Alright guys, I know. Murder me for not updating sooner, it's been FOREVER. However, total computer bans kinda make it hard to get on and type more up for my lovely readers :(

It's done now though! And I'll try update like ASAP :) though not promising certain dates just in case :\

Definitely next Monday night at the LATEST though, because then I'll have my phone, and if I have to type it on that, I WILL!

This chapter is especially for Lauren :) because I love her. Hehe, and the rest of my amazing readers.

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Disclaimer: We all know this is Richelle Mead's. I just wish Adrian was mine :)

Chapter Four:

I'm leaving, and I'm not coming back.

Over and over, his words played in my head. I didn't know if I was awake of asleep. I could just see his emerald green eyes, so meserising yet so void of emotion.

She's obviously moved on. Maybe she never loved me in the first place.

I never knew someone's words could hurt me like that. It was as if my heart had shattered into a million tiny pieces, and each jagged piece was cutting me from the inside out. How could he fail to see how I felt about him? It mightn't be love, but it was strong. For him to write me off like that, well, it was like he didn't know me at all. I must have still been awake at that point, because shortly after then I drifted off to sleep- and had the first nightmare I'd had in months. Funny how a broken heart scares me more than death.

I was running, yet everywhere I turned I saw Adrian's face. He looked so sad, so heartbroken; it made me want to cry. I couldn't say how long it lasted, but after what seemed like infinite time had passed, I felt the familiar pull of an Adrian dream. Finally.

My room at the Royal Court materialized around me. How ironic that he would bring us here tonight, the place that brought back so many memories from before my arrest. I was sitting on my bed, wearing simple jeans and a red cropped singlet, with my nazar around my neck and the Dragomir chotki around my left wrist, as per usual. Adrian stood in the doorway, facing away from me. From what I could see of him, he had on dark jeans and a black leather jacket - his hair obviously in its traditional stylishly messy state - and man, did he look amazing. I knew this would be a tough conversation, however, so I stopped thinking about how appealing he looked and instead concentrated on how to breathe, seeing as how he knocked me senseless with the mere sight of him. I willed my heart to stop pounding and resume a normal pace while I took a few deep breaths.

"Adrian."

Wow, my voice sounded really breathless, despite my attempts to calm myself. I mentally scolded myself whilst waiting for some acknowledgement. He went rigid, then eased the tension from his stiff posture and turned to face me. I looked him over from head to toe, astounded at the effect he was having on me. His clothes must have been made for him with the way they fitted perfectly everywhere. And boy, do I mean everywhere. Typical Adrian had chosen to leave him chest bare, and I remembered how sculpted it had felt under my touch three months ago. My gaze followed the perfect lines of his face right up until I met his eyes, and then I was lost; drowning in a sea of emerald green perfection. Seriously, I was content to sit and stare into his eyes all night. He, however, hastily looked away and cleared his throat.

"You said it was... Urgent?" I heard the questioning tone in his voice.

Ah, yes. Lissa's half-sibling. Silly of me to forget, but all I wanted was to finish where we had left off so long ago. Who could blame me?

"Yeah. Um, look about my trial tomorrow..."

I trailed off, unsure of how to start. "Well, just in case things don't, you know, work out too well for me-"

"Things will be just fine." I could see the hurt in his face as he realised what I wasn't saying: I could die tomorrow...

"Adrian, just in case. There's something you need to know."

"If it's about Belikov," he snarled, "I don't want to hear it."

He really was blind. I mean, not that he could know for sure what I was feeling without me saying it. Unless...

"Aura! Look at my aura, what colour is it?" I said excitedly.

He looked at me like I was crazy, but he obliged. I saw his eyes widen with shock, then he smiled smugly. "Little dhampir, your aura's all over the place. It's still ringed with black but-"

"But what?" I asked.

"It's slightly pink, I must admit." He smiled. "Though," he added with a frown, "You could still be thinking about Belikov."

I promptly got off the bed and walked over to him. "Don't be ridiculous, Ivashkov." I hesitated, shocked with where my thoughts were taking me. "I think I love you."

Though I was certain my aura had prepared him for that, I must have been wrong because he looked just about ready to faint.

"Little dhampir, you have no idea how long I've waited to hear you say those three words."

Oh really? Well, now he knew and could be as happy as he wanted, but that still didn't change the fact that my time was limited.

"Adrian... I'm sorry I shut everyone out. I'm sorry I shut you out. I was just in shock about it all, I mean-"

"Shh, it's okay, I forgive you. You'll just have to make it up to me," he hinted with a suggestive tone. I didn't need any more encouragement.

I clasped my hands around his neck and our mouths met. Sinking into his kiss, I marvelled at how I had such an amazing guy all to myself. Sure, most Royal Moroi didn't stay with dhampirs for long, but while it lasted, I was happy. My lips parted as I allowed his tongue entrance into my mouth, and I moaned as his fingers traced patterns across my lower back, fascinated that I would react like that from a simple touch on my bare skin. Mmm, speaking of bare skin, I ran my fingers teasingly down his marvellous chest. Adrian shivered at my touch, and he growled as he pinned me against the wall, crushing my fingers against the button on his jeans. I stifled a giggle against his lips. Did Adrian Ivashkov really just growl? I undid the button and slowly unzipped his jeans, and he let them fall to the floor before kicking them out of our way. His leather jacket soon joined them, and it was at that point he decided to pull away and look me in the eyes.

"We don't have to do this, little dhampir. You've made your point, I believe you're sorry. I don't want you to do anything just because you believe you have to make it up to me."

He sounded sincere, and I knew that he meant it. But I could see in his eyes how badly he wanted this, and well, to be honest so did I.

Slowly, cautiously, I trailed my fingers up his smooth, marble chest and wrapped them around his neck once more. Raising up on my tip-toes, I whispered huskily in his ear, "Ivashkov, now don't think I'm making anything up to you." Playfully biting his earlobe, I added, "You have no idea how badly I want this right now. I need you."

That was all he needed to press me back against the wall. He crushed his lips to mine and I ran my fingers through his hair and held on to him like there was no tomorrow. I don't know how long we stayed like that for, but the next thing I knew I was underneath him on my bed, and my jeans and singlet had long since been discarded.

"Adrian," I whispered, while he trailed kisses along my collarbone. "Please tell me we aren't going to face the same problem as last time?"

He froze. Oh no, I thought.

"Well, I didn't think this was going to happen..."

I sighed. Please don't let me die tomorrow, because one of these days we'll finish what we started. Adrian gave me one last lingering kiss on the lips before rolling to the other side of the bed.

"What's the matter, babe? Afraid I'll bite?" I teased.

He groaned. "No, Rose. I'm afraid I will."

I thought that over for a minute, then glanced over at him. "Well..." I begun.

"Little dhampir," he sighed. "Don't make this harder for me than it already is."

I giggled. "Yeah, it looks pretty hard to me."

Adrian rolled his eyes. "You're not helping."

You'll thank me later, I thought, as I slowly positioned myself on top of him.

"Little dhampir," he warned.

I licked my lips, and I knew his self control was wavering. Leaving a trail of kisses up his neck, I bit him just under his ear. Then I pulled my hair back to reveal my neck.

"Your turn," I teased.

He didn't need telling twicce. In the blink of an eye, he sunk his fangs into my neck and moaned. I was drowning in pure ecstasy, and the world started to spin a little. Not that I cared. I could feel myself arching into Adrian and the effects of his bite taking me over. This sweet high was better than anything- the fact that it was in a dream meant nothing. It was over all too quickly, however, and he promptly moved to the other side of the bed. Probably worried I'd get some crazy ideas or something. Then I remembered.

"Oh, Adrian," I said in a sing-song voice.

He raised and eyebrow and said nothing. I reached over to my bedside table and retrieved the note I had received from Tatiana. Then I rolled over next to him and lay facing him.

"Haven't you had enough for one night?" He questioned jokingly.

I pretended to look deep in thought while running my fingers down his chest for what had to be the hundredth time tonight. "The question is, have you had enough?"

His breathing sped up, and then stopped when my fingers reached the top of his blue silk boxers. Smiling seductively at him, I used my other hand to slide the Queen's note under the waistband. Then I leaned over and kissed the lowest part of his stomach that wasn't covered by silk.

"Read that when you wake up," I said to him. "And now, Ivashkov, send me back to sleep please."

He laughed. "How many times do I have to tell you, little dhampir. You are asleep."

"Doesn't feel like it." I smiled. "Love you, Adrian."

"Love you too, little dhampir. Sweet dreams."

And then it all faded away, and I awoke in my prison cell once more. Good thing I was already horizontal, or the next thing I saw would have knocked me flat.

"Ah, Rosemarie. How lovely to see you again."

Oooooh who's visiting Rose? Hehe, man I love Adrian. :) Who agrees Chace Crawford is like the ideal Adrian?

*this is the part where you agree :P*

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