More Than A Feeling
Disclaimer: I don't own Criminal Minds or NCIS, they're CBS brain child.
Summary: AU fic. Emily and Hotch are best friends. When Emily decides she wants to have a baby on her own she asks her friend NCIS Tony DiNozzo if she can use his sample that he donated years before, but what happens when her best friend Hotch falls for her and doesn't think this is a good idea?
A/N: No set timeline, but on CM's the Doyle drama didn't happen so Emily and JJ are there not Seavers'. On NCIS there's no EJ Barrett so all's clear on that end. Only a tiny tidbit of NCIS is in this story and it's mostly Tony with small cameos of a few NCIS characters.
Emily hated when she was nervous, it caused her OCD to hype up and she walked around her apartment double checking that everything was in perfect order.
Emily walked into her kitchen to check if her lasagna was ready and pulled the rolls out of the oven.
Sighing she set her dinner table, she knew whenever she invited Tony over that it was best to having something ready for him to eat, because he was always hungry.
Emily chuckled remembering the one time that he raided her refrigerator in desperate need of something to eat.
Emily pulled the plates out and checked the lasagna again seeing it was ready she heard Tony at her door knocking.
Walking over to the door she heard Tony's voice say "Do I smell lasagna?"
He walked into her apartment giving her a kiss on the cheek and said "Smells good."
Tony walked over to the table and said "So what did you want to talk about?"
Emily sat across from Tony at the table and saw him digging into the lasagna and sipping the soda she put in front of him.
"Well." Emily said "I wanted to know if it's ok that I use your donation you made at the sperm bank to have a baby."
Emily saw Tony look surprise and started choking on the soda so Emily went behind him to hit him on the back.
"Breathe, Tony." Emily said. "You ok?"
"You what?" Tony asked once he got his breathing under control.
"I want to have a baby, Tony." Emily said "And you made a "deposit" years ago and I wanted to know if it would be ok to use yours."
Emily held her breath while she watched Tony's face go from shock and surprise to confused.
Then Emily saw a smirk go across his face and said "If you wanted my baby so badly all you had to do was asked."
Emily looked at him in confusion and said "What?"
"I wouldn't mind contributing the old fashion way." Tony said looking at her horror stricken face he laughed.
"God, the look on your face, Em. Priceless." Tony said "I know, I know. Ok, all joking aside, are you serious about having a baby?"
Emily not trusting her voice nodded.
"Yes, then, Emily." Tony said "But it's not like you even need my permission, that's all up for grabs. You could of just gone down there and order up a little DiNozzo without having to ask me."
Emily looked over at him and said "It just felt more appropriate to ask."
"Sure than, I got no problem helping you contribute to having a family. It's what it's there for." Tony said.
"Thanks, I think." Emily said.
"More than happy to help." Tony said "So when are you going to do all this?"
"I start Monday." Emily said looking at her empty plate, not knowing when she finished her food.
"Do you want me to go down there with you?" Tony asked. "Moral support?"
"Would you?" Emily asked "I haven't even told any of my friends."
"Not even Hotch?" Tony asked surprised "But he's your best friend."
"I'm afraid of what they'll say." Emily said.
"They love you, they'll support you." Tony said confidently. "At least tell Hotch."
"Fine." Emily said watching Tony visibly relax.
After Tony left Emily sat on her couch staring out her window and sighed.
'Might as well get it over with' Emily thought 'Maybe Tony's right, he'll be supportive.'
Emily dialed Hotch's number and heard him say "Hello?"
"Hotch?" Emily said "Can you come over? I need to talk to you."
"Sure." Hotch said "I'll be over in a few minutes."
Emily walked around feeling her OCD kick in again while waiting for her best friend.
'God.' Emily thought 'Why am I more nervous about telling Hotch than I was asking Tony?'
Emily straightened up her already clean kitchen and heard her doorbell ring.
"Hey." Hotch said giving Emily a big smile when he came into her apartment.
"Hi." Emily said "You want something to drink? Coffee, tea, soda or water?"
"Water will be fine." Hotch said walking over to her bar stool in her kitchen.
Emily handed Hotch a bottled water and smiled nervously at him.
"Ok." Emily said taking a deep breath "Since your my best friend I thought I'd tell you something."
"Ok?" Hotch said confused taking a drink of water "What is it?"
Hotch watched in amusement as she took another deep breath again.
"On Monday, I will be going in to be artificially insemination to have a baby." Emily said not looking him in the eye.
Hotch nearly choked on his water and coughed saying "What?"
"I want to have a baby and I already got a donor in mind." Emily said "I asked Tony if I could use his donation."
"DiNozzo? Tony DiNozzo?" Hotch said shocked "Wait what?"
"Years ago, Tony made a contribution to a sperm bank, I asked him if I could borrow some of his genetic material." Emily said.
Hotch looked at her and Emily couldn't read what was on his face since he looked like a blank slate.
"Oh." Hotch said feeling like his heart was ripped out of his chest "Congratulations, I guess."
"Thanks." Emily said "I wanted to tell you. Tony's offered to go with me to my doctor's for moral support and I..."
"Want me to go down there and give you support to?" Hotch said.
"Well, no." Emily said "I wanted Monday off and to ask you if you'd keep this a secret for now, until I'm sure it will take."
"Oh." Hotch said "Ok."
"Do you want to go to my doctor's with me on Monday?" Emily asked wondering why he looked so sad.
"Sure." Hotch said plastering on a fake smile "You could always use another shoulder to lean on."
Emily smiled going over to hug him she said "Thank you Hotch. You really are my best friend."
Hotch hugged her back wishing that he could tell her how he felt.
To Be Continued...