HI! I am watching Dr. House. lol

I have a thing for medical shows this days...well it only consist of Grey's Anatomy, Dr. House and NCIS (Ducky!)

I hope you'll enjoy this chapter. This story is faster and I know I told it could only consist of three to four but next chapter will not be the last. Only two chapters more...

Anyway, I been hearing these songs. "About you now," by Sugababes and "Tighten Up," by Black Keys.

Ok...plz review! Thanks! XD

- Rose

The Clock

"Yes, I understand. I will come in Saturday morning," I hung up the phone; I took a quite glance at Edward who was drinking his wine. I smile, but he didn't see me or snapped his head to my direction.

I walked towards him and sat down on the table.

"Who was that?" he asked. He was still so skeptic since our first date. When he had brought me to this same restaurant and after the appetizer, I fainted and had to be brought to the hospital.

"The doctor," I left it at that. His eyes were burning a hole in my forehead, he was so protective. But he couldn't protect me from death.

"What did he say?" he didn't want to drop it as much as I did. I sighed and looked at him.

"Same thing as always, that I have to be back at the hospital by ten and that Saturday I been transfer to a new wing in the hospital." I explain. He took my hand that was resting on the table.

"Bella, please don't give up," he said, but I didn't face him. I was always worried about what might happen after I die. He…had changed so much. We fought and I knew things about him, that were shameful to him, but eventually I came to understand him and accept him for who he was.

"I am not giving up. I been in the hospital and done everything the doctors ask of me," I didn't look at him. He let out a sigh when the waiter came.

"What would you have for dessert?" the waited asked.

"I'll ha-,"

"Will you bring us the check? Thanks," Edward interrupted me. The waited nodded and left us. I couldn't grow mad but, I was upset. I haven't eaten dessert since my cardiologist said, it was better for me if I didn't.

Edward instead of taking it as a suggestion, or as "eat in moderation", he took it as a "no more sugar for you". He knew I loved desserts and also knew I was always upset when he did that. But how could I blame him, if he only wanted what was best for me?

"I'm sorry, but when you stop doing that; you will not feel mad or upset." He said. I didn't reply his comment. The waiter came a few minutes later and gave him the bill.

I coughed. Edward's head snapped to fast at me that I would've believe it had dislocated it.

"Are you alright?" he asked.

"Fine," I lied.

When I moved the napkin from my mouth there were more than seven drops of blood. I hid the napkin quickly in my lap.

He gave the waiter that bill and smiled. I flashed one right back. He offered his hand and I politely took it.

But when I stood up, something felt wrong, horribly wrong.

I covered my stomach with my forearm and bent. I coughed more time and spilled blood on the floor. Edward didn't think it twice; he sat me back down and took out his phone.

"Carlisle…its bad-,"

"At the restaurant,"

"Alright, please hurry,"

Edward hung up the phone and stroked my hair. He whispered that everything was going to be alright, but I knew he was only trying to convince himself. I couldn't speak, I grew tired and weak and for how it looked like this would be my last night out of the hospital. When I see my doctor he will have be chained to a bed and I will no longer do anything but fight for my lost life.

I quit school a month ago, because I couldn't do my homework and grew tired. This was our third date, and it takes a while to get permission from all my doctors to say it's alright. Carlisle was my chaperone if I ever did go out. But since my second date, Edward took several courses with him on how to treat me if anything went wrong with me. He knew that Edward wanted privacy and not something hovering over our every move.

Edward lifted me and carried me to his car. One thing I loved about him was his taste in cars. His were a Silver Volvo with the need for speed. I smiled 'cause every time I saw that car reminds me of our first make out session, that wasn't innocent to the last drop.

We had arrived to the hospital in a couple of minutes, we both stayed silent the whole ride; only hearing the sound of the engine and shifts and sometimes the wind racing through the trees. I wasn't fine; I was silent for a reason. Edward's eyes shifted to me every minute. His phone had marked Carlisle phone, so he could call him even faster.

When we arrived Carlisle put me in a wheelchair and drove me to my room.

My neurologist was there, he looked like Dr. Sheppard. I started watching Grey's Anatomy not too long ago and called him McDreamy which was totally inappropriate according to Edward. But Alice and I called him like that; he would laugh and would say "seriously" just like Meredith would.

"Bella, we are going to get you a CT scan, to see what had happen tonight." He said and left the room. Edward was sitting with his piercing eyes making a hole in my forehead.

"Edward, please stop looking at me like that," I pleaded him; he just rolled his eyes and went back to ignoring the state I was in. He couldn't completely accept it yet. Every time I would say, not after in four months or three months, because he would get pissed off and tell me.

"You are not gonna die!" he would say over and over again. Which would irritate me, but if I wanted someone by my side if would be him. He accepted me as I am, as in lying in a hospital bed, taking constant care of me until a miraculously I would get better.

I felt selfish as well, because instead of having a life like a normal adult would. After college he would go straight here and watch me. He studies of course, but always here. If he wasn't studying, he would be here. I wanted him to have a life. And I was the only thing keeping him here…and I like that, but I wasn't too happy about it either.

After the CT scan, Alice told me they were going out for drinks. Alice birthday would be in two weeks, when Jasper's was tomorrow. I was kind of sad; I wouldn't be able to go. But it would be better if they have fun, without someone sick being a constant worry.

Edward hadn't decided if he should go or not. Alice tried to convince him but, he wouldn't bulge.

When everybody went home, it had become ten o'clock. Edward's eyelids would flutter once in awhile.

"Go home and get some sleep," I told him. His head snapped up.

"No, I am alright. When you go to sleep, I will fall asleep soon after that," he said, picking up a magazine next to him.

I stared at him for a couple of minutes, he hadn't notice my eyes were looking at him.

"Why won't you go Jasper's birthday party?" I asked. Edward let out a irritating sigh and looked up.

"Because I don't want to," Liar, liar pants on fire.

"And don't even think about 'Liar, liar pants on fire'" Damn… my eyes widen and his smartass smirk flashed across his face.

"Then why?"

"Because I want you to go as well, they were your friends first. Jasper and I only met, it would be weird to be around someone who doesn't know me that well. If you were there, I could be 'Bella's date' but, if I got alone, it would be 'who is he again?' and I just don't want that," he explain.

"That's a well manufacture excuse," I huffed. Edward stood up from his seat and came to the edge of the bed, stroking my hair.

"Alright, while I am having fun, having a couple of drinks; you are taking several tests for God knows what. It's not fair," he said giving my forehead a quick kiss.

"You don't have to do that, it's one night. I am taking test anyway…don't waste time. Please go for me. Be me there, with my friends whom I love so much but can't be there because I have to take useless tests," Edward rolled his eyes and sigh. He had caved.

"Alright," I smiled. I reached his neck with my hand and pulled him closer to me. I gave him a deep kiss that was filled love, passion and lust, above the three was lust.

He broke the kiss. I frown, he always stop because my health couldn't take it anymore. I tugged his shirt to pull him closer, and he let. I kissed him again for a what seemed to be a long minute. He pulled away again. I let go of his shirt and he sat back down again.

"Go home, study if you want. I don't want to feel like I am too weak to look over myself. It makes me feel like a child," I explain.

"Alright, but don't think you have won, but because I don't want to fight or discuss tonight," he said.

"Better,"

He came closer gave me a kiss on the lips and then my forehead.

"I love ya, crazy girl," He left.

'Ahhh' I screamed my guts out and I search for the nurse button. I felt a sharp go through me as I kept screaming. My heart felt as if it were about to burst from my chest, my lungs were constricted and couldn't breathe well.

A nurse came in soon after and everything went black.

The last thing that passed through my mind was that I hadn't much time left.

Edward came to me in the morning, he was shouting. I am guessing they told him about the episode early morning and how he wasn't told about it…and how I told them to let him know in the morning.

He barged into the room and started pacing in front of me both fingers dug into his hair and cursing under his breath. I didn't speak; I wasn't going to fuel the fire that was burning inside of him.

I was close to the ICU and a man in his '50's passed through the hallway. A woman not far behind him looked inside my room and kept walking but a few second later she came back and her eyes were looking at Edward.

"Edward?" the woman exclaimed in a beautiful British accent. My eyes widen at her voice and her presence mostly. He looked at her and smiled, but it had vanished quickly. I couldn't help but to feel jealous.

"Lauren," he said under his breath, but he made no sign of interest toward her, which relieved me a little bit.

"Mommy!" A little boy scream from the halway. The boy check through the door and my eyes widen.

He was small and bronze hair. His eyes were hazel like the mother's. He was slim like Edward. His nose was identical as Edward and his small eyes. He was little Edward. I wonder if that's how our children would look. Don't get your hopes up! Wait a moment…

I searched for Edward's eyes, but he was petrified as stone. He was a goner. That means he didn't know he was a father. The room grew silent and completely awkward.

The woman named Lauren, her head jumped from Edward to the boy and me to Edward. She let out a loud gasp, but Edward was still a goner. She had my attention.

"Gosh, no!" she exclaimed. Edward was still watching the child.

"His father looks like Edward…that's all" she laughed. Did she think this was funny? A man like Edward that was impossible, I knew it was. She opened her bag, but someone had knocked on the door.

I laughed. The man looked at me with a confused expression.

"Sorry," I said under my breath.

The man had short bronze hair, military cut. His eyes were light brown and he was buff like Emmet. He was taller than Edward just for a couple of inches. He put his arm around Lauren and smiled. The man's eyes reached Edward's body and his eyes widen.

"I am sorry for the confusion. You must be Edward," he said entering the room. He looked nothing like Edward but, now I knew where the bronze and nose came from.

Edward was still a goner; I need to bring him back to reality.

"Edward!" I yell at him.

His eyes finally met mine.

"Sorry," he said so quite, if I weren't looking at him. I would've never known he had said so.

"Louder!" I said in a higher voice.

"Sorry," he said normally. I nodded my approval.

"It was nice to meet you. Can you please come back later? He is in quite a shock," I explain. Lauren looked worried, but nodded. She took her son in her arms and left the room.

I cleared my throat. Edward looked ashamed.

"I guess, that's secret is out,"

"It could've been kept a secret if you hadn't put such a face,"

"He looked just like me!" he exclaimed.

"Come over here," he slump his shoulder and hung his head in defeat and walked toward me.

I tugged his shirt and pushed him towards me. His lips crushed mine and his opened his mouth inviting me in. I savor his tongue, our movement…the feeling. He didn't break the kiss as he usually would. He put a knee in the bed, his hands were moving toward my chest. He went to second base; honestly this doesn't look so pretty in a hospital gown. His hands reached my back and untied the knots taking the upper part and sliding it down. I was braless and topless and he was enjoying himself as was I. I kissed him deeply I dug my fingers in his crazy hair. He went on top of me, finally getting himself completely over me, his chest was crushing mine. He lifted his torso a bit, so I could unbuttoned his shirt. Our kissed broke several time while he planted kissed on my neck.

I finally finished the infinite buttons and took his shirt off. My heart rate was accelerating and if someone came into the room they would also know. The machine monitoring my heart was beeping like crazy. I wanted to laugh but, we were such in the moment.

He was still over the covers. I broke the kiss.

Yeah, I know but I got my reasons, wait for it.

"Under it," I breathed. His face flashed me a smile, he jumped down and while he took the cover off me. I took the rest of the gown off me. The good things about hospitals is that you are completely naked under them, just in case something happen. But it had to be today that I left my panties on… Edward saw them and planted kissed on my stomach and lower and lower reaching my most sensitive area.

I was going to die in a few months. I wanted to be with Edward in any humanly way possible. I let out a moan; his reached my face again and kissed me. I could feel him wanting the same thing as me. Trust me when I say this.

"Edward," I moan. His went to my chest.

"Sweet Jesus," he groaned. I felt Edward's hand reached the edges of my underwear and pulling them down.

'Bam' the door open.

"How are you doing this evening, Miss Swan?"

Complete silence.

Do you think he sees us? I though. Of course he does you idiot! He isn't blind!

Edward got off me quickly covering me with the hospital blanket.

"I'll come back in a moment,"

He closed the door.

Edward reached my gown; I put my arms through the holes. I turned my back to Edward so he could help me. He tied all the strings.

He zipped up his pants and his belt. I didn't take off his pants, but did unzip them in the heat of the moment. He put his shirt and looked in the mirror and out of nothing started laughing.

I looked at him incredulously.

"Among all people that could've caught us," I said at him.

"Better him than your own father," he said turning around to face me.

"True, but still," I said.

Dr. Cullen entered the room again. He looked at Edward with a I-am-so-disappointed-in-you face. And then change his gaze to me. I hung my head in shame.

"How are we feeling today?"

"Fine," Edward couldn't hold his laughter.

Carlisle shot him a death stare, his smile turn in to a hard line and left the room. I swear I heard Carlisle say 'Bastard' under his breath. I hid my humorous smile.

Dr. Cullen injected some medicine into my tubes.

"Bella, you shouldn't do that again," I was obviously embarrassed. I kept my head hung in shame.

"You are weak and you won't be able to live through the pain it causes," he kept on explaining.

"He knows this, but I guess this was a weird way of accepting you are going to die, sooner than later," A nurse came through the door.

"Let's do the same procedure, just a little bit more aggressive. It has spread to her organs and the tumor is twice the size it was last week," he said, the nurse nodded and left. When she left, he kept on talking.

"Edward will be suspended from the hospital for two weeks. This I say as his father. He will come for an hour each day. He is in college and I don't want your death to mess the progress he has done so far,"

"Carlisle, don't make let him come back…I don't want him to hate you, so tell him the truth. I am dying and my death will affect him. I don't want to die knowing he will be lost for a long time. I don't want him to be the man he became after his mother die," my words seem like daggers stabbing my heart.

Carlisle speaks the truth, I must sacrifice for what best for us.

"This will shut him…,"

"No, this will taught him to let go, before I do,"

I knew he wasn't too comfortable with my decision, but I knew what I was doing. I hope.

The days passed and no sign of Edward. This was a good thing, but I couldn't help myself to cry myself to sleep every night.

Alice would come after school and tell me all about that day. Jasper would join her if he didn't have work. Rosalie, Alice and I would plan the wedding. We had today food tasting.

"Alice, this is so good!" I said tasting the bland Chicken Alfredo. I couldn't taste anymore, but I didn't want to confirm what she already knew.

She smiled.

"Oh, Bella, you have to taste this," Rosalie said giving me a spoon of pumpkin soup.

This I could taste, because the pumpkin flavor was strong enough so the smallest amount of taste could be tasted.

"Oh, this is good," I said, Rosalie flashed me a big smile and Alice as well.

"How is he?"

"I haven't seen him in awhile, he moved to an apartment close to college," Alice said in a grim voice.

I nodded and kept eating the different entrées in front of me.

Emmet barged into the room. I couldn't hold my laugh.

"Hi, Bella-fella,"

"What? Is that another lame nickname?"

"HA, HA, HA,"

Rosalie stood up and kissed him. Jasper came in with a big white box.

"No, I am strong enough to carry this from the car!" he said sarcastically.

He was, but the box look quite heavy.

"They're here," she squeals.

Jasper opened the box and there was an espresso color fabric. Alice took it out and both Rosalie and I gasped.

Rosalie ran to Alice and took it, entering the bathroom. A couple of minutes later she came out.

It was a cocktail length v-neck dress with bow detail at shoulders of duchess bodice and matching sash at waist with a full tulle skirt.

"Alice, it's beautiful" I commented. She smiled.

I cough and Emmet was already by my side. I laughed while all four pairs of eyes stared at me.

"Guys, I am alright!" I exclaimed. While they all turn around, I took the bowl next to me and spitted blood.

Alice pulled out two shoe boxes and gave one to Rosalie and another to me.

I pulled the lid up.

There was a pair of peep toe satin ballet flats with pretty grosgrain ribbon bow in a pretty ivory color.

Rosalie squeals and shows me hers. Hers were Sexy and chic sky high platform pump also in ivory color.

Alice knew I couldn't walk in heels, even if I weren't sick, because she knew I would fall in the first second walking with them.

"Smart," Emmet commented.

After that Jasper and Emmet left and let us girl to more wedding business.

One hour later someone knocked on my door and Alice went excited to the door. Two racks with white wedding dresses.

I cough and again, again.

And everything went black.

When I was hospital-fine-I-can-at-least-speak-now, my eyelids fell heavy and I felt weak. I opened my eyes; the first thing I saw was the day outside the window. It was dark but it had a faded jean blue, it was early morning.

The second thing I saw was a man asleep, his head hung resting quietly. His head filled with thoughts unknown to the outside world, he might be dreaming things he will never remember.

The third thing I saw was the truth. How my death wouldn't affect him, as twice as it would me. Leaving this man behind was hurtful, while he was away at least I could keep thinking I was on the same earth as him, I knew I was only miles away from him.

And how darkly and secretly his heart crept inside of me, it became the darkest of love. The one that was selfish as I need him to be there with me, until I slowly crept away.

TA-DA!

It's coming around. Edward wasn't going to be away for too long, but something tells me he wasn't a saint when he was away.

I hope you enjoyed it!

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PS: Bridesmaids dresses can be found on my profile and the shoes as well. They are so beautiful.

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