Chapter Five

Waking up for the first time in weeks.

Bella's Pov

I don't know how long I've been battling against this darkness for, it could have been hours, days, weeks but finally I had won and I was able to squeeze my hand which I realise someone was holding and my eyes started to flutter open.

I took in everyone's shocked faces.

"S-s-hh-ee, you're awake?" A beautiful blond said.

I started to panic where was i?

"Where am…" I started.

Everything came rushing back to me, everything that had happened to me also Edward and who everyone here where.

"Edward?" I whispered.

"I'm here Bells." He said holding my hand tighter.

"How long have I been out?" I asked confused.

"Four weeks you've been in a coma for." He said.

"What?" I nearly shouted.

"Bella sweetie I think you should rest and we will talk about it in the morning." Carlisle said.

"Yeah we will see you tomorrow Bells." Emmett said.

After everyone said their goodbyes they left.

"Aren't you going home to Edward?" I asked him.

"No. I haven't left your side since and I don't plan to either. Sleep Bella and we will all talk tomorrow, I'll be right here when you wake up. Goodnight." He said kissing my forehead.

"Goodnight Edward." I said.

After a couple of minutes I feel into a deep sleep. I was re-living my nightmare all over again.

Everything that happened when he took me and Edward happened all over again, I was re-living everything.

I woke up screaming and crying.

"Bella sweetie you need to calm down." Edward said.

I tried so hard to calm down but I couldn't.

"Bella, I need you to take deep breaths really slowly for me can you do that for me?" Carlisle asked.

I took long deep breath to calm myself down and after a while I was fine.

I didn't realise it was morning already but it was and everyone was here looking at me with sad faces.

"I'm fine." I assured them all and I knew none of them believed me.

A few days passed and the nightmares carried on, every day I would wake up screaming and crying. I started to shut myself off from everyone, My dad Charlie, Esme, Carlisle, Alice, Jasper, Rose, Emmett and even Edward. It was my fault he got shot and it was my fault why everyone was hurting because I couldn't even talk to them. The police even came to get my statement but I couldn't bring myself to tell them so they left and said they will have to come back in a couple of days to get it. Everyone looked at me differently like I was some broken wreck, I mean I was but the pity in their eyes, I didn't want their pity and it killed me to ignore the people I loved but I just wasn't ready to talk to anyone just yet.

Everyone had left and it was just me and Edward.

"Bella please talk to me, say something please I'm going out of my mind here." He all but shouted.

He saw how I moved away from him and he realise he scared me and apologized.

"I'm sorry Bella I really am." He said sadly.

"i-i-it-ts s'okay." I stumbled out quietly.

"I've missed you." He said.

"M-m-m-e-e t-t-ooo," I managed to get out.

"I'm sorry Bella." He said.

"F-f-oor w-what." I asked confused.

"If I never took you into the woods like you said you didn't want to I shouldn't have all this happened because of me, if I hadn't have interfered and realised sooner that the only reason you were cold towards us was because you were protecting us. Arrahh I'm so stupid." He said as a few tears fell down.

"No Edward none of this and I mean none of this is your fault it is mine, I should never of moved here I should have stayed away and none of you would have been in danger at all. It was me he wanted but everyone I loved got hurt because of me Edward me." I said as more tears fell.

When he never answered I carried on.

"I should have told someone anyone just to keep everyone I love safe, why was I so stupid I knew he would come back." I said as more tears fell.

"Baby please none of this is your fault okay, I don't want to hear you blame yourself anymore because he is a sick bastard and no one could have stopped him." He said.

Edward stayed with me just holding me close.

All too soon for me his family came in.

"Oh we are sorry maybe we should just go." Esme said.

"No it's okay Esme stay." I said.

"Ok sweetie."

Everyone sat around my bed and all told me and Edward the latest gossip of Forks High but I wasn't really there I was in my own little world.

Why was Edward still here didn't he know, didn't any of them know I was r-r-rap-p-ped. I was broken beyond repair, so why the hell does Edward want me. At the thought of that it broke me and a few tears escaped.

"Bella sweetie, are you okay?" Alice asked.

"Huh? Erm yeah I Erm I'm fine." I stumbled out.

"Can we have a moment alone." Edward said next to me.

"Sure." Esme said as everyone left.

"What's happened? Are you in pain?" He said trying to check me over.

"Physically I guess I'm as good as but mentally not so good." I whispered so low I was surprised he heard me.

"What do you mean?" he asked confused.

"I know what he did to me and I can't stop seeing what he did, he used and abused me and now well now I'm broken beyond repair so why are you still here." I said as my tears fell down.

"I know what he did to you Bella and I'm sorry I couldn't do a thing to stop him, I feel so guilty he even got to you. I want to be here Bella I I…"

"You what Edward?" I said cutting him off.

"I well I don't know if this is the right time to tell you but I have to I can't lose you Bella, I love you." He said.

I could speak did he just say he loved me but why I'm so broken.

"Please say something Bella, please." He begged.

"I love you to." I said before I registered what I just said.

"You do?"

"Y-y-yeah-hh." I stumbled out.

He took my hand in his and kissed it and he held me close to him for the rest of the day.

Days passed and Carlisle said I was improving and I would be aloud out of the hospital on one condition which was I had to move in with them until I was completely better.

"This is going to be so much fun Bellie." Emmett said.

"She will be resting Emmett." Carlisle said seriously.

"Oh man this sucks." Emmett sulked.

We all started to laugh and Emmett just sulked more.

"Right let's leave Bella to rest." Carlisle said as everyone said goodbye and left.

"Right you need to sleep, you have a big day today baby." Edward said kissing my head.

"Night Edward." I said and fell straight to sleep.

The nightmares still came that night but when I did wake up crying and screaming it wasn't because of the same thing that happened because this time Edwards never made it.

"I'm here baby, calm down." Edward said.

"You're here?" I asked.

"Yes why wouldn't I be? I told you I'm not going to leave your side and I meant it." He said.

"No maybe I'm still dreaming?" I said.

"Bella what happened?" Edward asked confused.

"You…You're not really here you died Edward you died." I said as I started to hyperventilate.

"Bella it was just a nightmare, I'm alive." He said as he took a hold of my face and kissed me.

"Now do you believe me?" he asked.

"It felt so real, I'm sorry Edward." I said.

"It's okay baby." He said holding me closer.

"Morning Bella how are you feeling today sweetie?" Carlisle asked.

"Yeah better." I said.

"Good, well later on you will be allowed to leave and come home with us." He said.

"What about Charlie?" I asked.

"He is fine with it. He said he will be working to much to be able to be there for you." Carlisle said.

"Okay."

After they did a few more test, they finally said it was okay for me to leave.

Edward helped get all my stuff together and he helped me out of the hospital.

"Thank you." I said to him once he helped me into the car. "I love you." I said.

"I love you to baby, more than anything in the world." He said kissing me.

In that moment I knew I wanted nothing more than Edward he was my rock and my world and I've never loved someone as much as I love him.