First off, I am so sorry I haven't updated in forever, I've been having so much school…..I feel like the worst, man I swear I'm the worst = (I'm really sorry I suck at updating) And secondly, MERRY CHRISTMAS! I hope you guys all have a wonder Christmas and this is my gifted to you! If any of you want to know what Jasper/Bella story I'm reading right now is, here it is, it's called Beautiful Rescue by ry123red, it's so cute and I can't get enough of it! So if you want to read go ahead and tell her I sent you! Oh and if you think I hate Alice and Edward because of this story, I don't because I still love them so much!
Well here's the story!
School was a bore all day, I mean can't they make it so it fun. If they make you go to school for so many hours a day and just bore you to death, what is life suppose to be like? So wrong, I shake my head. Right now I'm sitting outside the school waiting for Alice and Rose to come so we can go to the guy's games.
"Bella!" I look at the school door, Alice and Rose run over to me and Alice jumps at me giving me a hug.
"Ugh, hi Alice." I say trying to breathe.
"Ready to go?" Rose asks me.
"Yep." I reply. I jump up from where I'm sitting and Alice jumps on my back. "What are you doing?" I ask her.
"My feet hurt carry me." She moans.
"Fine but I'm the one who almost got hit by a car." I start walking with her on my back, Rose laughs. We walk to the field and up to our seat and sat down. People started to fill up the place, soon after Jasper and the team run out of the gym rooms onto the field.
The crowd jumps to their feet and starts to yell and clap. Alice is going crazy next to me saying Edwards name so loud I move a little farther from her, so that I will have my hearing left at the end of the night.
The game has been going pretty well, Jasper has made five touchdowns for the team and other players have made some to. The score right now is 40-32 the other team is winning.
It is the last half and the team has been trying to get a touchdown but this stupid guy keeps knocking Jasper to the ground. I start getting mad, because it really looks like it hurts.
They get ready for another play, Jasper takes the ball and tricks everyone and starts to run, everyone on the bleachers gets run and starts yelling for Jasper to make it, I look over at the clock and theirs five seconds left. Jasper is running so fast that I'm sure no one can get him and there is a guy on his trail, he starts running even faster…I start to bit my finger nails freak out, I really hope he makes it.
And…
Touchdown!
Alice, Rose, and I scream we hug each other happy. I look back at the flied ready to go hug Jasper, until a blond girl goes running in his arms and kisses him. I sit there shocked, I watch as he kisses her back.
Jasper had a girlfriend the whole time and he forgot to tell me all the while he hugged me, is he a player? The emotions going through my body are so overwhelming; I stand up and run down the bleachers out to the front of school. I hear Alice and Rose calling after me; I just keep walking fighting against the pain of my legs. I sit down on a bench trying to collect myself.
I can't believe I liked him in the first place; he is just a liar why would he do this to me, lead me on like he likes me I don't understand him at all and I really don't want to get to know him.
I put my face in my hands, trying not to get too worked up by the thought of Jasper.
Alice comes over to me, a few feet behind her is Rose trying to catch up with her.
"Bella, sweetie what's wrong?" Rose calls before Alice can say anything.
"Oh nothing, I got tired of the yelling?" I don't know what I'm saying; I just don't want them to know I like their brother.
"Are you sure that's it?" Alice asks knowing that I'm lying.
"Of course, can we go get some clothes from my house before we go to yours?" I ask them, I really want to get out of here, oh man I'll see Jasper at his house, I'm not sure if I can handle that.
"Bella!" Speak of the devil.
I look over to my left to see Jasper running over to me. Why me!
"I was looking for you after the game and I couldn't find you." I could tell on his face that he knows I saw that blond girl kissing him. He looks at his sister not wanting to talk to me in front of them. They look at each other clearly understanding his look.
"We'll leave you two alone." They both say.
"No, I really want to go." I start walking after them.
"Bella I really want to talk to you." I look at him trying not to glare.
"I don't want to talk to you; there is nothing to talk about in the first place." Alice and Rose share a look, they probably know were fighting.
"Please Bella." Jasper pleads with me.
"No, I need to go. Bye." I grab Alice and Rose's hands and walking off. Alice lets go of me and walks over to Jasper.
"She will be over at the house so you will see her later." She whispers a little loud. I think she wanted me to know that she told him this.
"I'm really tired Alice I might not sleep over." I tell her, walking away.
"What!" I hear her scream.
I know she will never let me ditch the sleepover she had planned for us, even if I was really tired I know she would make me come. I guess I will just have to grow up and get past the pain. Heck, I don't even know what I saw in Jasper in the first place, he is a jerk and he has an ego…Yep, that's right keep telling yourself that Bella!
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(Bella's house)
Alice, Rose, and I packed my bag, or should I say Alice packed my bag. I really don't want to go to their house.
"Bella you are going to have fun no matter what Jasper did!" She yells at me stuffing another shirt into my backpack.
"Alice why are you packing so much? It's not like I'm staying for the whole weekend." I swear she's putting my whole closet in that bag.
"Yes, you are Bella, Charlie already said yes after I asked him." I look at her shocked, you think she would at least ask me how I feel about that, but no she thinks she can think for me.
"Alice, Agh! I already said I don't want to go and now you're telling me I have to stay for the weekend. Well, fine but I'm not going to be the littlest happy about it!" Alice and Rose walks out my door, I follow them and slam my door.
"Isabella Marie Swan!" I hear my dad yell at me for making that loud noise. I flinch.
"Sorry!"
"Bella why are you PMSing?" Rose asks me when we get down the stairs. I'm not going to tell her that I'm upset and heart broken by what her brother did, I don't know her that well to spill my pain.
I feel bad because I'm taking it out on them when I shouldn't be, they have been nicer to me these past few weeks then anyone has been yet and I am totally grateful to them for that.
I gaze over at them feeling ashamed. "I'm sorry guys…I really don't mean to be rude, I'm just a little upset about something and I guess I'm taking it out on you when I shouldn't be. Will you forgive me?" I ask them truly sorry at my actions. They look back at me.
"Of course we forgive you!" Alice says hugging me.
"Yeah we forgive you!" Rose says. "Do you want to talk about what's bugging you honey?"
"Bye Bells enjoy your time." Charlie says from behind us, I give Rose and Alice a look saying I don't want to talk about it in front of him. They nod agreeing.
I walk over to Charlie and he puts an awkward arm around my shoulder and kissing my forehead. We're not the types to being showing lovey-dovey emotions. He steps away from me and smiles at Rose and Alice. "See you girls later!"
"Bye Charlie!" They say at the same times, Rose opens the door and we walk out to Alice's yellow Porsche. I still can't believe she has a car like this. I mean I knew the Cullen's have money put I didn't know they had that much. I swear everyone of their kids have a car; I wish I had a nice car like that. But I would never trade my red ford pick-up for anything.
When we get in the car Rose turns around in her seat. "What's going on with you Bells?" She asks concern.
I look down trying to tell them about Jasper without sounding like a love struck puppy.
"It's just…Jasper has been leading me on okay, and I don't know what to do." I tell them trying not to get too worked up. Rose reaches back and grabs my hand.
"Bella, do you like Jasper?" I look up, do I? I mean I think I might, he is sweet and is always there for me, but he has a girl friend and never told me. SO no I don't think I want to like him he is a jerk.
"No, he is a jerk!" They look at me knowing I'm lying. "Okay I do, but he was acting like maybe he liked me too, but when I saw that…girl hug him I knew he was a jerk." I put my face in my hands. "But I still like him when I don't want to." I totally feel like crying but I will not cry over Jasper, why waste the tears on that jerk?
"Bella, don't go jumping to those thoughts, I know my brother and he would never do something like this. I think you should talk to him." Rose tells me.
"Yeah Jasper isn't that kind of guy." Alice says, I nod agreeing I will try talking to him, I never said I was going to be nice.
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(The Cullen's house, two hours after Bella, Alice and Rose get home.)
"Bella you have to talk to him." Alice and Rose told me; right now I was standing in front of Alice's door trying to keep Jasper from coming in. I looked over at Rose and Alice who are sitting on the bed. I shake my head.
"Bella please, I want to talk to you." Jasper says from the other side of the door. We have been sitting like this for the last ten minutes, I put my hand up against the door trying to feel him standing there but it's not possible. I put my forehead against the door, I know I'm acting like a baby but I don't want to get hurt. I've been hurt before and I'm not going to let that happen again. Right now I feel hurt and if I let Jasper in I know that the pain with hurt so badly that I won't be able to breathe.
"Bella, please don't do this to me. I don't even know what's wrong." I can hear the pain in his voice, yeah sure you don't. Rose comes up behind me and puts her hand on my shoulder.
"Bella the only way for you to get past this is by talking to him, that's the only way. Go out there and talk to him, we will be here when you get back and if you don't want to stay here any longer we'll take you home, but you need to talk to him. I know my brother and I'm sure he is in a lot of pain." I turn to look at her, I know I have to face him some time, but I'm a coward and I'm scared with what will happen. I don't know how to face him, how to look in his eyes when he says sorry for leading me on to think he didn't have a girlfriend in the first place.
I know I'm being dramatic and I'm acting like a baby, but I have a right. I'm not going to sit around and think I have a chance with Jasper when he has a girlfriend and doesn't even tell me.
But I'm going to go and talk to him, tell him he hurt me. I'm going to tell him I want nothing to do with him; I'm just going to go. I turn away from Rose and open the door.
"I'll be right back." When the doors open Jaspers standing there with a pained look on his face, I kind of feel sorry for him. I feel like I need to hug him just to get that look off his face, but I hold myself back. He did this to himself, he caused himself pain, I didn't.
"Bella." He says breathless.
"Jasper you have ten minutes and that's it." I tell him, not to nicely should I add.
"Okay." I grab my hand, I flinch. He sees this and let's go.
"Sorry." He mumbles. He starts walking looking at me with a look that tells me to follow him. I gaze one more time at Rose and she gives me a thumbs up.
I walk after him; he leads me to his room. Almost every wall in Jaspers room has book shelves all almost full with books, his walls are a dark green, whereas, his shelves are dark brown. In the middles of his room there is a queen size bed that has a dark green bed spread; his bed set is dark brown along with his desk in the corner of his room. There are a couple of pictures of the south on his wall, horses running, mountain tops, waterfalls. It's all very beautiful; you would never guess that a football player's room would ever look like this.
"Bella please sit down." He points to the brown couch to the left of his room. I do as he says and sit down…
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Next Chapter will be the big talk, who knows will they get together or not? Review! Merry Christmas! Hopefully I'll update in the new year!
Yours truly,
Runner