When Dean got back to his apartment he closed the door and locked it behind him. He stared into empty leaving room and sighed. He remember back to a time where there was always someone waiting on him when he walk in the door but those days were over now. He let Holly walk out of his life and he never said a word to stop her. So many time over the first few days he was at Bobby's all he wanted to do is pick up the phone and tell her he loved her and wanted to come home but there was always something stopping him.
He never blamed Sam for anything that happened between him and Holly. Dean knew he made his own choices when it came to his little brother. The only regret he had was not putting as much effort into his marriage. In the back of his mind he thought they would work it out like always but when he saw her two weeks after he left he knew it was over. The look in her eye told him it was.
Dean grabbed a beer and just as he sat down, there was a knock at the door. He got up and when he opened it he smiled, "Hey Sammy"
"Hey Dean" he said and walked into the apartment, "Nice plays."
"Yeah well as Will said, it will do for now."
"Smart kid. So how is my nephew?"
"Getting bigger everyday." Dean said and went to grab a beer for Sam, "So what have you been up two these last few months?"
"You know just...driving around." Sam said taking the beer from Dean and looking off.
Dean knew exactly what he had been doing, "Did you find her?" he asked Sam.
"Dean do you really want to know?"
"No but I figured you are here so something had to have gone down."
Sam thought for a minute and smiled up at Dean, "I found her." Dean looked at his brother and was a little nervous as to what exactly happened, "I found her and I know what you are thinking."
Dean gave Sam a fake concussed look and crossed his arms, "No you don't."
"Yes I don't and I don't blame you for thinking that I went back down the demon blood road but I didn't."
Dean let out a sigh of relief,"Then what did you do?"
"There wasn't much I could do but send her back to hell and that what I did. With Bobby's help of course."
"So you're telling me that she gone like back to being Satan's number one bitch?"
"Yeah I guess so."
"Then what the hell are you doing here? You should be out living it up or something. Getting on with your life."
"I couldn't do that. I can't move on with my life until…." Sam pauses and looked at Dean.
"Until what?"
"Until I fix yours."
Dean rolled his eyes, "Sam there is nothing to fix. I'm fine." He said and walked into the kitchen and Sam wasn't far behind.
"Don't lie to me Dean. You are not fine. Hell you haven't been fine for years and we both know that."
"Sam don't"
"Don't what Dean, tell you the truth? I mean hell you and Holly were divorced for a year before you took your wedding ring off so don't tell me you're fine."
"Sam just drop it ok."
"No I won't drop it because this is all my fault and I have to live with that. If it wasn't for all the stupid mistakes I made you and Holly would be on kids number three right now and I know that."
"Sam this wasn't your fault. It just didn't work. It had nothing to do with you."
"Dean maybe it's not to late to fix things."
Dean was beginning to get frustrated. He knew that what he had with Holly was long gone and it was sick of talking about it, "It's over between me and her. I am here for Will and him only." Dean said and walked into the bedroom slamming the door behind him.
Sam knew that it was his fault that Holly told Dean to leave and it was up to him to fix things for his brother before it was too late.
Sam pulled into the driveway and looked up at the house, "Here goes nothing." He got out of the car and hoped that this visit would go better than the last time they spoke to each other.
He rang the door bell and it wasn't long before Holly came to the door, "Sam?"
"Hey Holly."
"What are you doing here?" she asked and pulled him into a hug, "It's good to see you."
"You too. You look great Holly."
"Thank you so do you. Please come inside." She said and moved to let him in, "So what brings you by?"
"I was just in town visiting Dean and thought I would come see my nephew. Is he here?"
"No I'm sorry you just missed him. He is at baseball practice."
"Oh ok…..well maybe I should go then."
"Don't be silly. We have some catching up to do."She said and Sam followed her into the living room.
It had been a long time since they had seen each other and the last time Holly had just found out about the demon blood and that was two week before she told Dean to move out, "How have you been?" he asked her as he sat down. She was like a sister to him until that day.
"I am doing good. Will is getting bigger everyday." Sam smiled at her and looked around the room. Everything was the same. There was an awkward silence between the two as Holly watched Sam play with his hands, "Is everything ok with you Sam?"
He just looked up at her and forced a smile, "Things are getting better everyday I guess."
"That's good to hear. I was worried about you there for awhile" Holly looked at the floor as a tear rolled down her cheek, "I am so sorry Sam." She said and looked up at him, "I never should have said the things I said to you back then."
Sam got up and walked over to her, "Hey come here. You had every right." He said and pulled her into a hug, "I wasn't thinking."
Holly pulled back and looked at him, "I shouldn't have pushed you away Sam. We were family and I should have done something to help you and Dean. I just..."
"Lets just not talk about it ok." The day she found out about the blood was one day they would never forget. It was they last time the spoke face to face:
Flashback
Holly ran into Bobby Singers house and grabbed her bag, "Will let's go tight now!" she called out to him.
Sam ran in the door and grabbed Holly, "I can explain." She jerked her arm.
"Stay away from me." She seethed, "and my son do you understand me?"
"Please just talk to me Holly." Sam begged, "It's not what you think."
"Oh no? So I didn't see you sucking blood from your demon skank?"
"I am doing this to stop Lilith."
Holly rolled her eyes and crossed her arms, "does Dean know about this great plan?"
Sam just lowered his head, "no and he is not going to know about it." Holly just nodded and walked over to the stair and Sam stopped her again, "Please don't say anything to him. Not yet."
One again Holly pulled away from him, "Don't touch me Sam. I knew you went off the deep end when Dean died but I never thought it was this bad. You are a sick evil son of a bitch and I swear you better not come with 100 feet or me or my son or as God as my witness I will kill you. Do you understand me?"
Sam just looked at her once more and knew this was bad. He felt his heart break a little because he feared he would never see his nephew again and Dean would never forgive him for this.
Holly just looked at him once more before going upstairs and packing her bags. She never told Dean what she saw that day and she would always keep it that way.
A few days later Dean told her everything but that didn't matter. He was willing to do whatever for Sam but not for her and that's the way it was and would always be and she just accepted it like always but this time it was too late for her and Dean.
End Flashback
Sam and Holly stood there in the living room just looking at each other, "Holly I want you to know I understand why you said and did what you did. I would have done the Sam thing if I were in your shoes."
"I was just going through a lot at the time."
"Yeah I know with Dean right? Holly he loved you and he still does."
Holly walked over to the couch and sat down, "Sam you need to understand something. I don't blame Dean or even you for what happened in our marriage. I knew what I was getting myself into when I married him. Sometimes these things just don't work out the way we want them to work out."
"Do you still love him?" Sam asked and Holly glared at him.
"What? Why would you ask me that Sam?"
"I'm sorry I should have but if he still love you and you still love him maybe….."
"Sam stop ok. I am getting married in a few months and I am happy with my life now and believe me Dean doesn't feel the Sam way he use to feel about me. I know that for a fact. I understand that you want to help your brother but none of this was your fault. Some people are just not meant to be together."
Sam was about to say something to her when he heard someone else come up behind him, "Sam Winchester?"
He stood up and turned around to see Holly's Aunt May, "Hey" he said and walked over to her, "How are you?"
"I can't complain." She said and pulled back from him, "Well this town is just crawling with Winchesters now isn't it?"
Sam laughed, "I guess it is. What can I say, we miss your cooking." He said.
"Well you and Dean are welcome over my place anytime you want. In fact what about to night?"
"Oh I don't want to impose."
"Oh you hush. I would love to have you boys over and Holly and Will can come also."
Holly looked at her Aunt and knew she had something up her sleeve, "Jack is working late so I can't make it but Will can go."
"You are coming Holly and that's it."
"Fine" Holly said and walked out of the room.
May waked and made sure Holly was out of the room before turning back to Sam, "Listen I heard what you said."
"About what?"
"You want to get the two back together don't you?"
"Well I …..No I just want to know if I could help them but Holly said….."
"Holly is confused right now. She loves Dean and we all know that."
"But she said she is getting married and she does seem happy."
May rolled her eyes at him, "Listen to me Sam, Holly and Dean were meant to be together. If she marries Jack she wont be happy and neither will Jack and they will just end up divorcing and she doesn't need to go though that again."
Sam ran his fingers through his hair and smiled, "You're good."
"Thanks I try. So see you at 8?"
"We will be there." He said and smiled as Aunt May walked away. He had to admit, she did always get what she wanted but he just wondered how this dinner was going to go.
A/N: thank you guys for reviewing the last chapter...you guys kick ass! Pleas review again and make the muse happy :)