over her desk…
Ok, she was obsessed.
'Obsessed? Sweetheart, even obsessed is too kind' Galinda frowned, she really didn't like her inner voice.
You've got mail
Without thinking, Galinda turned to her computer screen (oddly enough with 'Elphaba and Galinda' written across it) and opened her mail screen. The first thing Galinda saw was the email with a little paper clip up the corner of the screen. Elphaba had sent her picture. Galinda felt her stomach drop. Here it goes…the moment she had been stressing over, fearing…longing for.
'Read the letter first Galinda. Maybe you can calm down before you finally see her.'
Ok, she didn't like her inner voice but it certainly helped her figure things out. '
'Dear Galinda…my sweet,
I can not tell you how happy I am that you are feeling better, and have taken the time to include me in your new life with this new person whom you've told me everything about. She sounds special Lyndie. I'm happy for you.
I've found this picture of me, I hope you like it. But I think I should warn you first. I'm not what you're expecting. I know a girl like you would be horrified by what she's about to see. But please, if you're going to hate me, give me at least one more chance to hear from you. Ozmail me one last time. Let me see you before you leave me forever.
I am…not like anyone else. Just remember the girl you knew before you saw me. I hope I don't lose the only person who means the world to me.
I love you my Lyndie
With all my heart.
Elphie
Xoxox'
Galinda felt confusion, and a form of resentment. Why would she hate her Elphie? Surely she wasn't that ugly. Curiosity more than anything else spurred Galinda to click on the paper clip, her mind ignoring the endearing words her Elphaba had written for the time being.
What she saw made her gasp.
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Elphaba's POV:
She hated her. Oz, she knew it. Galinda would hate her. She would see the loving words Elphaba had sent, see the picture and run. It was inevitable. Hell…she'd run if she wasn't so used to it by now. But then her worrying was put on hold when a beeping sound came from her laptop. This was it, this was the moment Elphaba had both feared and longed for. This would be the denial she knew was coming. Galinda will say 'thanks but no thanks' and be done with her. The girl she truly cared about, will be forever gone after this.
With shaky hands, a big breath and tears threatening to spill, Elphaba opened the email.
And gasped at what she saw.
Staring back at her was the clearest, bluest eyes she had ever seen, they shone with amusement which highlighted the big smile that were lined with natural pink lips. Elphaba's gaze travelled along the smooth, long neck before hitting golden curls atop the girls head. Galinda Upland sat there staring back at her…stunning. The tears came, she had received her wish, Galinda had shown her the prize before snatching it out of her hands.
There was text beneath the photo. Just a single line, nothing more. It read.
'You're beautiful, truly beautiful. You are my perfect Elphie'
'My perfect Elphie?' 'My?' Elphaba was stunned. 'Did she say my?'
Wait 'Perfect?'
Did that mean anything? Did it mean she shared the same feelings? No, she couldn't. She's with that other girl. Hope and then despair flashed through Elphaba quickly. But it did mean Galinda didn't hate her, it did mean she got to keep this rare beauty. Even if her love for her had to remain forever silent. Though it hurt her. Knowing Galinda was with a girl who couldn't possibly treat her with the same love she could give her.
The anger and upset that raged through Elphaba was pure and passionate. She felt she could only express herself through the most natural means she had. Singing.
Elphaba had always sung as a child, it was her way of communication, her way of expression and it always calmed her the most. Words seemed inefficient at a young age, and even now words never seemed to express exactly how she was feeling.
Sitting down at her laptop, Elphaba opened a new document page and began to type.
As every other song she started with, it took days, weeks, months to perfect. But within a couple of days she had a rough song. One she sang every time Galinda entered her mind.
Enough of playing games
You don't even know the name
Of the person who's making my heart break in two
Do you understand the pain
Make a point of living fame
When you own every bit of me too?
And the saddest part
Is you'll never know
my heart beats only for you
I could never tell
How I felt
I've only ever belonged to you
It isn't fair!
Why should share you with those who don't treat you right?
I shouldn't care…
Shouldn't care about you
Though I do
And I lose sleep at night.
I'm losing control…
Is she sweet and kind?
Does she speak her mind?
Do you feel like you're walking on a cloud?
Does she turn your smile
Would you walk a mile
For everything she would do?
Did you see, her, name
In the stars, aflame
Did you walk, through the gardens for two?
Does she feel for you
Does she treat you
like I do
It isn't fair!
Why should share you with those who don't treat you right?
I shouldn't care…
Shouldn't care about you
Though I do
And I lose sleep at night.
I'm losing control…
Doesn't matter anymore
You've evened out the score.
My heart has to be broken, to mend.
I trust in you
In all you do
And maybe soon,
I can learn to forget.
It isn't FAIR…
Don't you dare let me cry
I've always cared…
Though I shouldn't and I know it' s not right
To feel for you
Even though it's all I do
And the only thing I can say…
Is I wish you luck, my girl
I wish you love, my girl
I wish you peace, and happiness too.
Even though mine leaves with you.
I'll be here for you, when you need me too
I'm losing control…
The passion in Elphaba's voice as she sang rang through her heart and every time she sang this song, her heart would clench painfully. She believed every word. And the sad part was that Galinda would never know. Her Lyndie could never find out how badly she hated this other girl, how much she wanted to be where she was. She wanted to tell her how the distance upset her, how much she wanted to bridge that gap. And most of all, Elphaba wanted to tell Galinda how much she was losing control.
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Galinda's POV:
Elphaba was gorgeous. The green skin had been a shock at first, yes, but the dark, emotional eyes, the raven hair flowing suggestively over her face and shoulders the thin jaw line…all of it added to Elphaba's intense beauty but nothing more so than the words she had uttered. 'I love you, with all my heart'. And Galinda saw this girl was so beautiful inside and out. She couldn't form a proper response. It was too hard…her head and heart were drowning each other out.
She sent her own picture, hoping Elphaba liked her. And with no idea what to say Galinda found herself saying what she felt in her heart.
'You're beautiful, truly beautiful. You are my perfect Elphie'
And she meant it. And with a shuddering breath Galinda realised she was, very quickly, losing control.
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So? Was the song really terrible? Ok, I said no flames but that doesn't mean you don't have to be honest. Just be a kind honest. You know…that was good but…maybe you should never try and write a song again. :P
I am proud of this chapter. Mainly because I think Elphaba's heart breaking is rather intense moment. I wanted to capture that moment…make you, as my readers, feel the pain she might be experiencing. I hope none of you have undergone this pain, I know I have. But if you have, I wanted you to reflect back on how you felt and try an empathise with Elphaba. God knows she needs it :P
Alright. I'm gonna go now.
You all stay safe my wonderful friends
Grumbello
xoxox